Eviland Tales

I’m in love with someone with DID and who’s still in the closet. I don’t understand much about this disorder. I’m a bi cis woman with bipolar and thought I would never find anyone to love me. I get such mixed signal from her that she loves me then doesn’t. I don’t know what to do. I drop by and give her gifts. But she’s blocked me on her phone and FB. I don’t know what to do to get it through to her that I love her and am loyal. She’s also going through a bad breakup with a narcissist and I feel that this has damaged her trust. I find myself sometimes riding her emotional rollercoasters and it gets me down. It makes me feel unworthy and unlovable. She keeps hinting that I need to “win” her love and “fight” for her but aren’t I worth those same things. I feel like I’ve done everything I can think about to show her I love her and that I care (This has been going on for close to seven months). Should I even bother chasing her if she doesn’t want to be caught. I feel the push pull is too much to handle at times and she’s set me up to fail. How can I love her if she’s cut off all modes of comm. the last thing I want to do is stalk her and traumatize her. I’m so lost. This is such uncharted terratory for me. It makes me sad every time I think about the wonderful love we could have but I feel she ruins it intentionally. Anyone w any advice would be greatly appreciated.

If you love me, why r you running away?