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My name is Gabriel, I'm a 28 years old disabled agender person. I have ADHD, BPD, generalized anxiety, chronic depression and untreated PTSD. I am an artist, and I have no other job besides this one, for now.

This is my girlfriend, Olivia. She is 30, agender just like me, disabled just like me. She has BPD as well as untreated PTSD, and she is autistic.

For the last three years, we were surviving thanks to a monthly allowance she was given due to her being disabled and unable to find or keep a job. This allowance has been stopped due to her being judged "not disabled enough" and "capable of finding a job". She isn't. I don't want to give too many details about our life, but she is currently deeply incapacitated and cannot work. She has asked to get her autism diagnosed on a psychiatric level, which is necessary for her to be given the proper care for her issues.

We will now be given an allowance for job seekers. But we have learned today that this allowance, for the next two months, will be much less than it usually is because of complicated details I do not have the right mind to explain right now.

We will be given around 700€ for a month. 1400€ total, for the months of March and April. You can imagine how 1400€ for two months is a ridiculously low amount of money for two people.

I will try to find a tiny job that is compatible with my own struggles. In the meantime, getting help from other sources will really, really come in handy.

I AM AN ARTIST. I DRAW DIGITAL ILLUSTRATIONS, AND I AM OPEN FOR COMMISSIONS. ALTHOUGH I AM STILL STRUGGLING TO GET OUT OF A HIATUS, I WOULD BE VERY HAPPY TO GET MORE COMMISSIONS. HERE ARE A FEW EXAMPLES OF WHAT I CAN DRAW.

AND HERE IS MY PRICE CHART:

IF YOU ARE INTERESTED IN COMMISSIONNING ME, YOU CAN CONTACT ME ON THIS TUMBLR ACCOUNT OR ON @lubelzoldyck-artworks , YOU CAN ALSO SEND ME A MAIL AT [email protected] 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

IF YOU ARE UNINTERESTED IN COMMISSIONNING ME, PLEASE CONSIDER D0NAT1NG, EVEN A SINGLE BUCK CAN HELP. YOU CAN D0NAT3 ON THIS LINK:

Do I have to precise that i didn't talk about an husbando or waifu from a video game, a skin, a fiction (books, shows, movies), a figurine, a body pillow (i have one), hallucinations made by any kind of drugs, masks, fursuits, or even sex toys shaped in what they could have (and I want some) ?

I'm talking about sentient real being, in flesh and blood and maybe Ichor. I'm talking about them talking to me, making me shivers and touching me in their way of making love through their cultural education (I'll avoid Centaurus for that, except the one who can be trusted). I want them to make love to me. I want them to fuck me, in the most usual carnal ways or harder. I want to hear them grunting or moaning, i want to feel their cold or hot skin against mine, i want to have fun with any of their abilities. And I need that pillow talk and after sex talking nicely with them about experiencing life.

It's fictional, they do not exist. So. What I'm suppose to buy exactly ? Even if it's just a joke, well i can't understand it. My imagination is free though I don't need money 😏

Is it just fantasy ? Yes it mother fucking is ! Even if I'm passionate about it.

1. Don't bother me with this nonsense. It will never work.

2. OK, it is happening, but it's dangerous, 'cause it doesn't work well.

3. Wait, it works too well. We need to hobble it. Do something!

4. This stuff is so powerful that it's not fair to those without access to it.

5. Now it's everywhere, and there is no way to escape it. Not fair.

6. I am going to give it up. For a month.

7. Let's focus on the real problemwhich is the next current thing."