Its Okay To Not Be Okay

 "I’m sorry" - I know you are, but maybe you should have thought of that before you cheated. I don’t care how sorry you are, it loses its meaning after you’ve heard it too many times.

“I was being stupid” or “I was drunk” - yeah, I know you were. Being drunk is not an excuse. Just being stupid or “just making a mistake” are not excuses. You knew what you were saying.

“You’re amazing” - you bet your sweet ass I am, but that doesn’t get you off the hook. If you knew I was so amazing this whole time, why did you cheat?

“I want to earn your trust back” - so did every other guy who cheated on me before you. And guess how many of them earned my trust back? None.

“I love you” - yeah, that’s great. I love you too, but the difference between my love for you and your love for me is that I would never cheat on me. Maybe my love for you is stronger.

The strong women in her life told her never let someone hurt you;

Never let a boy make you cry.

She never really listened to that-

She was the sensitive type-

But this was the boy meant to keep her heart whole.

He said yes and she fell apart into his arms.

Sobs of distrust,

Cries of a broken heart,

And the inaudible breathing of a girl who felt the entire world lie to her.

Love is supposed to be easy,

But what do you do when your love breaks you in half?

What happens when Love steps out of the front door

And holds someone else for an hour,

A day,

A year?

Love isn’t easy then.

Love becomes tangled and irritable,

Filled with petty bitterness and anger,

Mixed with the tears of the crushed.

She doesn’t sleep for two weeks,

Even after she forgave him for the hurt he brought her,

And forgets to eat sometimes.

It’s not so bad when your mind becomes distracted by your neglect.

He’s none the wiser to her pain anymore.

He said yes,