lexii

I see the toxic connection in my negative spurts and social media, they seem to feed off eachother. It’s been something I’ve began to recognize when I come back to my centered self. So with that being said I think it’s time to get rid of this app too. A lot of these feelings I post are things that I can easily resolve in my mind and heart without much effort. It’s draining to look at past emotions because it’s not even who I am anymore. Who I was yesterday is not who I am today, let alone letting a sad fragment of my mind portray how I am to people online. I’m the opposite of those mental breaks, I am the strength and light that overcomes those. Love and light.

I need this Xanax to work better

At this point I’m living for other people because i know they’d be broken if I were to kill myself. Just sucks wish I could just leave and not affect people. I’m done with this fucked up world I know I’m strong but I’m tired of being strong. I’m tired of false happiness. Yeah I wanna go to school yeah that’s cool but the fuck do I do next just survive and work work work there’s no bright light just when I die..This isn’t a fucking life my friends are dead my family is dead there isn’t much going for me other than manifesting shit and at this point I don’t care I don’t wanna donthat anymore I’m tired. I wanna sleep and not wake up

I’m so sorry dan I tried my hardest to tell you to not use anymore. I should’ve refused to let go of you when you would leave. I will never forget the lunches we had together where I’d listen to your beautiful voice sing and play guitar for all of us. Smoking cigarettes trying not to get caught from the principal. I love you so much I hope you know how much you made my life better. You always knew how to make me laugh. I’m so sorry dan we all could’ve done a better job helping you. I hope you forgive me

I miss my dead friends

You know it’s real when you and bae skip a concert to get high and fuck all night😂👏🏽😍😍😍

If you’re with the right man your booty gets bigger