Idk how it works

But I'm very slow and overwhelmed uhh, feel too stupid. I'll mention here too that everything is almost the same on these sites, except there can be more text and additional pics as in Tumblr (maybe I forgot if I posted smth that was only on the one of these sites, and Idk abt Bluesky limitation), and X/Twitter will have a lower quality pics or strangely cropped by me (I couldn't decide for too long what to choose)

Only colorful saturated drawings that I make. I always don't have an idea for drawings like this, so they're posed strangely cause I want the canvas to be filled highly. It again felt more alive on a rough sketch stage and not now.

Got gotten with a new flier for the third time when being not a flier main again (it doesn't count that I was playing a lot as fliers to do missions and feel safer. And we don't include Dantenos and Verza, and Thruthol, and.. oh).

I didn't play for… uhhh 2 years? And I had a feeling that I don't want to come back, because there're so many things that changed and that could be added. And that I don't have a clue about fighting in a game like this, where you also need to remember everything about every creature and they could be buffed with traits/plushies that are also new each time. My plays transformed into a lot of farming in these days, where I played not my favorite creatures. And that maybe it's much more enjoyable to play with friends.

I saw that I missed some bugs and cool Liskwyrm that is my favorite semi-aquatic and herbi type. And that the trading realm was remade, and now I don't need to stress from anxiety that much and can sell stuff with minimal interaction. And it's weird, but I thought that Dantenos, and especially Cucuerpum, fell in price but they raised more than when they were added?? Good for me, cause I could sell copies for a bigger price. Like, years ago I bought Rukig, Sauk and Thruthol for 3k with smth (I think?) from a person on Wiki, and now I see these prices in the game. Was my only and the best purchase (and one of biggest anxious interactions in CoS). But it's a pity that my alt with mutation-trait creatures' slots can't join Trade Realm because of a new system (what also means that I wouldn't be able to farm some mutations that I would want, that could be achieved only from nesting (if I wouldn't be tired)). My main barely got the trade access too, but after more tries it worked. And it felt weird not to have the access while being a Recode Supporter, but I guess, whatever now.

I wanted to draw my favorite slay species. And before stats reveal while I already sketched these without colouring, I thought that from screenshot Zephyren looked like tier 3-4 and so I did it smaller than Dantenos, I thought there're too many of tier 5 species. And so it's tier 4. On the second sketch it's not that important and they could be closer/further from the point of view tho.

I wanted to picture some possible Hive events that might be big or small in their life. And this seemed like fitting them. Or maybe it's more as Xivu's thing.

Less messy version, bc I might like it more with less chaotic details that take more attention from other main things. I also have this second sketch, but I was not happy with composition and that it was not really clear that Oryx attaches these bones on Warpriest's cape, and was a pity to scrap, but also no strength to do smth with it.

Used my NMS screenshot as a ref for a random planet. Such a beautiful game

I feel sorry for people who could abruptly come for Look Outside content, cause mainly I was boiling in Destiny hell with hyperfixations jumping. Or I feel so for every of my abrupt drawing subject change. And like if I go from Destiny too. Sometimes it's nice to refresh with different themes tho. There're a lot of things that I didn't finish. And I like LO, so it has unfinished sketches too

Couldn't make myself finish something faster, not wanting to draw things imperfect and was distracting from doing what is planned. And hard bad irl thing happened, which reminds about itself a lot even when I try to distract and not to let the thoughts gnaw, because it's hard not to remember when it got into a habit and disappeared for ever. Even when I describe it so evasively here, it still gets me with sadness and tears.

And here's also a Destiny 2 last final update (though it was bound to happen someday and I was burned out mostly and lost bc of not playing newer paid content with not being able to afford it), and I already feel emotionally exhausted with other events that I wrote abt above and don't know how I feel with hollowness or smth, confused, and what this would mean, and everyone said these words many times already, and it seems to be still playable? I don't understand why I would feel this way bc of such things, with me not playing a lot, and more drawing. Maybe because of people around being unhappy abt this and saying that it's the end. It became one of my biggest hyperfixations with how many things I drew. I'm afraid and sad if my mind and these fixations stick to something that depends partly on people with who I interact, and that it's not fully under my control.

Also, recently I started to try using my blog's and bsky name as a new signature, because I felt more uncomfortable and feeling a little rejection towards the older one. It was a mix of Luka Odium that I didn't want to use as a full thing, but also "Luka" was too simple. And I got this. But I had an anxious feeling if I get uncomfortable towards this one too someday.

At first, I didn't plan to do them pixelated because pixelart always was a mystery to me and I'm not sure if I understood the logic of game's coloring/shading. So I had these sketches:

I'm not sure what exact skills Taxidermy had and how it changed, bc their sculptures were described differently and others are monsters. Tho I wanted to make it creepy and distorted when having 3 heads. And it seemed like an abomination of sewed pelts that don't have clear muscle/bones logic. And like it's not that volumetric because of these sewed furs, just stacked on each other and mixed, but when seeing it for the first time I thought it was like this (maybe this number of wires inside is enough for volume). I also was not sure about this human skin that fell off (?) on its second sprite, abt how it should be posed on the first one and if it really fell off and it wasn't just a starting shadowed part in a fight, when you don't see entities fully. Uh I'm thinking too much again maybe

Finally undressed Lyle on a new save, and I called him a spider before, but he can be a strange weevil too. I like weevils. It's a pity that he hasn't any trust to show himself after some time and it's the only moment where you can see him fully, and after which he's very unhappy. Sam saw things much worse. I can't fathom how he manages to be even a more wet kitty than he's every time there're new lines with him.

There was a funny bug when he comes back to Sam's apartment after being killed. Can't get rid of this guy

Again I assume that things like memes and interactions that I drew could be drawn already, but I'm very tired to check even with this strong anxiety and not wanting to get possible spoilers, bc the main tag is still muted, and I got only half of the achievements, so definitely didn't see everything.

I was finishing the Rat King sketch with symmetry tool, and it's soothing to draw with it, so I also drew Lyle. But thinking about spider theme and if I could give him a photographic film as some kind of a cobweb here (and after writing this so not to forget I played more and saw that Lyle actually gets a film connected ability). And to draw a half of this uncomfortable moment with his funny legs when making a photography.

Guess it might be easy to tell that I'm much more into non-human characters than human ones and have no clue how to draw humans here to feel like it's right, to be harmonical with other pic surroundings. And I try to draw them closer to how they're in-game, but still doesn't feel like it.

Couldn't finish it quicker because of abrupt hyperfixation on other monsters with sketching them

I have this version, but was not sure

4th sketch is for @bugeyedragonsarecool

I like the Rat King with vibes that are created by his design, chasing sound, surroundings and his encounter.

These're quick and not perfect by rat or any anatomy creature rules from which the Rat King might be formed. I was thinking if he was like a centaur or a creature that often uses all legs to move. And do some of his locks of hair transform into worms or are just hair tangles with rats inside?

It might look weird how scrupulously I can get with such things that might look not that important, that I feel awkward because of my need of perfection in these eh. And that for sure they must be incomprehensibly monstrous with the way they built and look, it's a delectable part.

Again, felt like uncolored version is better with how the line work (if I can call it like this for sketches) is more noticeable:

I also did a worm-the-Thing infestation this time which I didn't expect. I'm not sure if it was worth it. Tho kissed Kevin

I have an abrupt hyperfixation on Look Outside. But I don't want people to be disappointed when I come back to Destiny and etc. in my art. Different vibes things.

I like his weird face, like cloth/skin folds that change their position and form with every movement, gives creepy unnatural vibe.

So Lyle's bad weird side was coming up a little with some dialogs, and after replaying the first photo paper interaction with choosing "no". I wanted to believe that how creepy monsters wouldn't look they're not always harmful and ill-willed inside (that's why I might get beaten a lot in this game/get stuck in a hope that slaying monsters is not required for some things). Well… now this means I can make him suffer as one of bad favorite characters.

And he's such a wet cat when getting kicked out. And his actions after coming to his apartment after this and leaving. You have an apartment where you live, why so much drama. I actually thought he would be annoyed.

I felt liking them all uncolored more

They're the first who I could think about if I'm given a broad option of creation. Idk how many Mii there could be and who to create. And I was getting only 3 personalities for them.

It's also a pain to draw in it with keyboard, so I drew facepaint in CSP and imported png with a tool for this. But it made images change in some places (where Mono's light shadows are barely seen and his face paint doesn't change for Idk what reason, I wasn't able to understand and fix it, and his brows were not drawn, that's why they were blue at night) and get squeezed if they're wider than 512px. But now feels like Oryx's face looks okay after it got transformed. And I thought if this hair on Warpriest makes his had more harmoniously voluminous. I tried at first using only game's colours, but I started to change this

What I meant about colours and shadows is:

My mind could base it on this old meme pic that I saw a few years ago on a Pinterest. I still get anxiety that things that I draw could be drawn already and would make me feel guilty. That's how I always am

I love that there're character interactions. I was afraid if these could be already drawn, if to see how much time have passed. And I'm at all very anxious about drawing smth that could be already drawn accidentally. I have tags muted because of possible spoilers, and I'm very new to know what could already be. And maybe I wouldn't know either way bc of this anxiety to be that uhh… immersed and interactive in fandoms, and being lost in thoughts or forgetful

I didn't finish the game and from what I have without spoilers I thought that these legs are not organic, metal, with how they look and sounded, and that Lyle's eyes are like camera tubes, because of the way their round contour doesn't change and how eyelids are inside these, and their colour is different. And he has camera theme and said he became the one, if I remember right. Took colours from the sprites but made bright colours less bright because of my likings of duller and darker colours. They looked too contrast.

I'm still in a search to understand what body type my Titan must have and how to portray it right being buff and chubby at the same time. And here I used other type of drawing her colorful pattern, abt which I could write under other post with her (?). But I'm not sure which one is better.

Realized that I could separate tusks to see how she looks with them without the helmet. The UV on the mesh near their base was tweaked to see better where they connect. So with this ref from the game (that might be considered as the most relevant?) I'm not sure if they could smile like this with such position of their tusks and mouth. But I drew it differently. As a small irl ref for face folds could be chosen a Bulldog (fits the best bc of a short muzzle). But for Cabal with tusks it might be harder. And I also lowered these tusks like on this model a little, that's why such position for folds when smiling could feel more natural. But it gnaws at me a little that I drew it not completely canon as the game's model. (don't remember if I added these in other Cabal posts. Idk if it would have a point to gather separate posts full of refs and remarks about some alien species from Destiny (bc I might not know or not have enough, and it could be done already. And then they'll be scattered across my posts)) They also have detailed Hive models with these muscles and chitin details, so pretty. And a baby Ghaul.

So it can be seen how different these are and where the edges of her lips are.

I wanted to draw Oryx with Hidden Hive piercing (but when it will be; and I had Hive Syndicate sketches with these too), and only now I saw Caiatl having piercing on this only concept art that I had for understanding her face anatomy (but here it's not like on the model, her nose part is different, mb it's an early model). I'll add the link to the original from ArtStation.

How do I manage to make such long posts abt bodies of some Destiny species when I may be so taciturn usually or struggling with words