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Hello, my name is Nadin I’m from Gaza. I’m a graphic design graduate. I’m a wife. And now — I’m a mother.

I finished my design studies just before the war began. I had dreams of starting a small design studio, of making art that told stories. I used to think about colors, fonts, sketches. I used to think about the future.

Then the war came. And the future became something we tried to hold onto, moment by moment.

On October 22, 2023, I was pregnant when a missile destroyed my husband’s family home. 25 members of our family were killed — his mother, his siblings, his nieces and nephews, children. Entire branches of a family tree gone in seconds.

We were displaced twice after that. Everything we had disappeared — home, safety, routine, rest.

A few weeks later, I gave birth to our daughter. There was no crib. No stillness. No celebration.

But she came into the world quietly and beautifully. And in her eyes, I saw something I hadn’t felt in weeks: life that still wanted to grow.

Now, I spend my days holding her and trying to build a world around her that doesn’t shake with explosions.

We don’t know what comes next. There is no clear path. We are walking toward the unknown, step by step — with our daughter in our arms and hope as our guide.

🧡 How You Can Help

This is why I’m asking for support. Not for comfort — but for survival. To help care for one baby girl who entered the world after everything else collapsed.

If you can spare anything, it will help us:

Cover basic needs, so we can breathe and heal

Support a path toward even the smallest stability in a place that has none

My husband manages the donations securely through a U.S.-registered Stripe account. Everything is converted to USDT and exchanged here in Gaza. The rates are difficult — $100 becomes only 195 shekels (July 2025) — but we use every shekel carefully, with full transparency and documentation.

🎨 Sharing a Piece of Me

I want to share more than my need. Over the next few weeks, I’ll begin posting some of my graphic designs from before the war. They are pieces of who I was — and who I still am.

They may not be perfect, but they hold something real: my story before the silence, and my belief that beauty can still live alongside survival.

I've been resource gathering for YEARS so now I am going to share my dragons hoard

Floorplanner. Design and furnish a house for you to use for having a consistent background in your comic or anything! Free, you need an account, easy to use, and you can save multiple houses.

Comparing Heights. Input the heights of characters to see what the different is between them. Great for keeping consistency. Free.

Magma. Draw online with friends in real time. Great for practice or hanging out. Free, paid plan available, account preferred.

Smithsonian Open Access. Loads of free images. Free.

SketchDaily. Lots of pose references, massive library, is set on a timer so you can practice quick figure drawing. Free.

SculptGL. A sculpting tool which I am yet to master, but you should be able to make whatever 3d object you like with it. free.

Pexels. Free stock images. And the search engine is actually pretty good at pulling up what you want.

Figurosity. Great pose references, diverse body types, lots of "how to draw" videos directly on the site, the models are 3d and you can rotate the angle, but you can't make custom poses or edit body proportions. Free, account option, paid plans available.

Line of Action. More drawing references, this one also has a focus on expressions, hands/feet, animals, landscapes. Free.

Animal Photo. You pose a 3d skull model and select an animal species, and they give you a bunch of photo references for that animal at that angle. Super handy. Free.

For example, when their entire class is singing a farewell song for George, Anya’s the only one standing there with an unimpressed look on her face. Or when she’s caught up in situations that would terrify any person, let alone a child, she doesn’t start crying until she’s in Yor’s arms.

We don’t explicitly know what Anya went through before the story begins, but we do know it wasn’t anything good, and it was certainly traumatic. She was created in a lab, treated as an experiment, and happened to escape, which already tells us a lot. After that, she ended up in an orphanage, only to be adopted and returned four separate times. Four times. That alone is devastating to imagine, especially for a kid who can literally hear every thought from the adults around her. She knows exactly what they think of her, and will immediately know if they find her weird and strange. She has no protection from those thoughts. She absorbs the full emotional truth of every adult who's supposed to care about her, and that kind of constant rejection and knowing why is just... yeah. And despite how young she is, she’s shockingly good at hiding her secret, because she’s already lived through the consequences of people realizing there’s something off about her. She was told to keep her ability hidden, and she’s learned firsthand that her powers are exactly why most people find her unsettling.

She’s probably internalized all of this, and on top of being told by the scientists who experimented on her to never reveal her powers to anyone, she’s learned to hide what she can do almost reflexively. We can see that her life before Loid was awful, and there was no stability, no promised safety, and definitely no one who cared about her feelings, her emotions, her tears… none of it ever mattered to the adults around her.

So this is a learned behavior, not something that came naturally. She doesn’t cry or react the way the other kids at school do because she learned, very early on, that there was no point. In frightening moments, she doesn’t have the time to turn inward and feel her own emotions, she just defaults to survival mode because she’s always had to rely on herself. She won't act like a typical kid who starts crying as soon as they sense danger, but she'll handle the scary moment itself with uncanny calm— which gets commented on by her fellow students and the adults during the bus hijacking arc ("Her nerves aren't made of steel, it's made of tungsten!")… and then falls apart only after her safety net appears— her parents!!

She’s starting to realize she can fall apart, as long as her mom or dad is there to catch her. She’s learning she can break down, trusting them with her emotions, trusting them that they will handle any danger she comes across once she’s safely in their arms.

And I love that it’s the same for all the Forgers, as the whole manga/show keeps revolving around the fact that they're a group of misfits learning to rely on each other after having no one, and getting accepted for all their quirks. They fit together instantly, even with all the lies, because on some intrinsic level, they recognize each other’s loneliness, each other’s fears, and each other’s want/need to belong. They understand one another in ways no one else ever did, and that’s what makes them one of the best representations of found family I've ever seen in media.

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