Moving Out
About seven years ago, I created this blog. It was more of a hiding place, a wishing well where I can keep my secrets safe. At that time, I just graduated college and was so lost and confused yet hopeful. I had a lot of dreams which, at the time, I thought were perfect for me. I knew the kind of life I wanted to live, the kind of man I wanted to be with, and the place where I wanted to spend the rest of my life in.
But, of course, I was so young and foolish. For these past years I have seen a lot of my dreams come to ashes. Nothing happened as I had planned, but this didn’t stop me from hoping against hope that things would finally turn around. They didn’t.
Don’t get me wrong, I’ve grown a lot as a person. Things weren’t all black. Four years ago I got a job that I loved so much. My brother had two little creatures who brighten up my days. The love of my friends and family keeps me going through most of the days. I was in good health, I managed to get a postgraduate degree, and I worked a job that I loved, so I couldn’t ask for more.
Few days after my last birthday (October last year) things started going down the hill; I lost someone I cared about a lot. A couple of months later I lost my dad, and I’m still trying to realize the whole thing. Few weeks after that I found out that my brother is moving abroad with his little family. I only have one brother, and he, his kids, and my mom are my whole life. So I was in a pretty terrible state when I heard the news. But at least things couldn’t get worse... or could they? Turns out, they could, and they did. A month later, I lost my job (the one I loved).
How am I holding up? Good, I guess. When faced with a lot of misfortunes I started realizing how temporary everything is, and how little time we have. I go through a lot of ups and downs, but, thankfully, the support of those I love helps keep me going.
So what does all of this have to do with me leaving this blog? Well, I feel like I need a fresh start, and this blog reminds me of all the dreams I have never achieved, and all the things I’ve lost. It makes me feel kinda trapped, and I need to get away from that. I need to recreate my life, to have new goals, and I need a clean, empty page to create it on. So here we go, my new blog: https://theemptypages.tumblr.com
See you on the other side.
