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Today I love You more than yesterday and You cant even imagine how much I loved You yesterday

I want to hold You against Your will..

I always felt so lost, without a reason or purpose in life, I wasnt planning on staying long here anyway.. I thought I was not made to be loved, that maybe Im just too much for anyone to handle for longer than couple of weeks at best.. But the truth is I just wasnt meant for others, I wasnt made to love anyone else but him. And now I could never imagine my life without him,, Can I be blamed? No matter what I do its always for him.. Oh Lord if I could see his smile right now I think Id just melt away,, and when he looks my way the butterflies in my abdomen start to chew away at my flesh.. I feel like I should help them get out so that my love can finally see how deep my emotions run,, maybe that way Ill be able to finally express how dear he is to me? I know it would say more than any words ever could.. The pure euphoria of being near him swallowing my insides till it finally overfills and bursts out my chest for him to see.. Maybe he will love my blood more than a bouquet of flowers.. Would be ideal for a gift? Ill make sure to make it pretty!! Ill do anything for him.

Im sorry for ever being bad,, I wish I wasnt like this but its so hard to think rationally around You,, but I cant afford to lose You.. I cant even thing about it.. The mere thought of You looking at others makes me sick,, so sick I might vomit.. I dont want others around You.. Why would You need those useless oinking pigs huh? Exactly, You dont. So why wont You focus on me and on my love for You? Or how about You look how far I would go just to make You smile? You know I adore You so deeply.. You do see it in my eyes right?? Oh maybe You need to look closer,, yes yes come closer, come as close as humanly possible and lets stay like that for hours hm?? Doesnt that sound nice? Just the two of us. Forever. You dont think Im a creep or a weirdo right?? No,, no You dont, You love me just as much as I love You.. Mhm and You hate to be away from me just as much as I hate it Im sure!! Mm yeah,, Youre special,, not like anyone Ive ever met before.. Thats why I fell so deeply in love with You.. I knew Youd be the one and I was oh so right.. So Im certain You understand why I feel this way,, I refuse to share You with anyone. I dont care who they are,, theyre of no value anyway.. Only Im worthy of You right? Please say yes,, You know I will get rid of anyone else there is, just say who is it.. Its hard to be away.. Your stupid piggy friends have no clue how lucky they are to be able to see You in person and yet they dont see how blessed they are.. But I guess thats for the better,, I wouldnt like them getting near the One I love.. Especially with how annoying they can be,, and how jealous they make me,, oh also!! Did You know that after cutting off blood circulation in a limb tissue starts to die and can lead to infections and gangrene which can spread through the body? Just a fun fact..

Ill get rid of anyone who stands between us,, You already know I wont hesitate, Ill do anything to have You just for myself.. And I mean anything. Youre all Ive ever needed, of course I wont let You leave now. Youre too precious to me.. I cant lose You.. But I know You wont even try to leave, Youre not like them.. Youre not stupid. You know even if You wanted there is no way for You to leave me. Ah,, You really dont realize how much You changed my life.. The moment I met You I was hit with sudden silence with only my heart beat remaining,, Everything that wasnt You lost all meaning to me,, and the only thing that has any meaning to me is You, my Darling.. It has always been You,, And You belong to me, only to me,, only I have the right to speak to You, let alone touch You,, other people should just disappear dont You agree my Love? There should only be the two of us.. Youre the only one who doesnt see me as a horrible person,, You love me.. You really do.. And I love You too,, I love You more than anything.. Please,, rip open my chest and take what belongs to You.. See it as a gift~! You have no idea what You do to me,, You make everything better.. Tell me,, what did I do to deserve someone like You? How can You be so perfect and so real at the same time? How can You make my heart beat so fast with the smallest actions? I still dont understand what made You fall for me.. But I know one thing for sure,, Youre stuck with me for the rest of our lives now. I wont let You go. Nobody will be able to pull You out of my arms even after I die. Only Im able to make You happy right? You only need me right?? Promise that You will be mine forever or I will make You promise.. Darling, I love You.. Oh I love You very very much,, I feel this hunger for You.. For Your attention.. For Your love.. Please,, dont make me starve~

Is it just me or does every moment we spend together feel so special,, so intimate.. Im sure I can say that we are both aware of this already but, we were made to love each other, we fit together like none other.. Therefore Im certain You will understand me, my Dear. You understand why Im doing this, right? Oh, please dont look at me like that.. Im just doing what is necessary!! You will be happy with me this way! I want to keep You by my side! Am I not making You feel loved? Please.. Accept my offering,, or I will be forced to put that ring on Your finger without Your approval.. You will be mine no matter what.