The Moon Knows...

last year I knew it would be a write off. I gave myself grace, I knew I wouldn’t be watching the concert films or This is Us or watching too many edits. I knew I wouldn’t be shouting about my love for them for everyone to hear. And that was okay, that was what I needed. I remember thinking, next year. Maybe next year things will look and feel a bit better, feel more normal, maybe I’ll be able to handle some more.

but somehow it’s July 23rd again, and I still can’t stomach it. I feel like there’s been some progress, I can openly express my happiness that it’s the anniversary and that’s my band and that’s who I’ve dedicated 16 years of my life to. I can play the songs that are upbeat and fun and don’t hurt quite so much. I can wear the t-shirts I want.

But I know I won’t be watching This is Us anytime soon, and I don’t know when I’ll ever find that strength to watch it again. I’d like to think I’ll get there some day. I’d like to think that I’ll be able to enjoy this day to its fullest again. I think that’s what Liam would want, which may sound silly, how could I, someone who never actually knew him know what he’d want? But his love and appreciation for the band and what it did for him always prevailed throughout everything else. I know he’d be celebrating with us. And I know he’d want us to celebrate him. I hope I can do that in whatever way I can. I hope I can at least give him that.

One thing that has not and will not change is the admiration and pride I feel for the band and the people that helped to shape me into the human I am now. I am proud that who I’ve been since I was 8 years old is still who I am now almost 25. Everything I am and everything I know about myself and the world and what it means to be a fangirl is all because of them, for so many different reasons. The joy of 23rd of July might be dulled, but it’ll never truly be gone. And I will always celebrate it in whatever way I can.

I’ve been here since the SNL episode in December 2013 and an iconic performance of “Through the Dark.” It’s not the same without Liam. It will never be the same and it will never be ok that 1D and this fandom has a giant hole in it. However Liam lives on his music and in this band’s music. I will definitely be watching 1D today and listening to their music all day. It’s the celebration they and we deserve!!!

Don't <3"

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14:03 EST 02 Feb 2025, updated 14:57 EST 02 Feb 2025

By DEIRDRE DURKAN-SIMONDS FOR DAILYMAIL.COM

Liam Payne will receive a special tribute during the 2025 Grammy Awards, three months after he suffered a fatal fall from the third floor of his hotel in Buenos Aires.

Although fans were hoping that his former One Direction bandmates, would reunite during the ceremony in their late friend's honor, Ben Winston, executive producer of the Grammys show, confirmed that Zayn Malik, Louis Tomlinson, Harry Styles and Niall Horan would not be performing together.

Winston, however, did note that Payne would be honored during the In Memoriam section.

'It is a very difficult time. Losing Liam was very, very tough. No doubt about it. But, no, there will be no One Direction performance,' he told Entertainment Tonight. 'He was the most beautiful, wonderful boy and I love him very, very much. He is in, of course, our In Memoriam, without question.'

The director, who worked with the band on their music videos for songs like You & I, Midnight Memories and Night Changes, also spoke about how Payne's death hit him particularly hard as he had just seen him weeks before his tragic death.

'Actually that [Payne's passing] is a very sad thing for me — when you are going through rehearsals and seeing the clips and a guy that was sat in this office four weeks before that tragedy happened,' Winston said.

He went on to say that seeing Payne featured among the In Memoriam names this year was 'not something' he 'would ever have imagined.'

'It is extra sad for people — not just me who loved Liam, but for many,' he concluded.

Payne will also be honored at the BRIT Awards next month.