lostshirt

now don't go flattering yourself you were never that good of an actor

i'm the idealizer, the best goddamn writer, i'm just that good of an author

when you think of the people that chose you, don't start feeling superior

i'm the one that made you, the fan favorite character

you're lost because you were never real

you're numb because you could never feel

you're losing your mind

pushing your morals aside

you don't know what you are

demons come out of the dark

taking you back to oblivion

I feel sick to the pit of my stomach

There’s nothing to do to cure this headache

I’ve become completely ill

My body can’t stay still

Wish there was something I could do not to feel

And this shit’s eating me

Completely consuming me

All the things they keep telling me

How can they not see the disappointment in my eyes?

Every time I’m caught in their stupid web of lies.

Oh god, the world must be fucking blind.

Trying to smile but the happiness I can no longer find.

There’s nothing but darkness in that useless mind.

Please let me stay alone inside,

Please let me run and hide,

Please let me cry until all the tears I’ve cried,

Please let me pretend I tried,

Please let me destroy my pride,

Please let me die. Cause inside I’ve already died.

I can’t bare anymore don’t make me do it.

Nothing’s worth it anymore I swear it.

I can’t remember the last time I truly felt happy or didn’t fake a smile.

It truly must have been a fucking while.

Stop yelling, stop hating.

I don’t need you doin…

Anything cause I can do it already myself.

That’s right I can do it better myself.

I don’t bother anymore with crying out for help.

So, Please let me stay alone inside,

Please let me run and hide,

Please let me cry until all the tears I’ve cried,

Please let me pretend I tried,

Please let me destroy my pride,

Please let me die. Cause inside I’ve already died.

I’m trying so hard not to,

But it’s so hard not to

I just want to go away.

God, please don’t make me stay.

I don’t want to do anything just want to lay…

I want to stay inside all day.

I don’t want to think.

I don’t want a thing.

I don’t want to breathe.

I don’t want deceit.

I don’t want defeat.

I don’t want to feel.

I don’t want to cry.

I don’t want to lie.

I just want to die.

So, Please let me stay alone inside,

Please let me run and hide,

Please let me cry until all the tears I’ve cried,

Please let me pretend I tried,

Please let me destroy my pride,