Do you really know yourself? Over the past few years I have spent a lot of time trying to understand myself on a level that is deeper than most would feel comfortable delving into. I can't lie, over those years I have experienced some of the greatest connections that ones soul could bear, but in those moment it was just that...a moment. Whether for a few days, weeks or even months, our souls were in perfect harmony, but as quick and as intense as it came it was gone. We knew that in another lifetime, in a more perfect setting we would have been an "us", but for one reason or another, the timing just wasn't right...or was it? You see with every joy that I have experienced, there was an equal amount of pain and although at the time I didn't understand why, I've come to realize that those individual instances have profoundly impacted me. Some lessons were easy to to decipher, while others were painful and arduous, but a necessary evil in the journey of personal growth. I see people just going through the motions of life: go to school and get a degree; start your career; meet your life partner; get married; start a family and before you know it they find themselves 35 years old and 10 years into a marriage, career and life that they're not so sure they ever wanted or at least started so soon all in the name of "security". This brings you you to me. While all my peers were walking down the isle, I found myself alone and in my thoughts experiencing the trials and tribulations that life affords us. In that time, I left a career in the fashion industry; was co-founder of a boutique entertainment company; found/lost love; went extremely broke; stepped into the real estate industry; found/lost love (again); pulled myself out of financial ruin; grew mentally, spiritual and emotionally stronger (just to name a few) - I was determined to know the best version of myself away from the distractions of the "status quo". There were many days where I would look at the four corners of my room and ask my self, "why am I going through this? Why, why, why?!", but the real question was, "why not me"? You see, we always want to choose the safest route with the least amount of pain, but with that choice comes the least amount of growth with the highest level of regret. I refuse to go through life without exploring my wildest dreams and my deepest passions in life and love. I'm not anti-marriage or anti-family, for that matter, I'm just pro-growth and self love. I mean, how can one truly love someone to the depths of their soul if one doesn't even know ones self? I find that being alone is the best opportunity to really be unapologetically real with yourself to reveal the person that you were destined to be and work through your insecurities. It's simply divine and an experience that can't be paid for -- discovery of self. It okay, be alone, but take the lessons from life and love and find a way to apply those to the lessons within yourself - you can only go up from here. I challenge you to spend time with yourself.
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