L U P A J

what i mean by that is that many repressed or questioning lesbians don’t think they can be a lesbian for whatever reason, but they want to be. they’re drawn to the word lesbian, lesbian culture, and lesbians in general. they dread the idea that they’ll have to settle down with a man eventually. they wish they could be a lesbian so that they’ll have a reason to not be with men, but they think they’re not cool or brave enough, or that maybe they could possibly, theoretically love a guy at some point so calling themselves a lesbian would be wrong. so to all those questioning wlw out there, i’m telling you right now: if you want to be a lesbian, you’re probably a lesbian. you’re allowed to be a lesbian. 

As time passes, when young people go through what many call their ‘politically angry phase’, there is more and more to be angry about, and more to feel broken about. There is a much higher awareness of the conditioning we go through while we are younger in order to maintain status quo and hold those low, low still so that when we finally are able to step back and see it, we are angrier and more self-aware. I personally hadn’t even come to see myself as a real person with worth-while thoughts, feelings and ideas by the time I was 20. I was at rock bottom. I saw myself as a gross manifestation of fear, dishonesty and indulgence and I absolutely hated myself. I’d also just moved out of my country town to the middle of the city. My eye’s opened to a world where those who perpetuate fear, dishonesty and indulgence have rule & respect. We all share in the sinking feeling of seeing these people win, or seeing them manipulate and suppress under the guise of human progress or community benefits. But a whole lot of cognitive changes happen when you’re 20 and in the current state of the world where what is make-believe is becoming more real - and what is supposed to be real is becoming like make-believe - it makes sense that 20 y.o’s these days are feeling a lil fucked up.

Lupa J @ NGV crop / 2017

make-up for Spring/ Zipper 1998 April

Viktor & Rolf Haute Couture Spring / Summer 2018

Her tail went from ? to !

tumblr is hard

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Stitched some of my favourite frankie cosmos lyrics aka my personal mantra

Remember in Selena when everyone started pushing like crazy during La Carcacha and the foundation of the stage started to collapse… and then the whole family got scared but Selena was like, “No guys, I got this…” and then she just went back out and was like “Como la floooooo-ooooooor” and everyone just got their shit together and started dancing? Well that’s pretty much what happened here, except it was instead of Selena and Como La Flor, it was Thom Yorke and The Gloaming. They were equally moving.