Maddie

A/N: Surprise! Two new writings in one week? (don’t expect this of me more lol). I missed Peter so here’s a Peter piece. Enemies to lovers, living situation inspired by New Girl (literally one of the best shows ever), only the best of the best. As always let me know what you guys think and enjoy!

Warnings: SMUT. DNI if you are under 18. 18+ only

Word Count: 11.6k+

Being in your twenties is such a surreal time in life. There are people who are getting engaged and married. Others are having children. Some work part-time jobs while going to school. The best part is that for the first time ever there is no set in stone plan to follow. You do what you think is right and hope for the best.

That’s why you didn’t second guess your living situation. Honestly, you loved it. Sure, the loft was cramped and at times could be hell on earth, but mostly it was home. Your safe space.

No.

The zebra is a symbol for ANY rare disease, not just EDS. In medical school, providers are taught "if you hear hoof beats, think horses, not zebras." Meaning think of the common causes for a person's symptoms, not rare. Doctors are taught to think of and rule out common conditions before you jump to looking for rare conditions. But sometimes, it is actually the rare disease. It is the zebra.

"But weren't you in pain before?". Yes but this is a new pain that I haven't dealt with before.

"I thought you already had stomach problems?". Yes but this is a new symptom of it that scares me.

"Arent you used to this by now?". No, and I never will be.

My joints are failing me. My digestive system is failing me. My immune system is failing me. My cardiovascular system is failing me. My renal system is failing me. My auditory system is failing me. My reproductive system is failing me. My brain is failing me.

It's not fair! I want to mourn the life I could've led. But I also don't want to be pathetic and not be thankful for the gift of this life.