Devil Nobody

Anyways ive just spent my entire life being misinterpreted and i know its not a unique experience by any means but im tired of it im fucking over it like i genuinely was raised believing there is something just fundamentally Wrong about me that i cant ever fix and that the words out of my mouth will always be in bad faith and that no matter what i do no matter how hard i try or how conscious i am about what i say or how i use tone no matter the years and years of therapy and keeping myself in check at the end of the day theres just something Wrong. Something not Right about me. Something that can never be properly worked out. At least according to, you know, my family LMAO

Like jesus christ dude no wonder i spent my adolescence pretty much firmly believing im not human lol and i still question it. Mom used to say i had a Demon in me that would come out sometimes that wasnt her daughter

I was doomed from the start dawg i was never gonna live up to my rich beautiful neurotypical healthy hyperconservative sisters hype man even IF i wasnt mentally and physically ill

Anyways ive just spent my entire life being misinterpreted and i know its not a unique experience by any means but im tired of it im fucking over it like i genuinely was raised believing there is something just fundamentally Wrong about me that i cant ever fix and that the words out of my mouth will always be in bad faith and that no matter what i do no matter how hard i try or how conscious i am about what i say or how i use tone no matter the years and years of therapy and keeping myself in check at the end of the day theres just something Wrong. Something not Right about me. Something that can never be properly worked out. At least according to, you know, my family LMAO

Like jesus christ dude no wonder i spent my adolescence pretty much firmly believing im not human lol and i still question it. Mom used to say i had a Demon in me that would come out sometimes that wasnt her daughter

Whats it like having parents that understand you

Kind of sucks to feel like the person who brought you into this world will never truly comprehend you or take anything you say in good faith

Sorry i know my blogs become kind of a Journal Factory. Actually no im not this is my space and i can do what i want. But also

Whats it like having parents that understand you

Kind of sucks to feel like the person who brought you into this world will never truly comprehend you or take anything you say in good faith

Every Trump 1 era "let's speak to Trump voters" story was a guy in a diner saying "yesiree, I support his views on immigration completely. All these foreigners are makin' it hard for a workin' man like me" & then he'd turn out to be the owner of the largest luxury pool construction firm in Indiana. Every Trump 2 era "let's speak to Trump voters" story is twelve of the most gormless individuals you've ever seen saying shit like "I really disagreed with his 'murder Hank Murgatroyd' chants at his rallies, but I didn't think he would really do it, so I voted for him because he seemed like a pacifist compared to his opponent, who was Obama I think" - Hank Murgatroyd, Republican, Ohio

i think its charming when peoples personal lives improve and they get drastically worse at posting

since nobody wants me i should jsut go to the burlap buddy race and hop somewhere far away

no worse feeling that going on some subculture fashion clothing website and seeing the size chart runs from extra small to petite to pequeño to microscopique. yeah here at DeathKillFuckShadow Fantastique Cloth Imaginations i think you’ll find that we see the world a bit difference… we have bleak brutal imaginations… what if blood and fangs were COOL… but we cannot in our most tortured imaginations picture a woman who has a stouter frame than the fucking Insulindian Phasmid

Life would legitimately become 100x better and easier and maybe id even be able to breathe a little if social security would just actually give a fuck about me and my application i sent in nearly 3 years ago

Baffling how insulting it was when i received my first denial because, according to them, literally i “wasn’t sick enough”

Three years to get my jaw surgery approved. Three Years. Because in every rejection letter they claimed it was a “cosmetic procedure” like dude my airway has been defective since birth i havent been able to breathe properly since i was born man. These people dont deserve the space they take up on this earth

Life would legitimately become 100x better and easier and maybe id even be able to breathe a little if social security would just actually give a fuck about me and my application i sent in nearly 3 years ago

Baffling how insulting it was when i received my first denial because, according to them, literally i “wasn’t sick enough”