Let's Be Random

When you're with your man and just wanna be like: hold me and love me already!

I miss you. And not the cute little "I've been gone for a while and haven't seen you" way. I miss you in a way that hurts my soul. In a way that makes me an insomniac as memories of your arms around me crowd my mind and feel like living nightmares because no matter what, I can't get you out of my mind or my heart. You've permeated my entire life and I can't decide if it's a great lesson for me to learn about not falling in love or if it's the one thing that's going to destroy me.

Why can't you see that we're meant to be together? At parties we can't keep our eyes off each other, we gravitate towards each other until we're physically touching. And every one of those nights we always end up in the same bed. You grab my hand and my heart skips a beat. You lean in to kiss me but I turn away because to you this means nothing, but to me it breaks my heart every time. And yet you're the addiction I can't quit and goddammit I want to quit you so bad.