LoveSickDummi

my biggest s3xual fantasy is to have someone notice my absence and wonder about me lol

and suddenly, again, I feel really tired, as if the world is draining me of everything i ever had

bpd is expecting disappointment in every aspect of life because it’s all you’ve ever known.

The pain of having high expectations thanks to media but surrounding myself with people who think that cliches are stupid.

It finally clicked in my brain, that the reason you don't treat me like you treat others in your life, is because you love the others in your life. You love having them in your life. I've simply become the obligation you can't untangle yourself from.

beautiful night for the rot. the 21st is the full moon. I have work in the morning.

ew. never mind.

we will have to have another roommate meeting to establish a rule against ejaculating too loud during night hours; he completely ruined the ritual. Unruly behavior

The lore is unhinged

Nobody is afraid to lose me. I never mean that much.

I wish I was your favourite,,,,

i feel like that girl in girl interrupted who screams “that’s not fair! that’s not fair!” 24/7

I love reblogging/saving this every time I get upset and go on tumblr

𝐆𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐫𝐲 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐬 𝐦𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐮𝐫𝐭 𝐦𝐲𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟 𝐨𝐫 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐢𝐭 𝐦𝐮𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐫

I know I'm unlovable, I just sometimes like to pretend that I'm not

I'm not unlovable, it's just that I've never met someone who wanted to love me.

I genuinely mourn the person I could have been.

I'm so jealous of the people around me who were given stability in life. Obviously they had hard ships too. Parents divorcing, moving, death, ect. But I'm still mad because I never got ANY sort of stability. Constantly moving, mom always had new boyfriends, no consistent relationships with peers. Then to top it of with a load of childhood abuse. I never had a chance at a normal life. And I'm still mad. I hate seeing people who had it relatively easy in life doing so well. I NEVER had the chances they did.

Literally the most normal day ending with me having a complete breakdown for some unknown reason