navi

Free soul

Age: 20

Pronouns: She/Her

Sexuality: Bi idk

Socials: Discord, Pinterest, Instagram and Tiktok etc, DM to share

Hobbies: Video games, art, yoga, pondering, cooking, music idk just living doing whatever

Music: ANY love all music as long as it resonates with me

Love

Fav flower: Lotus

Fav shape: Spiral

Fav color: Love all color

Ps. proud AI hater

Simple multidimensional being

In the age of machines, everything being fake, fake food, comparison, fake relationships, bitterness, anger, the body isnt a vessel for love to feel to nourish it isnt a home its a machine its like a statue to be looked at, everything is put into categories, what personality type are you who are you what do you listen to you are always put into a category you are an object you are an item to be sold and to be sold to,

So in this age this time that we live in isnt living slowly, feeling, loving, isnt being genuine, isnt being ”ugly” and being a simple multidimensional being rebellious? Maybe all we need to do to fight back this crumbling world we need to love. On the hardest days where everything makes me angry, everything feels hopeless and everyone feels fake and ifeel alone what ido is i attempt to love i attempt to feel i attempt connection i attempt to have a slow morning i dont rush myself i dont judge myself, because thats what the world wants from you. The world wants you to panic, to consume, to be numb to be angry to be sad. So isnt really feeling, really trying, really loving a type of kind rebellion in a world where our humanity and our soul is trying to be sold and taken away from us?

The world wants so much low frequency from you, it wants fakeness, it wants you to rush to be numb for ur head to be full. Youre a soul youre the universe with a vessel (a body) to express yourself. Dont take the soul out of yourself because the world wants you to. Maybe share your soul with others to spark their soul back up. To remind others that their simply a very simple but multidimensional being.

Some doodle i left unfinished for a little, got alot of inspo from the lotus

Symbol of purity

It is not for nothing that the lotus flower is often referred to as the "sacred flower": In Buddhism, it is the symbol of purity of heart, faithfulness, creativity and enlightenment . You may have heard the term "Flower of Life". The Buddhist faith sees the lotus flower as the Buddha's birthplace. Love, life and rebirth are also among the long list of meanings ascribed to this majestic flower.

I love how the lotus has somany meanings, i feelike its such a beautiful simple flower with so much diversity and it can be anything it wants to be. Its also very resilient.

Enjoy my little speedpaint of a drawing i didnt finish yet (still wanted to post tho!) I put some music inthe background too :)

(song: Dawn in the Adan by Ichiko Aoba)

Why do we get lost in fantasy?

I was just thinking about it while sitting inthe car like im doing rn abt how everyone daydreams. Everyone daydreams about love, money, opportunities, connection, action or anything really. It could be a daydream, a fantasy about wanting a person youre interested to be something u want them to be, or it could be a daydream and a fantasy about how people will perceive you, or whatu will wear. Truly theres no limit in how u daydream and personally im a really big victim of that. I fantasize and i daydream alot. I dont think thats necessarily bad either. It can direct you to what you want and really drive you. Then it would be more thinking and pondering rather than fantasizing. But when does it go from thinking/dreaming to fantasizing? When do you get lost in it?

I dont like to use the words realistic or unrealistic. I think you can dream about whatever you can and the human spirit can amount to anything. And i do think that being hopeful, dreaming or wanting something and pursuing those things is the most important thing a person can do, chase their passion for something or someone. But how doyou know ifits passion or fantasy, or maybe both? What if ur creating a space in ur head thatu want to believe in, but its not actually there. I think anything can be a reality, but if theres no action, itll never be a reality. So maybe thats where it goes from dreaming (not harmful, and very much needed, action follows, creates drive and motivation) to fantasizing (a passive thought that no action follows, kind of puts you into a dream like state and when the universe forces you to wakeup u choose to start dreaming again, not fantasizing).

If theres nothing to make the dream into a reality, then maybe its just a fantasy ur lost in. Youll always wakeup eventually, but it wont always be gentle awakening. Maybe itll hurt, maybe youll lose something, maybe youll lose everything. But from that you will learn how to dream instead of fantasize, and youll learn what to put it towards, and youll be better for yourself. Maybe thats the beauty of it. Instead of fantasizing and being asleep, youll dream and follow with action while wide awake. Maybe to dream which means to be conscious and wide awake, first you need to be asleep. Because to gain you need to lose.

closer

is cannibalism the purest form of love? Little pinterest collage by me

How do you define change? Is it what we see in others? Is it what we feel? Do we need to see in detail how someone has changed to really define it as such? Do we just believe that somebody has changed by their word? Is it what you hear? What u feel? What you know?

I think change is different for everyone and like a lot of things you cant fully define it. Its not up to somebody to change for you but its not also up to you to try and make somebody change for you. Only thing that is up to us is holding ourselves accountable and doing our part. Focusing ur energy on somebody else by making them change or by changing for them is never something that will end well because misplacing your energy hurts the human spirit. I think its always good to give without keeping score its always good to create and love, but giving ur energy out for someone else when it has to do with their spirit and soul wont end up good. You cannot change someones character inside of them, you can see external change, you can see words, maybe even some actions but if someones character someones inner self is not there too, it wont end well. I think about it a lot, where goes the line between giving out your energy in a hurtful tiring manner rather than giving it out of love and kindness? I think the line gets crossed when you stop giving out of love and support and instead you start to give ur energy out of desperation. Either selfish desperation like wanting to be loved or attention, or desperation out of wanting that person to be better because you care for them and love them. But some people dont want to be helped. Theyll only change on their own terms and in their own time and ithink thats how it is for everyone. Everyone only grows on their own terms, they can put it onto somebody else they can say its because of this and that but at the end of the day its themselves. Other people other things can be motivation but nothing will genuinely change someones inner self except themselves. Friends, partners, love, jobs, money, safety, trauma, school, life changes, somebody special, somebody important, music, drugs, wants, needs, all these things can make or break, help or hurt. They will affect your direction where your inner self will go and they will help external things, theyll support or slow it down but the ONLY thing that has full direct impact on your change is you.

Youre the only thing that can directly affect your inner self. Everything else is just something that directs you. But at the end of the day you are all alone with your own change, growth and energy. You will always be alone with yourself, everybody on this earth is alone with themselves. Everything else is just direction and filler. I think thats a beautiful thing. Its nice to know everybody is alone with themselves all the time. Everyone can tap into themselves however they want. But its also scary how everyone is alone with themselves but some people go their whole lives not knowing themselves. But thats them, and that u cant change. Its up to you how you live your life. I think living and being human starts when you start to realize ur all alone, even if ur with people or with distraction 247, ur always alone in ur head w urself, nobody can ever get into your head fully like you can. Not in a negative depressing way though just in a way where u think Wow I really am myself, i really am alone, i choose who i am where i go, who im with. And i think thats where friendships and love come into place. Theyre truly genuine and real once you realize youre you and youre alone. you could not want anybody around you or want anybody, but once youre alone with yourself you establish what you genuinely want for yourself. And thats why ithink the human spirit being a lonely one isnt a necessarily a bad thing. We will always be alone with our own selves but with that we can get curious about what we want to do, who we want, who we are. The more we tap into ourselves the more genuine well placed energy this world would have, and things would be better. Maybe things would be different in alot of ways. It does get into my head sometimes, because things could be so good. And it can really hurt knowing i cant control someones inner self. Its always up to them, just like how mine is up to me. You can make someone better but someones soul is theirs. The only thing that humans fully own for themselves is their own soul. But u can lose that too by misplacing yourself and your energy. But you learn, through mistakes and through life you learn your inner self. Youll learn yourself. Only you will know fully who you are. Take advantage of that lonely feeling, its not a bad thing to be alone and to realize loneliness is something we steer away from because of fear. If we were to just realize being alone with your soul isnt bad because thats the closest you will get to the universe something you cant even explain. Its the most valuable thing about you so take care of it like you would take care of someone you love. While loving your inner self you can love others, be real with others.

Accept the lonely of the soul (yourself, the internal) but embrace the beauty of the heart (the external).

Some people focus on the melody of music like the beat or the instruments while some focus on the weight that words bring. I personally alternate between both. I like any sort of music from industrial music like KMFDM to the marias. I personally really like the fact that i can enjoy anything and to me if a song feels right it doesnt rlly matter that genre it is. But ive noticed that specific genres bring out the lyrics more than others (imo). To analyze this more from my pov ill give some examples.

For example Iris by the goo goo dolls is a great song with great melody but ive always focused on the heavy feeling of the words. It feels so human and in a way very raw. It feels personal and deep. Imo the lyrics have been centered so heavily that you cant bypass it and just focus on the melody. I think its because songs that portray raw human emotion or feeling center lyrics and the melody supports those lyrics instead of overpowering them or being in the center. The melody has their own part in the song and it has its moment but what makes it so raw and human is the lyrics while being supported by the melody. Another example of this is Close by Elias Ronnenfelt and FAUZIA. The melody feels very raw and real but more so being in the center it more so supports the words that are spoken in such a heavy way. I feel like songs that feel raw and it feels like its coming from the heart and from the chest are special in that way. Theyre being created from the soul not from anything else. Thats why lyrics gets centered because as a human words are the way we express passion. We feel it in so many ways but words are the thing that brings it out the most. So if you want to show passion you speak and other things support it like action and body language, just like melody does in songs. With humane passion words are in the center and everything else supports that passion.

With songs that are more melody based i think its to tell a story or to convey a feeling or simply enjoy for example a beat and how it makes you feel. Songs like 666 on the crucifix by Caustic its more so about how pounding the melody is. Its supposed to make you feel overwhelmed and heavy but also enjoy the craftsmanship of the song.