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Today was another day where people who I worked & grew close with have shifted from the colleagues group to my friends group.  This isn’t the first time this happened.  However, I can’t help but feel a mixture of emotions whenever this happens.

There’s anxiety for what’s to come; grief for losing kick-ass coworkers; relief for being “safe”; more grief & guilt for feeling relief; then the cycle continues.  What is going to happen to our company?  What’s going to happen to my team?  My position?  What the f%#k is going on?! 

I also couldn’t help but have flashbacks to the day when I lost my wonderful team & friends at Fab, which has probably prepared me for whatever professional changes & restructures (& emotional damage) is to come.  However, just because I’ve already gone through this before, doesn’t make it any easier when I see my now friends get taken into conference rooms today for a “talk”. I get it, professionally, but it’s still hard to not take things personally. 

Last night, I ended up hanging out with a few Germans and one of them happened to be a Grammy-nominated musician/DJ (Robin Schulz).  I didn’t even know that I knew any of his songs, but I’m sure everyone has at least heard this song. We were at his concert earlier & my friend, who had randomly invited me to this concert (which was actually sponsored by a radio station) knew his booking agent so we ended up hanging out altogether in Robin’s hotel room after the show, just drinking & talking.  

Downtown we let it go Sunset high and our bodies low Blood rush in the hazy glow My hands, your bones

Loose up we break the scene One step deep as you fall to me Heart clap, we skip a beat Count one two three

And don’t you stop the music Get into it Won't you dance with me?

Find a place and lose it You can do it Won't you dance with me?

Move your feet and feel it in the space between You gotta give yourself a moment, let your body be We gotta lose it We gotta lose it

Your name I’ll never know As we get down in the world below Caught up in an overflow My hands, your bones

Wide eyed, you look at me Set on fire in a silver dream Spin round you can feel the breeze Count one, two, three

And don’t you stop the music Get into it Won't you dance with me?

Find a place and lose it You can do it Won't you dance with me?

Move your feet and feel it in the space between You gotta give yourself a moment, let your body be We gotta lose it We gotta lose it

Make a spark, break the dark Find a light with me Who we are from the start Won't you dance with me?

Make a spark, break the dark Find a light with me Who we are chasing stars Won't you dance with me?

And don’t you stop the music Get into it Won't you dance with me?

Find a place and lose it You can do it Won't you dance with me?