i agree to disagree;

i said "yes" to become my first love's girlfriend. our love was passionate. he was everything i wanted. but it has to end for reasons we have no control over... or maybe we're not strong enough to fight for this love. but we knew we were each other's soulmates— or for me atleast. i know i'll never love anyone the same way again. he will always have his name carved out in my heart.

march 26, 2025

a woman, a mother of a child, a wife— killed herself and her child. what an awful day. the news was very shocking for the community. but i hate that they're blaming the woman, saying there are other ways to cope with whatever problem she's going through. they don't even know what happened to her life that lead her to end everything. someone said she stopped going to church that's why, or it's the bad spirit getting into her. someone said she's dumb for doing it. someone said she shouldn't have killed the child too. how can she end her life if she have a good life, someone would probably say.

all i was thinking when i heard is how much i sympathized with her. if only she had someone or a friend with listening ears and a gentle heart... but no one should deny the fact that the world is so cruel. it's not the right decision to do but i sympathize with her.

days ago i was thinking of ending my life too. and now i get an example how people would react to that news if it were to happen. they might blame my new boyfriend. they might just blame it on my depression. but ultimately, they'd say i should've not done it because my life is better than most people here.