the nefarious beeper

hey remember how one of my theories about the harassment against patricia was that regurgitating the false claims & misrepresentations allows you to justify having mistreated her in the past? & it lets you characterize her as someone it's ok to mistreat?

like. person A says "you underpaid me", "you treated me badly", etc. person B replies "ok well youre a Groomer so who cares." like it's not subtle, the transmisogynist allegation is itself a response, a defence, & a cudgel. it lets you retreat & reframe the discussion into some juvenile Morality Scaling bullshit. "ohh youre saying ive wronged you? umm well have you considered that youre a worse person than me so it doesnt count?" the transmisogyny at play lets you get away with mistreating her, it lets you escape consequence or accountability for mistreating her. you get to leverage the vitriol people have already heaped onto her to get observers onto your side. willful & eager invocation of privilege allows you to rewrite the conversation from "litigating your behaviour" to "litigating her character"

writing a movie about a violent man in a dress who kills women out of a desire to become one and then insisting over and over that it can't be transphobic (despite it's cultural influence to the contrary) because he isn't a real tranny is. well it's beyond parody isn't it.

reallyyy not a fan of the habit people have of deflecting guilt for making abhorrent and obvious caricatures of trans women in media by insisting that it was actually super progressive because he wasn't a real transsexual!! you see the same shit with rhps. just a complete failure to take some accountability and say "yeah that was insensitive we shouldn't have depicted a real group of people that way and it has brought them material harm as a result."

It's so frustrating when people pull the "but he isn't a trans woman," like yes, the transmisogynistic caricature will not be called a woman by the source material, please consider why that is

Transitioning as someone with no particular internal sense of gender feels a little strange. Im going to be very different yet the same, likely more the same than even I suspect. Plus the hormones havnt had a very strong affect on my mood or state of mind so its like, im very normal rn just changing my body schematics as a hobby. (Wich i am pretty excited about)

lol, lmao even

no post has ever altered my brain chemistry as much as "can only you see the time being?"

heartbreaking and all too common experience: clicking on the op of a nice piece of art to check out their stuff and finding out that their primary creative outlet is minecraft youtuber fanart

best thing tumblr ever did for me is the term "rotating it in my mind". it's really true that sometimes you think about something real hard but you can't tell what the thoughts are exactly. it's revolutionary stuff, i might even say

The tumblr blorbo in the blorbo tumbler.

yeah the doctor said they found the source of my guilt and quiet agony deep within my core. Yeah turns out there really is something physically and fundamentally wrong with me that I've been carrying my entire life. No they said they're not gonna remove it. Said its an "elective surgery" so insurance won't cover it. Anyway how are you

last time i went to the hospital was for throwing up blood and the nurse asked me what i'd eaten the day before and i was like well i had my unholy brew and she asked what that is and i explained that i take a 16oz can of coke and a 16oz can of pepsi and mix them in a 32oz bottle and call it my unholy brew and she took a second, looked at me perplexed, and asked, "why do you do that?"