Lost In Termina

It makes me so sad when I’m scrolling through a tag of something I like only to find some of the top posts that are along the lines of “why I don’t like X” or “why X disappointed me”. I understand voicing your opinion but some things just aren’t for everyone and I don’t understand taking up space in a fandom or forum saying negative things when there often isn’t a lot of reason behind it aside from “this isn’t my preference”.

Don’t Let The Forest In was so good and I could write an entire essay on the impact the story has. I’m going to be thinking about this book for a while.

Incredibly depressed and unsure if it’s from seasonal depression, the chronic pain, or a mix. Going to try to spend the day reading and trying not to think about any of it.

I just finished reading Hazelthorn and I’m already thinking of some parallels and fanfic opportunities for Qifrey/Olruggio.

It’s incredibly frustrating that I’m left to do chores by myself, especially on a bad flare up day.

I am going on a straight week with chronic pain flareups. This morning it was difficult to shower or brush my teeth. Even eating food has been difficult between the nausea and the physical pain in my hands. I have been exhausted all day and constantly feel as though I need to sleep. It has been difficult even just scrolling on my phone. Just to write this I am using speech to text. I am hopeful that between my labs and my x-ray this week, I am able to see my doctor again soon. I am just so tired. 

I left work early today to get some labs done and was happy to get home earlier than usual. I rested and felt well enough to play games. But then my hand pain got much much worse and I felt ill and exhausted so now it’s bed time. 😔

Chronic pain so bad today that my face literally hurts 🙃