THEY DONâT EVEN TRY TO HIDE THE OBSESSION WITH LESTAPPEN CâMON

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THEY DONâT EVEN TRY TO HIDE THE OBSESSION WITH LESTAPPEN CâMON

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đŻď¸oscar piastri you will be comfortable with the car againđŻď¸
đŻď¸oscar piastri you will be getting purple sectors againđŻď¸
đŻď¸oscar piastri you will qualify on the front row againđŻď¸
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you are in love ἍáĄ.
âyouâre not in love with Oscar Piastri, and youâre getting pretty sick of everyone thinking you are. come on, youâre just best friends (since like, forever) and yes you maybe used to be head over heels but youâre not now, seriously! and definitely the rumours and the photos you post and the way youâre sort of kind of living together isnât confusing at all! just friends, really.
âmcs: oscar piastri x fashiondesigner! reader
âtrope: childhood best friends to⌠something?
âcw: fluff, yearning (?) youâre both idiots, landos annoying (as usual) smau! so posts/messages etc! NOT PROOF READ.
âword count: 10k
ânotes from me??: hi everyone !! exams are finally over, everyone cheer now. so strange to work towards something like that and then it be done, though. anyway,! in all honesty? i hate this fic. i honestly donât think itâs very good, or logical, or fluid, and i actually can barely bring myself to post this. iâd really appreciate any feedback or anything! and PLEASE, any ideas of fics im DESPERATE. like genuinely !! have no ideas but so much motivation to write! also, this smau kicked my ass like genuinely i was tweaking on getting the photos in place and then they all DELETED? horrifying. never (definitely will do it) again. i hope you like this a LITTLE more than i do! âŞâŞâ¤ď¸âŹ
You donât believe in soulmates, not like that, anyway. But sometimes, the way life works out, seems to test your obstinance. Youâd met Oscar Piastri when you could only waddle around, and now here you are, sketching him in the corner of your sketchbook affectionately.
Although youâre a designer, you are still an avid doodler. You had pages upon pages of stupid comics and sketches, mainly centered around him, and Lissie, and Lando. Funny, that was the universe shouting at you again. Out of all three of you, Oscar was the one who had always dreamed of Formula One, and yet youâd all been pulled into its orbit. You, stitching together the outfits on the driversâ backs, and Lissie, flouncing around Lando, finally becoming a publicist of sorts.
You and Lissie had always been so close, that you knew it hadnât mattered when sheâd left to go pursue a career on the other side of the world. But when Oscar had left, you hadnât been so sure. You truly thought that was it, that heâd go off and drive and youâd be in that same town, watching your fingers bleed from pinpricks from needles.
You had been in love with him, obviously. Who could blame you? He was quiet, thoughtful, and caring, and you knew him. Truly. Inside and out.
But once he left, you let it go. Let him go. That night, tears welling in your eyes. His rueful smile and messy hair, arms extended. Youâd hugged him so hard, certain that was it. And when youâd whispered those stupid three words, and he still got on the plane, you decided maybe it was better, that it was over. Childhood love wasn't real, anyway. Your brain hadnât even finished developing yet.
But still, it was weird to be back with him. As adults, professional and different. You didnât laugh as much now, but it was louder when you did. He looked the same, but just, sort of bigger? And he still looked at you, just as he had then. But actually, he laughed more. It was nice to see him happier. Heâd been so focused, determined, when you were younger. Desperate. And heâd made it.
You finish your sketch, unsatisfied with the shape of his nose, before Lando comes crashing in.
âGood morning, mate.â he says cheerfully, trying not to trip on his undone shoelaces.
You raise an eyebrow at him hesitantly. âYou seem cheerful. Whatâs up?â
He just beams back. âWhat, am I not allowed to be happy?â he replies, and you roll your eyes at him.
âItâs Clara, isnât it?â you ask suspiciously, and he nods enthusiastically.
âSheâs coming with me to the gala thing. And you know, I explained to her that it will be pretty public, and people will assume things, or make comments, and I understood if she didn't want that, but she said yes anyway. Like, seriously. Like she was willing to go through it, cause sheâd rather be with me publicly than secretly, like being with me is the only option anyway.â he boasts proudly, evidently cheesing, and you canât help but grin back supportively.
You were glad Clara was coming. You hadnât met her yet, but he was gushing about her so often that you were desperate to make up your own mind about her. She sounded brilliant, but Lando had sometimes made questionable choices before.
âThatâs great, Lando. Genuinely. Do you know what sheâs wearing? I could like, incorporate it into your suit, if you wanted. That would be cute.â you say pensively, scrunching your nose at him, and he bursts into laughter.
âI forget that's literally all you think about.â he responds, and you mock being offended.
âYeah, kind of my job. Anyway, stand straight.â you fire back, walking over to him and pulling your green measuring tape against his torso.
âSo, I was going to go for a 1960âs theme for your suit, to celebrate when McLaren was established, sort of? It would be subtle, but that sort of style. Although, I want to try and add a 70âs kind of flare on the bottom, but I canât tell if thatâll look shit. The sketch looked cool, but you know-â you ramble, scribbling down numbers as you instruct him to raise various limbs.
âActually, I don't know. But for the record, I wouldâve fired you by now as my designer if you weren't good at it, no matter how much Oscar would protest. Funny, you know I actually sent Lissie one of your designs first, so you wouldnât have needed your boyfriend or your sister to get here.â he murmurs, trying to sound sarcastic.
âYeah, I know. I wouldnât have accepted the job if I only got it through them anyway. And for the record, you know he isnât my boyfriend. You can stop joking about it now.â you reply firmly, and he throws his arms up in innocence, making you curse.
âLando, stay still.â you sigh, exasperated, and you hear a familiar chuckle from your studio doorway.
âYeah, Lando. Stay still.â comes Oscarâs gentle voice, and you smile instinctively.
âMorning, Osc.â waves Lando, and you catch Oscar wave back in the corner of your eye. You nod at Lando, withdrawing back to your desk, and swiftly close your open sketchbook.
Oscar makes his way towards you, placing down a drink by your arm.
âCareful, itâs hot.â he mutters, before turning back to face Lando. You smile at him absentmindedly, focused on comparing your measurements with the design youâd been working on. You hear them chatter, the sound muffled, until Lando shouts out.
âYou guys smell the same.â he practically shrieks, and you look up at him incredulously.
âUm, what?â
âYou smell the same. Like, your clothes. Well, you smell like her.â he accuses, like he just figured out some deep, ugly secret.
You inhale deeply. âYep, my bad. Iâm staying at his place at the moment, but I hate using any other laundry detergent, hence the smell of the clothes.â you state simply, surprised by his grin.
âOh, finally! Lissie and I have been waiting for this for forever. Does she know?â he asks excitedly, pulling out his phone.
Oscar coughs awkwardly. âSheâs just staying until she finishes the work here.â he explains, gesturing to the piles of boxes and wiring exposed around the room, and Lando sulks.
âMoving in together would be an insane thing to just, like, do, Lando. Weâre not even together. Youâre such an idiot.â you hiss awkwardly, trying not to think about a strangely domestic life with the Australian to your right.
He laughs quietly in agreement. âYou are such an idiot. Iâve been saying this for a while.â he adds, wisely, and you look up at him gratefully.
âYeah, okay. Whatever. Youâre still practically married, doing laundry together.â Lando mutters, dropping his voice to barely a whisper. But itâs still loud enough that you both hear it, even though neither of you even blink.
âAlright, Lando. I think weâre done for today. Iâll text you when to drop back round to try some stuff on, okay?â you mumble firmly, waving him away with a calculated flick of your wrist.
âTouched a nerve?â he jokes, but his eyes are uncomfortably serious. And he did touch a nerve. You grit your teeth and smile angrily at him, nodding your head to the door.
âBye, mate.â chimes Oscar, raising an arm as Lando slowly ducks out the door.
There's an uncomfortable silence, but it's momentary, because youâre suddenly too concentrated on what Lando mentioned- he really does smell like you. Heâs close now, his head peering over your hunched shoulder. And it shouldnât matter, and you shouldn't even notice, but you do. And it's pretty simple why.
Textures, smells, sounds. Colours. The way patterns jumped at you. They made you part of who you were, part of how your mind worked. And you had your own specific smell, your own style, the colours you used in your work and the textures you liked best. And here he was, straying from his usual familiar scent, and into yours instead. And maybe it was weird, for you to obsess over it so much. But it was like a form of identification. It was how youâd found your jumper, when it was thrown among all the others at the school. Stupid, little things like that.
But the worst part was that it wasnât offputting, like when something wasn't matching up to how you thought it should be. Instead, you didnât mind it. And you knew full well, if it was anyone else, you would.
âDo you like it?â you ask suddenly, breaking the silence, and you watch him lean further, admiring the detailed design in front of you.
âIts so obviously, like, you. But also so obviously him. That's brilliant, really. It will look amazing, Iâm sure.â he replies earnestly, but you huff a little.
âYou can be honest. No one's ever honest with my designs, but I need it now. This is a big deal.â you mumble, stressing the importance of the outfit, and he smiles gently.
âI am being honest. Itâs seriously impressive. I donât know how you managed to come up with a suit so unique? Heâll be better dressed than me, that's for sure. Iâll try not to take it personally that you requested him instead of me, by the way.â he responds, and you wince.
âYeah, sorry. Didnât realise you found out about that. Frankly, I had this sort-of idea for a while, and like you said, itâs very him andâŚâ you start, but you trail off slightly.
â... and he's more likely to have people talking about his outfit than me, right?â he chuckles, clearly unoffended, and you nod back quickly.
âYou got it. Sorry though, seriously-â
âWill you be my date?â he bursts out, interrupting you mid sentence.
âUm, sorry?â you ask, startled, and he just blinks back at you.
âTo the gala. Unless someoneâs already asked you, like Lando, because that would make sense. You know, design and designer, good marketing. Or if you donât want to go, that's fine. But if you do, and no one-â he explains, and you decide to return the favour and cut him off.
âThat would be nice, yeah. Iâd love to. And for the record, Lando asked Clara. Iâm so excited to meet her, really. How is she?â you reply simply, and Oscar exhales, relieved.
âSheâs brilliant. Truly, youâll love her. Youâre sort of alike, really. Bubbly. She reminded me of you, when I first met her.â he answers honestly, and you scowl at him.
âIâd rather not know that Lando's dating someone that reminded you of me. Thatâs gross. But hey, you think Iâm bubbly?â you tease, and he looks away, trying to hide a grin.
âNot my finest adjective, I know. But donât worry, sheâs still very different from you. Youâll see what I mean.â he sighs, before asking a simple question.
âSo, what are you going to wear?â he asks, and you freeze.
Shit. Youâd agreed so quickly, forgetting that very very important factor.
âOh. I hadnât thought about that. Well, I canât copy this, because I don't want to match with Lando. Wait, what are you wearing?â you fire back, eyebrows raised expectantly.
He quickly pulls out his phone, showing you a picture of his suit. It was fairly standard, but had some interesting shapes and creases you admired carefully.
âOkay, who are you wearing?â you rephrase, and he looks at you guiltily.
âHonestly? I donât know. Iâll find out. I just got sent this photo by Anna this morning.â he explains quickly, and you nod sharply.
âI like the shape. Harsh where it should be soft, but it doesn't look uncomfortable. And the subtle blue is intriguing. I can work with that. I just need to find out who designed it, so I can ask about the fabric.â You ramble, unfocused on him, but heâs grinning.
âWhat, youâre going to match with me, instead?â he smiles, and you roll your eyes.
âGood marketing, obviously.â
âOh, obviously.â he bemuses, and you shake your head, suppressing a laugh.
***
Other than Lando being a dickhead, the night went incredibly. Your designs had gone down insanely well. An endless stream of compliments flooded you, about Lando but also about your own attire. And as usual, Oscar was right. Clara was brilliant. You loved her, like, immediately. Youâd both ran off, leaving the boys, and youâd spent most of the night flouncing around fancy guests and trying to act a lot more important than you were.
She was creative, funny, and absolutely bubbly. It was actually the perfect adjective.
You were leaning against the edge of the stairs, deep in conversation about your upcoming collection, when you felt a familiar hand rest on your shoulder.
âHi, Osc.â you whispered, not even bothering to look up.
âHow'd you know it was me? Couldâve been a different dashing young man, asking you to do something crazy like dance. To this song. Which he would somehow know you very much love.â he grins, and you turn to face him, pulling that reflexive scrunched face.
âI always know when it's you.â you mumble back, and it sounds way more serious than youâd intended. âBut for the record, you know dancing is reserved for the kitchen only. Or if I feel like winning in Just Dance, like usual.â you respond, hoping your subtle rejection doesn't land too seriously. He rescinds his extended hand back into his pockets, shrugging casually.
âSo, how long have you been together?â comes Claraâs gentle voice, watching you both carefully.
âOh, no, weâre not-â
âTogether? No, itâs-â
You quickly talk over each other, in a blatant panic, hands flapping, but Clara just laughs, sharp and clear.
âWow, sorry. Mustâve severely misread Landoâs message, when he said I could finally meet his best friend's girlfriend tonight.â she giggles, and you want to laugh with her, but Landoâs stupid toothy grin gleams at you, emerging beside her.
âMustâve been autocorrect. I meant best friendâs best friend. Or a friend that's a girl, you decide. Sorry for any confusion.â he smirks, sounding annoyingly sincere.
âItâs alright, Lando-we know you didnât go to school. Grammar is hard.â you say calmly, smiling back at him. He flashes a scowl at you before taking Claraâs arm and whisking her away, much to your annoyance.
âShe didnât protest against dancing.â comes Oscarâs hurt voice, and you snap your neck up to face him, but heâs already laughing at you.
âIâm joking. Just came to check youâre alright. You disappeared.â he states matter of factly, and you just rest your head on his shoulder, giving yourself a moment of quiet.
âYeah, Iâm fine. Iâm actually quite tired. And this dress is too tight.â you groan, suddenly feeling overwhelmed and uncomfortable.
âYou made it.â he chuckles, and you whack him affectionately.
âYeah, I know. Whatever.â you pause, listening to the music.
âSo, imagine Iâm a different bubbly, um, dashing, woman or whatever. Who happens to know that this is kind of the only song that isnât house music that you listen to.â you beam, holding out your right hand, raising your eyebrows.
He laughs, and takes it, and you follow the pathway conveniently made from Lando and Clara towards the middle of the floor.
***
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âł claranelson oscar has this girl in the garage every weekend and they arent together so actually you just hard launched us
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You switch your phone off and flop onto your bed, sighing. It was so bizarre to you, staying here. Calling it your bed, like you owned it. Like it wasnât in Oscarâs house. It had been generous of him to offer so quickly to let you stay, and he clearly didnât care about how long your studio would take. Sure, youâd spent many hours in this house, but it felt so different now. Your mess, all over the carpet. Scraps of fabrics and sketches and clothes strewn around. You, bringing colour all over the plain walls. It was genuinely like you lived here. In this room, at least. Youâd never even seen Oscarâs bedroom.
But he wasnât here right now, probably training, and youâd always been curious.
Huffing, you trail to his door, pushing it open. It was pretty boring- as expected. He had an interesting simulator stuffed in a corner, but the room seemed so devoid of character. Almost like a hotel room. Youâd been there for two weeks and youâd already made it seem lived in, while his was just so plain.
You scan the shelves for something interesting, and you pause when you see a long row of photos. Various frames and sizes jump out at you, the irregularity of it all making you uncomfortable. Itâs cute though, an endless array of baby Oscar next to overly large karts, or his sisters grinning, or his mum and his dogs. Then you see yourself, face scrunched as usual, scowling at the camera. You were so tiny, pointing awkwardly at Oscarâs shirt, while he beamed. You remembered it well, that photo. It was the first garment youâd ever made, and you hated how obvious you thought the clumsy seams were, even though both him and his family had thought it was inspired. Theyâd always supported you, even when your own hadnât. Hesitantly, you pick it up to study it, and you watch a large pile of polaroids fall out the back.
You inhale deeply, recognising them. Lissie and Hattie had been obsessed with polaroid cameras, constantly taking picture after picture. Youâd kept a couple of Lissieâs, somewhere in a shoebox, but they were mainly of you and her, or relatives. Hattie had always been the one who took snapshots of you and Oscar.
There were so many. An endless stream of different poses. Back to back, in your embarrassingly shiny prom dress, and his slightly-too-small suit with a tie that matched your pink look. A couple more from that night, including some with Lissie and her boyfriend at the time. Then a cute one, of just you and your sister, grinning. Considering theyâd been hidden behind the back of the picture frame, you figure he wouldnât mind if you took that one. So you do. You stuff it silently into your pocket and continue wading through the polaroids, feeling that familiar sense of nostalgia.
They all blur, grins and scowls and arms over shoulders, and you try to not get too upset. Itâs sickening, how sweetly youâre looking at him, in the more candid ones. How he didnât know, youâll always wonder. Sure, social cues are often wasted on him, but you were so obvious. The proof was in front of you.
You get to the last one, almost wishing youâd never picked them up in the first place. It was a bittersweet sensation, watching years flash by. Watching you grow up all over again.
But this one's the worst. Both of you, evidently no older than sixteen. Your left hand, gently holding his chin. A wide-eyed grin spread across his face. Your lips, barely pressed against his pink cheeks. Itâs adorable and disgusting and you want to rip it up and frame it simultaneously. No context could save that, explain the look on your faces. No excuse could make that seem friendly, and you honestly think it's more intimate than if youâd actually properly kissed him. But you can't even remember the context. It mustâve been a joke, or something. Because you know full well the idea of that wouldâve made you want to throw up- not from disgust but from pure panic.
And itâs making you feel a bit sick now, something you havenât felt since he walked away, that brutal rejection. Well, it wasnât truly a rejection. It was a conclusion, an understanding. But a painful one. Itâs a sharp, clear memory.
âI love you.â you whispered, clinging onto his neck.
âI know. I love you too.â he whispered back, into your hair.
You paused. âYou need to go, donât you?â
âI do.â he replied quietly, but he didnât pull away from the tight embrace.
And although your brain was screaming at you to rephrase, to tell him not to go, to say you were IN love with him, to not release your grip, you stepped back. You watched his resolve falter slightly, in time with your heartbeat, but you couldnât leave it like this.
âBye, Osc. Good luck, yeah?â you grinned, mustering up any joy you could find, like the world wasn't collapsing on you.
He laughed lightly, scanning your fake expression.
âThank you. But this isnât really bye, is it?â he murmured back, his tone wavering between genuinity and sarcasm. Back then, youâd thought he was just being nice, and he hadnât meant it.
Now you realised he was right. And youâre so lost in thought, so unfocused, you don't notice you are still holding that photo. So unfocused, you donât notice heâs leaning against the doorframe, watching, until he speaks.
âYouâre not usually in here.â comments Oscar, eyebrows raised inquisitively.
You jump, and turn to face him, a somewhat guilty expression painting your face.
âAh. Hi, Osc. Yeah, youâre right. Sorry, I was just-â you begin, but he chuckles at you, walking forwards.
â-Curious? Yeah, not unlike you. What did you find?â he asks, eyes crinkling.
âUm, I found these polaroids. Hattieâs, I assume?â you reply, shielding the one intertwined in your fingers.
âUh-huh. I meant to give them to you, when I found them, but I forgot. Youâre welcome to take any you want, obviously.â
âI already did. Took one, I mean. One of me and Lissie, you know?â you respond, breathing slowly. Heâs not looking at you, instead heâs studying the array of photos beside you.
âI know the one. Are you planning on taking the one of us youâre trying to hide now, or what?â he jokes, still not looking up.
âIâm not hiding anything. Iâm just holding it. Anyway, how did you know which one Iâve got?â you mutter, rolling your eyes.
âItâs my favourite.â he says casually, and you almost explode.
You blink awkwardly, unsure on how to reply.
âOh! Well, obviously you can keep it then, I was just looking at it. I donât remember taking it.â you babble, handing it to him, but he just shakes his head.
âFunny, I barely remember any of these, but that one. But no, you can keep it. Put it somewhere more visible, maybe?â he jokes, but he doesn't seem to be that light-hearted. Heâs sort of awkward, and vulnerable, and you donât really know what to do.
So you nod, seriously, but donât stuff it into your pocket. Instead, you pull off your phonecase and slip it inside, making sure it's central before clipping it back on.
âAlright?â you question, and he smiles at you.
âPerfect.â
***
Social media went wild at that simple gesture. Who knew a photo could cause so much speculation? Well, Lando did. Someone had caught a picture of Clara in his wallet a while back, and that's how his rumours had started. But he wasnât being particularly sympathetic, and neither was Lissie.
âFrankly, this is entirely your fault. Youâre just prancing around with Oscar, practically attached at the hip, attending all his races. And then, suddenly, you show up with a polaroid of you two kissing in the back of your phone. I'd even think you were together. Or like some of the theories, that you used to be and broke up, or something. If you really wanted to lay low, you wouldnât be doing all this.âcritiques Lissie, pausing only to sip from her obnoxiously sweet coffee, and Lando nods along approvingly.
âFirst off, weâre obviously children in that photo. Secondly, why should I have to pretend heâs not my best friend for the sake of the cameras?â you fire back, sulking, and Lando just laughs at you.
âYou need to recheck what a child is. Also, calling him your best friend is such nonsense. Itâs getting ridiculous now, truly. Look, it sucks. We all know it sucks. But if you keep going the way youâre going, itâs going to explode.â he preaches, trying to sound wise, but you just scowl at him.
âYou know I rarely say this, but Landoâs right. Before, it was only the races that had events after. That you were dressing him for. Then it became every other one. Then he brought you TO these events, youâre at every single grand-prix, and you donât even try to shut down anything anyone says.â adds Lissie, scrutiny painting her face.
âItâs not my place to do that. Iâm allowed to be close to my best friend of like, twenty fucking years.â you reply obstinately, and they both sigh angrily at you.
âBut are you really just friends?â comes a thoughtful whisper. And itâs not Lissieâs sharp voice, or Landoâs mocking tone. Itâs gentler, lighter, and genuine. Itâs got an apologetic melody.
âMorning, âRa.â mumbles Lando, smiling widely as she presses a gentle kiss to his forehead.
âSorry to intrude, everyone.â grins Clara, sitting firmly down on a seat nearby, clearly unbothered if she actually is an intrusion.
âNo, itâs all good. Iâm trying to seek some moral support from these two, and they are hopeless. Too much unsolicited advice.â you explain, stuffing your hands aggressively into your pockets.
âIf I may?â she asks, but sheâs not really asking for permission. Sheâs asking for you to listen, so you do.
âLike I said, are you really just friends?â
You pause. Not long enough for it to be awkward, or for anyone to shout âI told you soâ, but just long enough to wrap your head around how to phrase your answer.
âNo, I wouldnât say weâre just friends. He means more to me than that. But itâs the same sort of dependency I have on Lissie. Heâs just like, part of my life. Heâs part of me. But itâs not-â you begin, but she cuts in with another question.
âDo you love him?â
You donât need to hesitate on this one. âOf course. I always have.â
Now Lissie decides to interject. âThatâs a lie. You found him properly annoying, until about five. You despised him, truly. âWe are only friends because we have to be.â You said it, so loudly, so confidently, that we all believed you. He didnât talk to you for a week after that. Walking to school was painful.â
You laugh quietly, remembering the reprimanding you had received for being so mean.
âYeah, and then I drew him a card to say sorry, and we were fine after that.â you finish, and the whole table smiles at the story.
âIâve got this one!â calls Lando, winking at Clara slowly. âAre you in love with him?â
You knew this was coming. It was obvious. Obvious enough that even Lando knew what to ask. So you use the same prepared answer you have stored in the back of your mind.
âNo. No, Iâm not. And before you say anything, yeah, I used to be. A long time ago. But genuinely, Iâm not anymore. Which is why it's so infuriating that I canât just go to his races. Or hang out with him. Without being hounded with accusations and speculation. It makes me want to leave him alone, even though that's not his fault, and I canât let them win. I canât let them take him away.â âagain,â you add mentally. But you just watch the sullen expressions stretch across their faces.
Clara speaks first, which you didn't expect.
âDoes he know? Like, did you ever tell him? Maybe you should. Just, I donât know, mention it one time? Tell him that youâre over it now, but itâs hard, with the media and all. Heâs understanding. Maybe you can work something out?â she says optimistically, and you just smile hopefully back at her.
Lissie beams at you both. âThatâs a good idea. You seemed confident in that, âNo.â So, you should be fine. Iâm glad youâve figured it out. Anyway, Iâm gonna head out.â
Lando pauses. âIâll meet you in a minute Clara, kay? I have some, uh, fashion questions.â he mutters, and Clara dutifully leaves, trailing behind Lissie.
He turns to face you, a strange expression on his face.
âYouâre lying. You are. I can see it.â he accuses, but you donât even flinch.
âNorris, stay in your lane. I came for sympathy, and your girlfriend provided much better advice than you ever have. I told the truth.â you reply back calmly, but your words are aggressive.
âYou canât convince me this is like, fucking, casual? Do you see the way you look at each other? This is nonsense, seriously. So stop being a coward, and at least admit it to me that youâre still in love with him. Because youâre lying to us all, and we canât help you.â he whispers bitterly, and you try not to blink.
âYou canât help me anyway. It pisses me off that we canât just be friends. But Iâd rather it be like this, and thatâs how it ends, than I push him away because I can't handle some instagram posts.â you fire back, trying to tell him so much with so few words.
âFor fucks sake!â he recoils, exasperated. âYouâre both truly idiots. Why havenât you just considered, asking him out? Itâs not unrequited, come on. Itâs obvious.â
You never had a short temper. You were cool, and calm, things that rubbed off from the Australian. Heâd withered his way into your very own personality. But he wasnât here now, even in your head. All you saw was some privileged prick, asking you questions youâd been asking yourself for over ten years.
âYouâre the only fucking idiot here. I told you, Iâm over it. Itâs done. I donât want that with him, not like that, not anymore. Look at whatâs real, whatâs here, not what you want to see. Itâs not going to happen.â you whisper-scream, all too aware of the other people in the cafe.
âYou wonât even try?â he asks, seriously now.
âI did. I told him. That last night. And he left anyway. Because it was never going to be enough. I canât go back there, canât think of it like, âoh, if he knew. Oh, if I told him.â Because I did. And like I said, this works, now. And Iâd rather we spend less time together, because of some idiots on the internet, than because me loving him wasnât enough again. Because he has other commitments. Whatever, I donât know.â you mumble, truly quiet now. Pensive. Painful.
You feel him touch your arm. Itâs alien, and weird. And youâd rather he just jokingly punched you instead, like usual. âYouâre such a sap, mate.â But this weird attempt at comfort made it so much worse, and so much realer.
âIâm sorry.â he says genuinely, but something isnât right. Thereâs a level of determination on his face, a drive for success in his eyes, and it's something youâve only seen before sessions.
âLando, please drop it. I donât want-â you begin, but he just smirks at you gleefully, and you hate how visibly the cogs are turning in his head.
âGoodbye.â he sings, and you watch him excitedly sling his arm around Clara as soon as he makes it through the door, whispering something in her ear.
***
You throw yourself into your work for the next week. Itâs relentless, and exhausting, but a good distraction. You spend as little time at Oscarâs as possible, even occasionally falling asleep amongst piles of fabric and scraps. On the nights you do huddle in his guest bed, trying not to think of him down the corridor, he seems to tread extra carefully around you. Like he recognises your change in behaviour, but doesn't want to talk about it.
Youâre being absent because of Lando, because you think heâs up to something. Thatâs at least what you tell yourself.
Itâs definitely not because youâre overthinking all of it.
Your phone blinds you slightly, as you check the time. 02:33. âBrilliant,â you think, knowing the exhaustion will truly settle in soon. But you just canât sleep. Itâs hot, and your brain is whirring faster than those stupid cars that haunt your life.
Begrudgingly you get up, and blunder your way to his kitchenette, cursing as you accidentally slam a cupboard door way too loudly. He emerges instantaneously, and guilt floods your face.
âIâm so sorry, I didnât mean to wake you. I was just thirsty.â you whisper, nodding to the glass in your hand. You canât really see him, because the cooker hoodâs light is so dim, but you hear him yawn.
âDonât worry. I canât sleep either, to be honest. I was just checking youâre okay.â he mumbles, and he steps towards you so you can see him.
Heâs wearing odd socks and strange green shorts, which donât go at all with the oversized top heâs wearing with an odd depiction of a croissant on it.
âHi. Nice outfit.â you giggle, and he looks at himself, like heâd forgotten what he was wearing.
âYou weren't meant to see me like this.â he groans dramatically. âHi.â
You shrug, unsure of what else to do. âIâve seen you a lot worse.â
Thatâs true, you have. Youâd seen him with chickenpox, chasing you around on grassy fields as you ran for your life. Youâd seen him with tear-strickened eyes after falling surprisingly hard off his bike. Mud, all over his face, as you tried to build a âbug hotel.â When heâd got food poisoning at a sleepover one night, and you had to look after him. When heâd been the donkey in the school nativity. The list was somewhat endless.
He smiles at you, like heâs read your mind. âVery true.â
Silence hangs around you. You loved your silence- it was special. A silence that only worked in the peace you created together. The understanding, the thoughts you shared without saying a word. You always knew what he was thinking, and vice versa.
But this silence was different. You couldnât hear him, hear him thinking. It was like a barrier had been put up, and you couldnât see through it.
âCan you hear me, Osc?â
âAsk me, this time. Ask me what's wrong. Donât assume it will work itself out.â
âAsk me where Iâve been. Tell me what you think about me. Tell me what Lando did.â
âSo, howâs the collection going?â he asks hesitantly, like youâre a colleague.
You purse your lips, and wonder what the actual fuck is going on.
âIâm almost done. Been working tirelessly, you know. Thatâs why I havenât been around.â you reply honestly, chewing on your lip anxiously.
âHuh. Nice. Iâm so proud of you, truly.â he responds awkwardly, like he has more to say, so you let him. You just stare expectantly.
âWhatâs wrong?â he asks, furrowing his eyebrows at you.
âNothing. Iâm fine. Just tired, you know? Like you are, Iâm sure.â you mumble weakly, watching water fill your glass. You watch it reach the top, and then shimmy around the counter, back to your door.
âGoodnight, Oscar.â you whisper, slipping inside. But you linger, for a second, and thatâs all he needs.
âUm, sorry, but like, can you come back?â he calls, and you turn around, placing down your glass and walking towards him.
He looks confused, and somewhat upset, and you want to laugh and joke and tell him to go to bed because it's fine, but you canât. Because some indescribable emotion is drowning you, and you donât know what to do. You feel suffocated, like you just want to hide from him, and also like youâre going to be sick. Youâve never wanted to run from him before, ever. Youâve only ever craved his tight hugs, and his soothing slow breaths.
âWhat is it, Piastri?â you whisper, your throat drying. He strides towards you, studying your paling face.
âDid I do something? Whatâs going on?â he asks firmly, searching your eyes for an answer but letting his gaze linger on your slightly shaky hands.
âNo, you didnât do anything.â you mutter, and youâre telling the truth. But you want to scream at him, shout until your throat burns. You want him to leave you alone, like before. You donât want to see his stupid beautiful annoying mole-covered face ever again.
He exhales, relieved, and hugs you tightly, crushing you a bit.
âGood. I missed you.â he murmurs into your hair, and you shiver.
âIt was a week.â you reply into his shoulder, but he just chuckles quietly.
âYeah, but it's been a while since I havenât seen you in a week. Youâve been so, like, constant recently. In the best way.â he stumbles over his words, but you get the point.
And you give yourself one more breath in his arms before you hurriedly pull away.
âMhm. About that. I donât think I can be around so much anymore. Itâs just exhausting.â you stammer, and he looks bewildered.
âSo I did do something. Come on, you can be honest.â he says, clearly exasperated at the back and forth.
âNo,â you reply quickly. âItâs just, like the media side of it all. I make clothes. Iâm not meant to be all on camera. And I want to be there for you, and spend as much time as possible with you, but I just canât because of everything that comes with it. You can understand that, right?â you ask, and he nods.
âOf course I can. But, please don't push me away because of some instagram posts. Donât disappear on me, we can make it work, yeah?â he responds, and you smile, although your heart is breaking a little bit.
Because that's exactly what you said to Lando, and here you are, letting it happen
But you know something Oscar doesnât- you still meant what you said then. You werenât pushing him away because of the media. You were pushing him away because if someone asked you now, if you were in love with him, that ânoâ would be much shakier.
***
A month later
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You smile slightly as you switch your phone off, and hate yourself for it. It had actually been quite nice, to get away from it all for a bit. Youâd seen Lando for some more outfit stuff, but he hadnât said anything about Oscar. Maybe it was because he realised you actually were keeping a distance. At first, it was awful. Horrific. Then slowly it got better, and you stopped seeing him every time you blinked.
And you realised it was indefinitely easier to have space, and breathing room, than to hide feelings and curse social media. There was nothing to question, nothing to confront. Just you, and drawings, and fabric. The true definition of home for you.
Thatâs when the door swings open, and you immediately become irritable.
âHello, Lando. Unless Claraâs with you, why are you here?â you ask coldly, and he rolls his eyes.
âI knew youâd like her more than me!â he pouts, and you scowl.
âNot hard, is it?â you fire back, and he laughs sharply.
âOuch. Anyway, glad youâre talking to Oscar again. He was getting mopey.â he coos, and you wave him away.
âPlease donât. Youâll give me a headache.â you bark, and he blinks, slightly surprised.
âWhyâd you say yes if you donât want to see him?â he asks, quietly. Itâs serious, and you donât like it.
âI do want to see him. Iâve been busy.â you reply back quickly.
âIâm sick of your bullshit. Look, Oscar means a lot to me. Youâre messing with his head. And you're messing with mine. And clearly, your own. He came to me, fuckinâ like, distraught. Saying he felt so guilty, that you were so impacted by all the rumours and shit, and that you had to leave him alone. And I had to sit there and tell him youâd come around, and youâd work it out. That he should follow his gut. And he just looked like someone had died the whole time.â he explains quickly, and you pause awkwardly.
âWell, I did need space. It wasnât his fault.â you respond, shrugging.
âWhat happens next time? When you get that close again, and then you get scared. Scared to admit youâre not over it? Scared of being rejected? Scared of finding out that maybe itâs fucking one sided? Youâre both scared. Youâre gonna keep hurting each other if you do this. So either cancel, or confess.â he stated loudly, his tone unnecessarily harsh.
âLando, you keep overstepping. You need to get the fuck out of my business. Iâm not a teenager anymore. I can deal with this. I did what I needed to do.â
âHere! Exactly that. Defensive shit. Because you love him just as much now as you did when you were a teenager. Please, just say it.â he pleads, but you stare at him adamantly.
âYou asked him, didnât you? You asked him the same thing. And he said no, too. And youâre clinging to delusions and preying on vulnerability to make whatever the fuck youâve got in your head a reality. We had our chance. We had our entire childhood. I told him, and maybe it was too late, but he left anyway. Why reopen that wound? It helps neither of us.â You respond aggressively, but he shakes his head.
âYou said no, and you were lying. Heâs doing the same.â rambled Lando, and you want him to just fall through a menacing crack in the floor.
âYouâre a dickhead, you know that? He said no, âcause he doesn't love me. He never did. Not in the way I did. He said it back, in the same way he said it to his sisters. I heard it, I knew it. It was a rejection, and it was a kind one. And thatâs all I needed- a rejection. Iâm not going through that again for feelings Iâm not even sure are there.â you admit, letting your words hang in the air.
Lando sighs. âHe didnât know.â
âWhat?â
âI asked him, if you two were ever together. A long time ago. He said no, that youâd never even entertained the notion. And once you told me about that night, at the airport, I asked about it. Like, in general. If he regretted anything. He said he wouldâve liked to tell you something, but that he chickened out. He thought it would be best to leave it unspoken, leave it as a âwhat if?ââ he explains.
âI donât understa-â
âHe thought you were letting him go. Saying goodbye. He didnât know.â
***
Oscar was punctual. Not late, not early. On time. So as you accidentally arrive at your aforementioned dinner way earlier than you were meant to, youâre surprised to see Piastri sitting there already.
âYou look nice.â you say thoughtfully, sitting down opposite him, and he smiles ruefully.
âThanks.â he replies, scanning the menu.
âSo, race weekend. Are you excited?â you ask awkwardly, like itâs not a stupid question. Itâs like youâre on a pathetic first date, not someone you used to sit next to in Chemistry.
âOf course. Are you, coming, maybe?â he questions hopefully, and you purse your lips.
âUm, I donât know. Probably not, with the launch soon. Iâm sorry, if Lando was a dick to you, or something.â you mumble, and he grins appreciatively.
âNo, he was fine. Just worried. I donât think anyone other than Lissie has ever seen us argue- itâs not a common occurrence.â he jokes, but itâs sad.
âHey, we didn't argue. Iâm sorry, how abrupt I was. I was just overwhelmed.â you respond, but he just nods.
Thereâs silence again, and it's that offputting kind, that youâve never really associated with him.
âThis is so weird. What happened to us?â he asks quietly, and itâs so genuine and so full of hurt that you want to cry.
âWe stopped being kids a while back, if that's what you mean.â
âYou were living with me two months ago. And now weâre sitting here pretending we have things to talk about, like we donât know everything about each other.â he mumbles, and you donât know what to do, because he's right. And you feel like it's your fault.
âNah, you donât know everything.â you reply snarkily, and he looks up.
âI donât? Everything from before I left, surely?â he suggests, but you shake your head.
âNope, not quite. Do you remember my first ever sketchbook?â you mutter, trying to ignore the anxiousness in your chest.
âYep, pink. Of course! You guarded that with your life.â he laughs, and you watch carefully as his cheeks flush.
âIt was because you were in it. Sketches of you, of us, all over. Pages and pages of it. And when Lissie saw, she called me by your last name for weeks. So much, I used to scribble it down near the drawings, to see if I liked it. And she explained weâd have to be married, and I didn't understand that, so I just went with it.â you confess quietly, watching him try to suppress an evident smile.
âWell, what if I told you I had the exact same thing? Do you remember when my cousin came from Australia? The old one, with his girlfriend? He said he was going to marry her, and I asked him what that meant. And he said it was just making sure the person you loved the most was stuck with you, forever, basically. So I marched around declaring Iâd marry you so weâd be friends forever.â he responds, his voice breaking slightly, and it's your turn to try not to laugh.
âWow, we were hopeless.â
âWe were.â
Then the silence is back, and it's warm, and familiar, and you feel that gravitational pull back into Oscar Piastri again. And for some reason, that emboldens you. Just enough to say something small. A few, insignificant words, that werenât insignificant at all.
âYou never said anything.â
âWe were what, six? Of course I didnât. I didnât understand it.â
âWas that it, though? Did it really go away, just like that?â
âNo. Did it go away for you?â
âNo, but you knew that.â
You wait for another quick response, wait for him to prove Lando wrong. But his slow blinking, his confusion, makes your heart soar and your stomach churn.
âI didnât know that. How was I meant to know that?â
âI told you, I said I love you. What else did you want me to say?â you ask, your heartbeat accelerating.
âOh come on, that's not fair. You used to say, âthanks, love youâ practically every day. I bought you a croissant once, and you acted like Iâd just proposed. I couldnât ever tell what you felt about me, ever. I just assumed you said âI love youâ, like because you did. Like family. We were that close.â
âRight, so shaky hands and tears in my eyes was no accurate indication. Youâre an idiot.â
âOh. Then. I am. That is fair, although, when I said it back, you just reminded me that I had to go.â
âYeah, because you said it back so normally. I practically felt you shrug while you said it. I could hear the reflexiveness of the response, genuinely.â you mumble, and he laughs.
âThat also makes you an idiot.â
***
Lando never leaves you on read. He always made an effort to not do that, because he hated being left on read himself. So watching him ignore a message he definitely should not have ignored is concerning.
Youâre not concerned for very long though, because suddenly a cluster of limbs and pink hair crash into your studio, disturbing your calculated mess.
Lissie and Clara babble over eachother, flinging themselves at you, with a flurry of words that seem to be âcongratulationsâ and âcondolencesâ simultaneously.
âGuys, please relax. Me being in love with Oscar is not a new concept.â you joke, but youâre obviously overwhelmed. And itâs scary, admitting something youâve been hiding for so long. Fighting for so long. But you were tired, and you were beat. And before you realised, you were crying. Just a little bit.
âWe were hopeless.â
You were. And you realised what youâd felt in that silence, every time. That warmth, that comfort, it was love. It was you both saying how much you loved eachother, because you couldnât actually make a sound about it. And you really did feel like a fucking idiot. A true, silly, hopeless, idiot, teenager
But you didnât have to be that again, did you?
You feel hugs and âitâs okay, let it outâ whispers, and you let yourself have this moment of vulnerability. You let yourself mourn what couldâve been, and you hoped he was doing the same.
âSo, letâs talk about this, yeah? What do you want to do?â asks Lissie, and Clara nods enthusiastically. And you think about Lando and wonder how on earth heâs managed to make her fall in love with him. So you look at them both, and pause.
âWhat would you do?â
The question is heavy, and serious, and you watch them stiffen.
âI would go for it,â and âIâd let him go,â are their simultaneous answers, and you groan.
âGreat, thanks. Super helpful.â
Lissie speaks first. âLook, I watched you go through this before. I know how deep this runs. Itâs in your very nature. If you donât do this, youâll regret it. More than you already do.â she warns, and you know sheâs right.
âYou could get over it. For real this time, if you tried. Itâs clearly taken so much from you already, and maybe if it was meant to be, it wouldâve been by now. If you just left, focused on your clothes and stuff, idk. Youâll let yourself love someone else, and it will be okay,â advises Clara, and you pause at her words. Because somehow, sheâs right too.
And youâre so torn, you donât know what to do. Because youâre so disgustingly horribly obsessed with Oscar Piastri, and you have been for over a decade. You could conjure him perfectly in your mind, every freckle in place. Imagine his voice, his smell, immediately. Your heart almost explodes when you think too hard about him.
Your phone dings, a loud, ugly noise, and you sigh, assuming a range of messages from Lando.
You pack up your stuff, gesturing wildly to the girls beside you. âIâm going to see him, like now.â you reveal, biting your lip again.
âSo, what are you going to do then? What are you going to tell him?â Clara asks carefully, and you smile. Itâs small, and subtle, but itâs there. The only sign she needed to know you made the right choice, whatever that choice was.
âIâll let you know how it goes.â
***
You arrive, slightly flushed, at his door, and he opens before you can knock.
âYou came!â He announces, like heâs surprised.
âUh, yeah. Obviously. What did you want to talk about?â You ask, even though you both know the answer.
âWe made it a joke earlier, but is it? Is it a joke?â He replies sullenly, and you shake your head.
âNo, itâs not a joke to me. I was like, head over heels, insanely in love with you. And I just donât know how to cope with the idea of what we lost without even knowing we were losing it.â You admit honestly, and he sighs.
âYouâre right. I feel the same way. And this might sound pathetic but I want to make up for it. I mean, it canât feel much different to how we already are, sur-â and you laugh. A horrible explosive outburst of giggles.
His face collapses, like youâve just ripped out his heart and jumped on it.
â-Iâm sorry, obviously that was back then. If youâre over it now, or whatever else, or the media and so on, thatâs totally fine.â He mumbles sadly, clearly reeling from your cackles.
âOh, Oscar, Iâm not laughing at you. Itâs just, ridiculous. After all this. Youâre not pathetic, not now. You were back then. So was I.â
âWe were scared.â
âWe didnât have to be.â You mutter, and he smiles knowingly.
âNo, we didnât have to be. But we were.â
He steps towards you hesitantly.
He pauses, then says, âLook, you were my best friend. Still are.â
âI was scared to touch your face, in case you flinched.â He murmurs, brushing the hair from your eyes. âI could barely even hold eye contact sometimes. Youâd look at me like I was saving you from drowning, when I was actually the one drowning. I used to forget how to breathe when youâd pull my blazer collar down. When our knees brushed in the car. When youâd press your arms against mine and scribble down numbers. I was so scared of you.â
You can feel him breathing on you now, as you study each otherâs faces, daring the other person to find something new, something they havenât seen before. But thatâs an impossible task, because you know every mole, and he knows every smile line. You know exactly what his teeth look like, and he can imagine the small scar on your forehead even though he canât see it.
And there it is again. That silence that screams words louder than your voice ever could. You can hear it in the silence. You are in love, it says. He is in love.
âAre you scared now?â You ask tentatively, and he grins.
âNo.â
And thatâs when it all comes crashing down, and you throw away any doubt you had about soulmates, because yours is right here. And heâs kissing you so gently, his lips so soft against yours, that you canât help but sigh. Itâs alien and familiar at the same time and you wrap your arms around him subconsciously, carefully playing with the back of his hair.
His cheeks are flushed when you both breathe, and you press your forehead against his.
âHi.â
âHi. Are you my girlfriend now?â
âThatâs a rubbish way to ask. But yeah, I am.â
He beams, like heâs finally found something precious that he had spent eternity looking for.
âOkay. Nice. Cool. Okay.â
âAre you freaking out a bit right now, baby?â You tease, and he laughs.
âYeah, a bit. Can you tell?â
âI can. Now, are you going to tell Lando or should I?â
***
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You switch off your phone, and flip it over to admire the new Polaroid hidden in your phonecase. Identical to the other, truly, but older and newer at the same time. The love in your eyes is the same, but your face is matured, and the frame cleaner.
And you open your sketchbook and you doodle it, lingering on his features that you could draw blind.
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Monday mornings always feel like a personal attack.
Your alarm is cruel enough, but the real betrayal is the way sunlight filters through your blinds as if the world is mocking you. You drag yourself out of bed with all the grace of a zombie extra in a Bâlist horror film. Teeth brushed, hair tied back, chefâs whites pressed in theory (in reality, the iron stayed untouched), you go through the motions of a routine that has more to do with muscle memory than enthusiasm.
Coffee comes first. Always coffee.
You sip it like medicine, grimacing at the bitterness but knowing youâd be a public safety hazard without it. Bag slung over your shoulder, sneakers squeaking on the pavement, you head out to Venti Dueâthe only itameshi restaurant along the West Coast and, conveniently, your place of reluctant employment.
The brick façade of the restaurant looks deceptively cheerful in the morning light. You push the door open and step into the familiar hum of preâopening chaos. The servers are already buzzing around, though âbuzzingâ is generous when it comes to Oscar.Â
He greets you with his usual sleepy smile, one hand still clutching his phone as if heâs been dragged out of bed five minutes ago. Knowing Oscar, it probably isnât far from the truth. A uni student pulling partâtime shifts, heâs charming in the way of someone who canât fully hide his exhaustion but tries anyway.
âMorning,â he mumbles, voice caught somewhere between dreams and reality.
âYouâre awake. Miracles do happen,â you shoot back, tossing your bag behind the counter.
Jules pops her head up next, practically materializing from behind a stack of menus. âDonât jinx him. Heâs fragile in the mornings.â Jules, with her eccentric flair and a tendency to turn even simple table setups into performance art, beams at you. Sheâs already managed to scatter napkins across three different tables in what looks suspiciously like an avantâgarde arrangement. You decide to let her have her moment.
George, the sommelier, is next in line for introductions whether he wants it or not. He shuffles past with a clipboard in hand, brow furrowed in concentration. Frumpy, yes. Wellâmeaning, also yes. He greets you with a distracted nod, muttering something about bottle inventories that youâre not entirely sure wasnât directed at himself. Youâve seen him lose battles with corkscrews more often than youâd care to admit, but his heartâs in the right place.
The bar clinks with the unmistakable rhythm of Lando at work. Heâs got that tooâeasy grin, the kind that spells trouble before you even reach the counter. âMorning, pastry princess,â he calls, shaking a cocktail shaker despite the hour. You roll your eyes, already bracing yourself. Landoâs in the middle of his Masterâs, somehow balancing academia with bartending and an unrelenting commitment to flirting with anything that breathes.
âYouâre not supposed to make drinks before noon,â you point out.
âYouâre not supposed to look this grumpy before noon, but here we are.â He winks, and you resist the urge to throw a spoon at his head.
The kitchen door swings open and Alex emerges, still tying his apron. Away from kitchen duty, heâs personable and warm, the type of guy who remembers birthdays and always has an extra pen when youâre short. When itâs time to cook, though, the sous chef is Gordon Ramsey reincarnated. âDonât let him bother you,â Alex says, shooting Lando a look before offering you a smile.
The rhythm of the morning crew is familiar, each cog in the machine spinning in its predictable orbit. Youâre halfway to convincing yourself this Monday might pass without incident when the air shifts.
Yuki Tsunoda steps into the room with the kind of presence that demands attention. Not loud, not showy. Heâs only sharp, focused, carrying an authority that instantly changes the tempo of the restaurant. He shrugs off his jacket, ties his apron with brisk precision, and surveys the room with an expression that dares anyone to waste his time.
You hate the way your stomach flips. Itâs Monday morning. Youâre supposed to be miserable. Instead, all you can think is: here we fucking go.
Yuki sets his knife roll on the counter with a soft thud, pulling the ties loose with the focus of someone already two steps ahead of everyone else. Youâve seen him do this a hundred times. Efficient, precise, and more than a little intimidating if youâre new. But youâre not new. Youâve been here since the beginning, which makes you immune to the brunt of his stormy focus. Mostly.
âMorning,â he says finally, not looking up as he inspects a blade for sharpness.
âYou mean âgood morning, how are you, did you sleep well?ââ You lean against the prep counter with your arms crossed. âThatâs how normal people greet each other.â
He snorts, clearly unimpressed. âIf I wanted small talk, Iâd ask Jules. Did the flour delivery come in?â
âWow. Straight to business. My weekend must mean nothing to you.â You slide your phone across the counter so he can see the checklist youâve already made. âYes, it came in. Two sacks instead of three. I called the supplier already. Theyâre sending another one this afternoon.â
Yuki glances at the list, lips twitching in what might almost pass for a smile. âAnd the pistachios?â
âSafe and sound. Locked away from Lando, in case he gets bored and decides to experiment with nut-based cocktails again.â
âThat was one time,â Yuki exhales, lining up his knives like soldiers. He pauses, flicking a look your way. âYou remembered to order the hazelnut paste?â
âDo I look like someone who forgets the backbone of her own creations?â
âSometimes,â he says. But you catch the corner of his mouth fighting upward, and itâs enough to make your pulse skip. This is how it always is. Professional words with just enough bite to keep you on your toes. You can read the rhythm of his moods like sheet music, filling in the gaps with your own easy counterpoint.
âIâll start on the tarts once the ovens finish preheating,â you say, turning toward your workstation. âIf you behave, I might even let you have the first one.â
Yuki shakes his head, feigning exasperation as readjusts his chefâs jacket. âYou talk like I canât just take one.â
âYou could,â you concede, glancing at him over your shoulder, âbut then youâd miss the fun of me pretending you earned it.â
For a moment, his gaze lingers on you longer than it should, heavy enough that you feel it even without looking directly at him. Then he clears his throat and flips open his notebook. âInventory meeting in ten. Donât be late.â
âAs if I would ever,â you say, already pulling flour from the storeroom. Your hands move on autopilot, weighing, measuring, prepping for the day ahead. You and Yuki have done this dance so many times, itâs practically second nature. Two halves of the same rhythm, balancing each other without ever needing to speak it out loud.
By midmorning, Venti Due hums like a machine that knows its purpose. Orders arenât flying in yet, but prep is its own battlefield. Knives chop in rhythm, pans hiss and sputter, and the front-of-house polishes glasses with militant devotion. Itâs chaos, but choreographed chaos. You fall into the current without hesitation, sleeves rolled up, fingers dusted in flour before youâve even noticed.
You catch Oscar fumbling with a tray of wine glasses and Jules swooping in with the dramatics of a knight saving a maiden. George is muttering about pairings to no one in particular, while Lando is teaching himself how to juggle lemons when he thinks no oneâs looking. Alex keeps the kitchen calm, redirecting energy like itâs second nature. And Yukiâwell, Yuki commands it all with a glance. He doesnât raise his voice, doesnât need to. A sharp nod, a clipped word, and everyone falls into line.
You donât have the luxury of stopping to admire it. The pastries wonât prep themselves, and youâre elbow-deep in dough by the time the clock ticks toward noon. The ovens cycle batches with military precision, trays sliding in and out as you shape and fill with the ease of someone whoâs done this a thousand times. Your world shrinks down to sugar, butter, and the hum of timers.
By lunch, Alex slips away first, snagging a plate and scarfing it down with the kind of efficiency only a chef of his calibre can manage. Yuki takes his turn after, pausing just long enough to check on the line before disappearing toward the staff room. You wave him off when he gestures toward you. âIâll eat after this batch,â you insist, shaping another neat lattice over a tart.
You donât notice time slipping until the next batch cools and the savory scent of lunch is a faint memory in the air. Wiping your hands on your apron, you finally make your way toward the back, stomach growling in protest. The tray of staff meals is nearly empty, save for a few scraps of bread and what looks suspiciously like the last sad bite of salad. Alex shrugs apologetically from across the room.
âYouâve got to be kidding me,â you grumble, a little louder than you intend. âI slave away over butter and sugar, and this is the thanks I get?â
Before you can work yourself into a proper tirade, a plate slides into view under your nose. Perfectly portioned, still warm, and suspiciously untouched. You look up to find Yuki standing there, arms crossed, expression caught between exasperation and fondness. âI knew youâd do this,â he says simply, âso I saved one.â
You narrow your eyes, though the twist of relief in your chest betrays you. âWhat are you, my babysitter now?â
âMore like the only one here with common sense,â Yuki replies, pulling out a chair with his foot. âSit. Eat. Before you faint into a tray of ĂŠclairs and make me fire you.â
âIâd haunt this place,â you huff, but you sit anyway. The first bite is a revelation, your stomach sighing in gratitude. You peek up at him through your lashes. âYou know, some people might think this is sweet.â
Yuki shrugs, deadpan as ever. âSome people donât know you well enough.â
Itâs meant to be a jab, but the silence that follows is heavier than either of you expect. You break it first with a snort, nudging his hand as you reach for your fork again. âThanks, chef.â
His mouth twitches, the barest hint of a smile before he turns back toward the kitchen. âDonât make it a habit.â
The dayâs dinner service winds down with the steady rhythm of plates cleared and chairs stacked. The air is thick with the scent of garlic, wine, and the faint sweetness of the last tiramisu you sent out. You wipe down your station, fingers stiff but satisfied, and listen to the restaurant exhale after another day survived.
Yuki gathers the staff near the pass, arms crossed, expression sharp but not unkind. He does this every night. Quick notes, a pulse check on the team, a reminder that tomorrow demands just as much precision as today.
âService was clean,â he starts, scanning the group. âOscar, your pacing was better. Julesâdonât rearrange the cutlery mid-shift. It confuses the guests.â
Jules gasps like sheâs been personally insulted. âIt was art!â
âSave the art for your apartment,â Yuki replies, tone clipped. âGeorge, good pairing tonight. Lando, stop experimenting during service. Alex, solid work on the line.â
The feedback rolls out like clockwork, efficient and even. The crew listens, nods, takes it in. Despite his dry delivery, you can feel it. The respect humming beneath every word, the quiet trust that everyone here leans on. When Yuki speaks, people listen. Not because theyâre scared of him, but because heâs earned it.
Finally, his gaze lands on you. âPastries were consistent,â he says. âTiming was better too. Keep it up.â
Thereâs nothing in the words themselves, but the weight of his eyes lingers. You offer a small shrug, as if to say, of course they were.
âGod, just kiss already,â Lando mutters from the back, which earns him a snort from Jules and a scandalized look from George. Oscar, barely holding back laughter, pretends to check his phone.
Heat prickles your neck, but you roll your eyes and toss your towel at the bar. âDonât project your tragic love life onto us, Lando.â
âTragic? Please. Iâm thriving.â He sticks out his tongue at you before Yuki clears his throat, sharp enough to cut through the noise.
âFocus,â Yuki says simply. Just like that, the teasing dies down, the crew dispersing with the tired chatter of people whoâve given their all. Bags are slung over shoulders, goodbyes are murmured, and soon the restaurant quiets to its bones.
You linger at your station a moment longer, stacking trays with more care than necessary. Yuki moves past, close enough that his sleeve brushes yours. âIgnore them,â he says softly, not looking at you.
âWho says I care?â you reply, but the laugh in the back of your throat betrays you.
He doesnât press, doesnât tease. He only gives the smallest nod before heading toward the office. Youâre left with the ghost of his sleeve against yours, wondering why ignoring them feels impossible.
The next week at Venti Due settles into its rhythm: the clang of pans, the rise of voices calling for orders, the sweet hush of pastry cream thickening under your whisk. Between the noise and the chaos, you find yourself drifting. Thinking back to how it all started, how you ended up tethered to this kitchen and, somehow, to Yuki.
Culinary school feels like another lifetime now, all stainless steel counters and the sterile scent of bleach. Yuki had been the one student who managed to make a uniform look like armor, his sharp focus cutting through every room he walked into. Youâd first spoken during a class on fundamentals. Heâd been hunched over a cutting board, perfecting a julienne that looked like it had been measured with a ruler. Youâd leaned closer, deliberately dramatic. âGoing for worldâs straightest carrot sticks?â youâd teased.
He hadnât even glanced up. âSome of us care about precision.â
âAnd some of us care about not boring ourselves to death.â Youâd grinned, tossing him a piece of your unevenly chopped onion. âSee? Personality.â
Heâd finally looked at you then and said, âYour personality smells.â
It was the start of something neither of you had language for yet.
Between classes and late-night study sessions, you carved out a rhythm. Yuki was disciplined to the point of obsession, while you thrived in improvisation, especially once the curriculum turned to pastries. You remember the first time he tried one of your test tarts, biting into it with a seriousness that made your palms sweat. âNot too sweet,â heâd said eventually, and youâd laughed because coming from him, that was the highest form of praise.
One evening, you found him sitting alone in the library, textbooks sprawled around him, a notebook filled with scrawled ideas. âItameshi,â heâd said before you could even ask. âJapanese-Italian fusion. Not gimmicky, not watered down. Balanced. Something that respects both traditions.â
Youâd sat across from him, intrigued despite yourself. âThatâs oddly specific.â
Heâd leaned back, expression thoughtful. âItâs what I grew up with. Pasta with shoyu, miso in risotto. My mom didnât think about it as fusion. It was just⌠dinner. I want to take that and make it into something that belongs on a Michelin menu.â
Youâd nodded slowly, tucking that piece of him away. It explained the focus, the drive that sometimes looked like obsession. It wasnât just food to him. It was identity, stitched together by memory and taste.
âAnd you?â heâd asked then, catching you off guard. âWhat do you want?â
âA patisserie,â youâd answered after a moment of hesitation. âGlass display cases, rows of pastries, the smell of butter and sugar hitting people when they walk in. Something thatâs mine.â
Heâd given you a rare smile then, small but real. âSounds fitting.â
Graduation came faster than you expected. A blur of exams, sleepless nights, and too much caffeine. The ceremony itself felt like theater, everyone pretending not to care while secretly waiting for their names to be called. Yuki wore the cap and gown like he wore everything else: with a kind of reluctant irritation, as though the whole pageantry offended his sense of efficiency.
It was afterward, when the crowd thinned and the graduates dispersed to dinners and family celebrations, that he cornered you outside the hall. The sky was slipping toward dusk, a warm June evening wrapping the campus in gold. He stood there with his hands shoved into his pockets, expression unreadable, and for a second you thought he was going to comment on how crooked your cap sat.
Instead, he said, âBe my pastry chef.â
Your brows furrowed, wondering if you misheard. âExcuse me?â
âIâm opening a restaurant. Itameshi. You know what I want it to be.â His gaze locked on yours, steady and unflinching. âI want you there. Pastry chef.â
You laughed, nervous but amused. âYuki, that sounds like a proposal.â
âIt is,â he said flatly, his eyes crinkling as he broke out into a proper, toothy grin. âFor food. Not marriage.â
âYou really know how to sweep someone off their feet.â You had crossed your arms, tilting your head at him. âWhat makes you think Iâll say yes?â
âBecause you already said you want your own place. You wonât waste time at someone elseâs restaurant. Not unless it mattered.â
The words hit harder than you expected, like heâd been listening closer than you realized. You rolled your eyes to cover the way your chest tightened. âFine. But itâs temporary. Iâll help you launch, save up, and then Iâm gone. Patisserie, remember?â
He nodded once, solemn, like youâd struck a deal. âTemporary.â
You shook his hand, though it felt oddly ceremonial, and something inside you whispered that this was more binding than either of you admitted aloud.
That was four years ago.
Now, standing in Venti Dueâs kitchen with sugar under your nails and the hum of service in the background, you realize the word âtemporaryâ has stretched longer than you ever intended. Every day has carried the same steady gravity of that handshake. An agreement that was never just about work, no matter how hard you both pretended otherwise.
By closing time, the kitchen looks like it survived a small war. Pots stacked high, jam staining your apron, the faint smell of seared fish clinging to your hair. Youâre wiping down your station when Yuki approaches, holding out an envelope. âSalaryâs in your account,â he says, tone casual. âThis is extra. Tips.â
You glance at the wad of cash inside, instantly shoving it back toward him. âNo way. I donât need your charity fund.â
His eyebrow lifts, sharp and unimpressed. âItâs not charity. Itâs from the floor. Customers like desserts, apparently. Who knew.â
âShocking revelation.â You push the envelope across the counter again. âSplit it with the servers.â
âThey already got their share. This is yours. Take it.â He says it with the stubbornness of someone who will stand here all night until you cave. His arms are crossed now, a silent dare.
You sigh, snatching the envelope before he can start another speech. âFine. But if I blow it all on overpriced candles, thatâs on you.â
âSave it. Or donât. I donât care.âÂ
âThanks,â you add, quieter than intended. He doesnât reply, only nods and turns back to check on Alex, as if the conversation never happened.
Later that night, your apartment greets you with the quiet hum of the fridge and the faint creak of floorboards. You set the envelope on the counter, then reach for the Mason jars lined up in the cupboard. Their weight is familiar, each one filled with neatly rolled bills. Months, years of tip envelopes, savings, little sacrifices. The ritual of stacking them has always been your silent countdown to freedom. You pour the new bills into the jar marked with a strip of masking tape, the one labeled Someday. Itâs already full to the brim, crammed so tightly that the lid barely twists shut.
Hereâs the truth: you had enough last year.Â
Enough for the deposit on that storefront downtown, the one with big windows and a perfect corner for displaying cakes that would stop people in their tracks. Enough to hire staff, to design menus, to finally call something yours.
And yet youâre still here. Still showing up at Venti Due every morning, still brushing sugar from your clothes and trading barbs with Yuki across the kitchen. You tell yourself itâs practical. Safe. Sensible.
When you glance at the jar, heavy with possibility, you know itâs none of those things. Youâre still here for one reason only.Â
The weekend market is already buzzing when you and Yuki arrive, shoulder to shoulder in the lazy late-morning sun. Vendors are hawking their produce with theatrical gusto, baskets of tomatoes and eggplants gleaming under striped awnings. You tug your tote bag higher on your shoulder and try to look like this is just another errand, not some weirdly domestic ritual youâve fallen into with your best friend-slash-boss. âWhich one first?â Yuki asks, scanning the rows of stalls like heâs plotting a battle strategy.
âWhichever one isnât going to tempt you into buying another box of mushrooms we donât have fridge space for,â you shoot back.
His mouth curves upward. âThatâs very specific. Almost like it already happened.â
âIt did. Last month. You held them like a newborn.â
âThey were good mushrooms.â
You roll your eyes but follow him anyway, weaving through the crowd. Thereâs an ease to thisâhow you match each otherâs pace without thinking, how he hands you a sample of melon before even tasting it himself. The vendor grins at the exchange, as though the two of you are some couple straight out of a weekend slice-of-life film. You ignore the implication and bite into the melon, pretending the sweetness on your tongue is the only thing worth noticing. âThoughts?â Yuki asks, expectant.
âItâs good. Very⌠melon-y.â
âThatâs profound. Truly your culinary school tuition at work.â
You elbow him lightly, earning a laugh that draws a curious glance or two. He doesnât seem to care, and you pretend not to either. Later, while youâre considering a stack of strawberries, he appears at your side with skewers of yakitori, one already half-gone. He holds out the other without ceremony. âLunch.â
âYou just couldnât wait?â
âChefâs privilege.â His voice is light, but his eyes flicker with mischief as you take the skewer from his hand. You mutter a thanks around your first bite, trying not to acknowledge the fact that youâre sharing food in a way that feels intimate.
You keep telling yourself this isnât a date. Youâre here for produce, for scouting local vendors, for the sake of the restaurant. But then Yuki brushes a stray leaf off your shoulder without comment, and you wonder why the lie has to work so hard to convince you.
The market shifts sometime around noon, when the lazy sprawl of vendors and wandering locals turns into a slow-moving human tide. At first you think itâs just you getting bumped one too many times by an elbow or an overenthusiastic shopping bag, but then you notice Yukiâs face. That pinched look he wears when something irritates him but he hasnât decided if itâs worth a fight. Spoiler: nine times out of ten, it isnât.
He lingers closer than usual, not that youâre about to complain. His hand hovers once near the small of your back before he thinks better of it, retreating to the safety of his pockets. Instead he becomes a living barrier between you and the chaos of the crowd, always stepping a half second ahead of anyone who might jostle you. Heâs subtle about it, or at least he thinks he is. You can read him too well. âYou look like youâre about to start body-checking grandmas,â you tease, nudging his arm with your elbow. âRelax, Yuki. I can handle a market crowd.â
âDoesnât mean I have to like it,â he says. His eyes dart toward a group squeezing through the aisle, and his jaw ticks. âYouâre short, people donât see you. Easy to get pushed.â
Thereâs a warmth tucked in that blunt little statement, disguised as irritation. You let it hang in the air, unspoken, savoring it like the last bite of dessert. âFine,â you grin. âSince youâre obviously seconds away from picking a fight with a produce stand, why donât we bail? Early dinner?â
He exhales, relief hidden in the smallest curve of his mouth. âMy place. Closer than yours. And I donât want to carry all this stuff any farther.â
You arch a brow at the loaded grocery bags heâs holding in one hand, as if the weight of it is nothing but childâs play. âUh-huh. Definitely not because youâd rather control the menu.â
You head for his apartment, tucked right next to Venti Due. Convenient for the workaholic. Yukiâs place isnât new territory. By now, you can navigate it without even thinking. Keys tossed on the counter, shoes kicked by the door, sleeves already rolled to your elbows before Yukiâs even finished locking up. His place is small, but it feels lived-in. Warm. Familiar. The kind of space you drift into without ever needing to ask permission.
Youâre already in the kitchen before he joins you, pulling a pan from its usual spot. âYou do realize youâve tricked me into more cooking after a full week of baking, right?â you say, giving him a look over your shoulder.
Yuki shrugs, as if that explains everything. âIâm not tricking. You volunteered. Big difference.â
âUh-huh.â You set the pan on the stove, nudging him with your elbow when he crowds in beside you. âAnd what, exactly, did I volunteer for? Being your sous chef?â
He smirks, reaching for the garlic. âMore like my commis.â
You make a face. âExcuse me?â
âYou heard me.â He tosses you the knife like itâs a challenge. You catch it easily, slicing into the cloves with more precision than he probably expected. He leans just close enough to watch, and youâre tempted to say something biting, but the way heâs looking at youâquietly impressedâmakes you bite your tongue.
The rhythm comes easy, though. It always does with him. He stirs while you chop, you season while he tastes. The banter fills the cracks in the silence, steady as muscle memory. âSo,â you say, flicking a piece of garlic at him, âwhat are we calling this masterpiece? Chefâs special?â
âChefâs survival.â
âCatchy. Michelin will be begging.â
He laughs under his breath, and the sound sticks with you longer than it should. The apartment fills with the smell of browned garlic and olive oil, something simple and grounding. By the time pasta hits the pan, youâre both shoulder to shoulder, stealing tastes straight off each otherâs forks. Dinner ends up being just that. Two spoons, one pan, and no patience for plating. Yuki passes you a bite, and you take it without hesitation, like itâs nothing. Like it isnât something at all.
âYou know,â you say around a mouthful, âI think we might actually be good at this whole cooking thing.â
âFinally noticed?â He chuckles, stealing the spoon back. âTook you long enough.â
You roll your eyes, but you canât quite smother the smile that follows. Sitting at his tiny table, sharing dinner out of the pan, it feels too easy. Too natural. And maybe thatâs what makes it dangerous.
The bell above the cafĂŠ door jingles as the three of you step inside, the smell of espresso and roasted beans wrapping around you like a blanket. Jules makes a beeline for the counter, and Lando falls into step beside her, leaving you trailing with the quiet suspicion youâve just been set up. âSo,â Jules says with an innocence that fools no one, âYuki seemed in a good mood last night. Wonder why.â
Lando, ever the accomplice, smirks. âProbably has something to do with a certain pastry chef who practically lives at his side.â
You roll your eyes so hard itâs a miracle you donât sprain something. âWow. Stellar detective work. Truly groundbreaking analysis.â
Jules grins at you over her shoulder as she orders her usual oat latte. âCome on, you canât tell me you donât see it,â she insists. âYou two are practically married already.â
You shoot her a look. âIf weâre married, then I want half of Venti Due in the divorce.â
Lando nearly chokes on his laugh, stepping up to the counter to order. âThatâs the spirit,â he says offhandedly, âbut seriously. You should just date him. Itâd save us all the suspense.â
You lean against the counter, the perfect picture of unimpressed. âRight. Because what a restaurant really needs is its manager and pastry chef combusting over a messy breakup. Brilliant idea, ten out of ten,â you bite out.
They exchange a look, conspiratorial in its silence, and you know theyâre not about to drop it. You sip your coffee when it arrives and decide youâve had enough. âYou know what,â you say, your voice syrupy sweet, âI think you two should date. Jules, Landoâmatch made in heaven.â
That does it. Lando goes red immediately, fumbling with the sugar packets like theyâre suddenly the most fascinating things in the world. Jules sputters mid-sip, coughing into her sleeve, eyes wide with something close to shame. You grin, mischievous, basking in the chaos. âSee? Works every time.â
The walk back is blissfully quiet, the two of them still awkwardly avoiding each otherâs eyes. You sip your coffee triumphantly, knowing youâve just secured yourself at least a weekâs reprieve from their meddling.
The coffee run conspirators are barely out of earshot when Yuki finds you back at the counter, sleeves rolled up again like the morning never ended. He raises an eyebrow, the kind of silent reprimand youâve come to know far too well. âYou could at least pretend to rest when you leave the building,â he says, not looking at you as he straightens a tray of glasses.
âRest? Never heard of her,â you reply, grabbing a towel for no reason other than to look busy.
He shakes his head, but the corner of his mouth betrays him. âOne day youâll thank me for trying to keep you alive.â
âOr curse you when I die of boredom,â you shoot back, and he laughs. Soft but warm, the kind that lingers longer than it should.
You let that moment slip past, choosing instead to busy yourself until Georgeâs bark of laughter cuts through the room. Heâs standing with Alex by the espresso machine, both of them suspiciously smug. You narrow your eyes just in time to see Alex slip a bill into Georgeâs waiting hand. âReally?â you say, marching over. âPlease tell me youâre not gambling on how long it takes for me to sass Yuki back.â
âNot exactly,â George says, unbothered as he tucks the money into his pocket. âBut you two make it too easy.â
Alex shrugs, grin breaking across his face. âItâs good money. Donât take it personally.â
âDonât take it personally?â you repeat, scandalized. âYouâre making a profit off my tragic, very professional, completely platonic working relationship?â
âProfessional,â George repeats, and Alex snorts like that wordâs the funniest punchline heâs heard all week.
You swivel to the nearest sane person: Oscar, nursing a mug of black coffee. âTell me youâre not a part of this.â
He shakes his head, calm as ever. âNope. I donât bet.â
âThank you.â
âBut,â he adds, âif I had to calculate it, Iâd say the odds of you and Yuki ending up together hover around⌠eighty-one percent? Maybe higher if you count the market trips. Those skew the data.â
You gape at him. âYouâre supposed to be my ally.â
âI am,â he says. âIâm just being scientific.â
George and Alex are wheezing now, delighted by your misery. You throw your hands up. âUnbelievable. Iâm surrounded by degenerates.â
With that, you storm off, exasperation trailing behind you like the aroma of coffee grounds. Strong, bitter, and impossible to shake. The shift winds down in its usual rhythm, the clang of pots fading into the background as Yuki does his end-of-day ritual. He moves through the kitchen, giving nods, comments, and the occasional dry joke that has everyone smiling despite their exhaustion. Thereâs something about the way the crew listens when he talks. Not stiff, not fearful, but attentive, like theyâd follow him into battle if the battlefield were lined with stovetops and prep counters.
You hang back, waiting for your moment. All day, people have been throwing you into the ring, teasing you about him like itâs a group sport. Youâve deflected, joked, even tried to flip it back on them. Now, you plan to sneak in a jab of your own, something light, something that will finally even the score. When the last of the staff filters out, you sidle closer. âBig day for me,â you say, leaning against the counter. âApparently Iâm starring in a rom-com I didnât audition for. Thought youâd like to congratulate me on my lead role.â
Yuki huffs a laugh, one hand tucking into the pocket of his apron. âYouâre good at improvising. Youâll win Best Actress, no contest.â
You open your mouth to volley back, but then he adds, almost too casually, âSpeaking of⌠I should get going. I have a blind date tonight.â
The words clatter to the floor between you, louder than the pans ever were. Your brain scrambles, reaching for something witty, something sharp. All you manage is a smile that feels too thin around the edges. âWow,â you say, and your voice sounds a little too bright even to your own ears. âSomeoneâs adventurous.â
He shrugs, like itâs nothing. âItâs just dinner with a friend of a friend. Who knows, right?â
You nod, even though you want to shake your head until the whole idea falls out of the universe. âRight. Who knows.â
He gives you a small, easy smile before grabbing his things. âDonât wait up.â
In the next moment, heâs goneâslipping out the back door, leaving you with the hum of the refrigerators and the hollow thump of your own heartbeat. You stay a moment longer than you should, staring at the empty space where he stood, then finally grab your bag and head out into the night.
You make a valiant attempt at salvaging the night, like it isnât already slightly soured. Distraction is the name of the game: cleaning out the fridge, reorganizing your spice rack (alphabetical, then rearranged back to the order you actually use them in), watching half an episode of some cooking competition before realizing every contestant is making you think of Yuki anyway. You groan, flop dramatically on your couch, and eventually drag yourself to bed.
Your phone buzzes just as youâre about to fall asleep. Itâs a text from Yuki. A TikTok link.Â
Itâs a video of a cat swatting flour off a counter while the baker screams in horror. You snort so hard you have to clutch your chest. The fact that he thought of youâyour flour-covered apron, your tendency to leave powdered sugar handprints everywhereâhits a little too close.
You reply with: That cat has better technique than you.
He answers quicker than you expect: Bold words from someone who once dropped an entire bag of cocoa powder on the floor.
You grin at your phone in the dark, but your thumbs hesitate before typing. Finally, you cave: So⌠how was the date?
Three dots appear, vanish, reappear. Then his reply comes, simple. There wonât be a second date.Â
Your stomach does a traitorous little flip. You squeeze your pillow and type back: Their loss.
His reply is slower this time, but it still arrives. Good night.
You stare at the screen longer than necessary, smiling despite yourself. Then, you type the words you mean and donât mean all at once: Dream of me, Yukino.
I always do, comes his easy response, and you hold your phone to your chest as you feel the thump, thump, thump of your heart.
Chaos is not new to Venti Due, but today it feels like the world is testing how much caffeine-fueled patience one restaurant can hold. Orders are stacking faster than the ticket machine can spit them out, Alex looks one second away from throwing a pan, and Yukiâs temper is sparking like a gas stove with faulty wiring. You try to keep the rhythm, weaving between stations with that too-bright smile you wear when everythingâs going to hell. âTable six says theyâve been waiting thirty minutes,â you announce, voice sugar-sweet, as if sugar could soften the blow.
âTell them itâll be thirty-one,â Yuki snaps, slamming a pan onto the burner. The clang echoes through the kitchen, and Alex mutters something sharp under his breath. Yuki hears it, of course. He always does.
âSay that louder, Albon,â Yuki challenges, eyes flicking up like knives. âTo my fucking face.â
You slide between them, spatula in hand like itâs a peace offering. âOkay, gladiators, how about no one throws cookware today? Pots are expensive.â Your grin wobbles at the edges, but you keep it in place. Comic relief is your best weapon, even when youâre dying inside.
Alex scoffs, tossing chopped herbs with more force than necessary. âTell your boyfriend to chill, then.â
Heat climbs up your neck, not just from the stoves. âHeâs not my boyfriend. And he is very chill. Heâs the definition of chill. Like a freezer.â
Yuki slants you a look thatâs anything but chill, though his lips twitch like he almost wants to laugh. Almost. The kitchen keeps roaring, plates keep flying, and you keep tightrope-walking between Alexâs sarcasm and Yukiâs sharpness, pretending your heart isnât racing for reasons that have nothing to do with service.
Oscar and Jules call in almost at the same time, their voices overlapping through the kitchen phone. You catch fragmentsââtable six wants their third refill five minutes ago,â âguy at four is snapping his fingers,â âif one more person says âextra crispyâ Iâll lose it.â Lovely soundtrack for a Friday night.
Yuki looks like heâs two seconds from ripping the apron off and walking out. His jawâs set, his shoulders wound tight. You can practically hear the steam whistling from his ears. You know that look. You also know the last thing this kitchen needs is Mount Yuki erupting all over the line.
You step in, hand pressing lightly to the small of his back. A tether, a nudge. âGeorge, pour some free wine, make it look like weâre generous saints,â you start.Â
Alex picks up what youâre putting down. Heâs already yelling for Lando to bring out his shaker like itâs a weapon. âWhip up a couple of your science project cocktails,â Alex hollers. âIf the drinks are colorful enough, maybe the customers will forget their existential despair.â
Itâs not exactly Michelin-star crisis management, but it works. The edge in the air dulls. You feel Yuki breathe out beside you, his shoulders loosening. His hand finds yours, quick, almost stealthy, a squeeze hidden between moments. By the time anyone looks your way, heâs already back to pretending heâs unflappable, barking new orders like nothing happened.
You, of course, are left with your heart pounding harder than it has any right to during a dinner rush.
The aftermath of the shift looks like war survivors slumped against barstools. George has his head tilted back, eyes closed as if heâs auditioning for a Renaissance painting. Jules is counting tips with the air of someone too tired to do math, mouthing numbers like they might bite her if she miscounts. Alex is sprawled over two chairs, dramatically near death, while Oscar taps away on his phone with the clinical detachment of someone who has already emotionally detached from the evening.
Everyone is waiting for the inevitable. Yuki is still standing, arms crossed, expression unreadable as he surveys the wreckage. Normally this is the part where he dissects every misstep, precision-knife sharp. You brace for it too, already preparing your counterarguments and deflections. Instead, he sighs. âGood work tonight, everyone.â
The silence that follows is so loud it could count as a new kind of noise pollution. Yuki continues, voice softer. âIt was rough, but you all handled it. I know I was short-tempered. Alex, I shouldnât have snapped at you. Iâm sorry.â
Alex blinks as if someone just offered him free real estate. âYouâre⌠apologizing? To me?â
âDonât make me take it back,â Yuki says flatly, but thereâs no heat in it.
A ripple of muffled laughter moves through the room. The tension lightens, shoulders drop. Yuki turns to you. His eyes linger, steady. âAnd you. I donât know what I wouldâve done without you tonight.â
Cue the chorus of ooooooohs from the peanut gallery. George clutches his chest like heâs about to swoon. Jules mutters, âWhenâs the wedding?â
You roll your eyes and wave them off, forcing breeziness into your tone. âDonât be dramatic. Yuki did great tonight.â You look at him deliberately, keeping it light but meaning it more than you should. âSeriously. You kept us all together, chef.â
For a moment, Yuki holds your gaze like he knows exactly what you mean, like he can hear all the words you donât say. But then he clears his throat, turning back to the group, already moving on. The tips of his ears are a little red.
The spray of the sink is too loud, the plates too slick, and the kitchen too cramped to be having this conversation. Which is exactly why youâre having it now, with Oscar. Poor Oscar, elbows deep in soap suds, eyes wide like he can sense danger coming.
âI swear, heâs impossible,â you grunt, scrubbing at a plate like it personally wronged you. âEveryone else can see it. George, Alex, Jules, even Lando, and he barely notices anything. But Yuki? Nothing. Not even a flicker. How do you miss someone literally spelling it out for you with neon lights?â
Oscar clears his throat. âI donât think anyone here is using neon lights.â
You flick suds at him. âYou know what I mean. Heâs oblivious. Painfully oblivious. Like, should I start carrying around a banner? Hire a skywriter?â
Oscar fumbles with a glass, nearly dropping it, and you swoop in to take it before disaster. He looks grateful, then immediately regretful that this means youâre still glaring at him. âYou could just tell him?â he offers, voice small, like he knows itâs the worst possible suggestion.
âBrilliant. Revolutionary. Why didnât I think of that?â
He winces. âRight. Sorry.â
âIâm serious, though,â you sigh. âHow do you even tell someone like him? Heâs either going to laugh it off or think Iâm joking. He never takes me seriously unless Iâm yelling about oven temperatures.â
Oscar gives you a long, awkward blink, as if calculating whether itâs safer to keep quiet or offer more useless wisdom. âMaybe⌠yell about this, then?â
You throw your dish towel at his head. âYouâre no help.â
He grins, half apologetic, half relieved youâre teasing again. âDidnât think I would be.â
The dish pit is still warm with steam when you and Oscar finish the last stack of plates. Your hands smell faintly of lemon soap and regret, though mostly the soap. Oscar is drying the last tray of glasses with all the care of someone performing delicate surgery, which makes it an easy moment for him to look at you sidelong.
When you move to leave, tugging your apron off, Oscar catches you just before the door. His voice is casual, but it lands with a strange weight. âYou know, youâre pretty oblivious yourself.â
You turn, brows pulling together. âOblivious about what?â
He just shrugs, retreating back to stack the glasses. âFigure it out.â
The words scratch at the back of your mind all the way into the night, but they donât get far. Because as soon as youâre free, your phone buzzes with a message from Yuki: Dinner? My treat.
Oscarâs warning evaporates like steam in the dish pit. You donât hesitate. Sure.
Yuki is already waiting on the sidewalk when you show up, still in your work clothes and very aware that you smell faintly like fryer oil and espresso. You throw your arms out dramatically, as if youâre presenting evidence at a trial. âI didnât even have time to freshen up,â you announce. âIâm a walking PSA for why service industry workers need hazard pay.â
Yuki just shrugs, easy grin sliding onto his face. âYou always look pretty.â
Thatâs it. Like itâs nothing. Like he hasnât just lobbed a grenade straight into your ribcage. You do the only logical thing and roll your eyes, pretending the heat in your cheeks is from the streetlights. âPretty tragic, maybe,â you mutter, but Yukiâs already walking ahead, hands shoved in his pockets, like heâs perfectly pleased with himself.
The two of you gravitate toward one of the food trucks parked down the block, another one of those rituals youâve fallen into without ever actually planning it. After nights at Venti Due, when the air inside feels too tight and the noise clings to your skin, you both need the antidote. Greasy paper plates, cheap plastic stools, food that drips down your fingers. Itâs become its own tradition, like a sort of rebellion against the polished chaos you both live in during shifts.
You sit side by side on stools that wobble dangerously if you breathe too hard, elbows brushing as you dig into whatever fried concoction youâve ordered this time. Yuki nudges his shoulder into yours as he chews, expression sly. âThis is balance, right? Five-star kitchen by day, suspicious street meat by night.â
You point your fork at him. âSuspicious? Please,â you tease. âThis is haute cuisine compared to the stuff I eat when youâre not around.â
He laughs, head tilting back, and the sound pulls something warm through your chest. The street hums around youâpassing cars, the hiss of the grill inside the truck, the faint buzz of a neon sign overheadâbut it all fades when Yuki looks at you again, still smiling like he knows something you donât. Or maybe like he does, and heâs waiting for you to catch up.
Tonight, Yuki actually going front-of-house to greet guests himself. No clipped instructions to Jules, no waving you over. Heâs personally out there, polite smile and all, which can only mean these guests are the kind of people that matter. You lean toward George, eyes following the scene like itâs prime-time television. âAlright, ten bucks says itâs a Michelin inspector.â
George smirks, polishing a wine glass he has no intention of using. âFifteen says itâs his secret girlfriend,â he says, and you try to ignore the twang in your chest.
âTwenty says youâre both wrong,â Lando chimes, âand itâs just some old man who taught him how to cook noodles.â
Before George can counter, Yuki turns, spotting you. âCome here,â he calls, casual but with the edge of someone about to put you on the spot.
You shoot George a look that says pay up before heading over. When you get there, you freeze in your tracks. Pierre Gasly and Isack Hadjar. Head chef and sous chef of Alpha Tauri, one of those French bistros that food magazines worship like a minor deity. Theyâre sitting at one of Venti Dueâs cramped tables like itâs the most normal thing in the world.
âUh,â you manage, because your brain is still buffering. âHi.â
Yuki, apparently thrilled to be the cause of your speech malfunction, gestures between you. âThese are my friends. Pierre, Isack. This isâwell, this is who keeps this place from falling apart.â
âFlattering,â you exhale, before catching Pierreâs grin. He looks exactly like the kind of guy who would charm his way through both a dinner service and a black-tie gala. Isack, quieter, has the sharp eyes of someone cataloguing everything in the room.
âAh, so you are the famous right hand,â Pierre says smoothly, his accent making it sound even more like a compliment.
âFamous for what, exactly?â you ask, because sarcasm is easier than admitting your ears are warm.
âPutting up with Yuki,â Isack deadpans, which earns an actual laugh from Yuki and nearly makes you choke.
Isack and Pierre donât just order like regular customers. They order like men on a mission. No glancing at menus, no awkward pauses. Just a quick exchange in Frenchâone you donât need to understand to recognize as fluent culinary shorthandâbefore Pierre rattles off their requests.
Itâs not the safe pasta route or a token pizza either. No, these two go straight for desserts, as if they came here with a purpose. Cannoli with a yuzu mascarpone filling. Matcha tiramisu layered with delicate ladyfingers soaked in sake instead of espresso. A chestnut mont blanc with candied ginger woven into its spiral. Even a semifreddo that borrows from kakigĹri, shaved ice folded into the cream and studded with shards of caramelized sesame.
You jot it all down, already picturing the chaos this order is about to cause in the kitchen. Dessert-first people are a different breed. When you step back through the kitchen doors, you brace yourself. You pass the ticket along with the kind of caution reserved for live grenades. To your surprise, nobody panics. Lando perks up, muttering something about having wanted an excuse to torch meringue anyway. Alex groans, but you know heâll secretly enjoy the challenge.
And Yuki. Yuki tries very hard not to look smug as he passes through the kitchen, glancing at the ticket and then at you. His face is the picture of composure, but you know him well enough to see itâthe proud little tilt of his chin, the quick dart of his eyes toward you like heâs saying, See? They trust you. They trust us.
You ignore him, or at least you pretend to, focusing instead on plating. The tiramisu layers neatly. The cannoli shells crackle when you pipe in the filling. Each dish hits the pass like punctuation marks in a sentence you didnât realize you were writing until now.
When you finally carry them out, Isack and Pierre are waiting, watching like hawks. They murmur their approval before forks even touch plates. For a moment, you let yourself enjoy it. Because maybe, just maybe, youâre starting to see why Yuki looks so proud.
After the sweetest hour of their life, the Frenchmenâs plates are cleared and their wine glasses sit half-full. Isack leans back with a satisfied sigh. âWe want to compliment the pastry chef,â he declares, pronouncing it like itâs the most obvious thing in the world.
You glance at Yuki, half-expecting him to wave you off and take the credit himself, but he doesnât. Instead, he flicks his eyes toward you with the faintest smile, almost as if to say, go on then. You do, your apron still dusted with sugar, sweat threading through the eggshell white of your jacket.
Isack greets you first, his grin boyish and enthusiastic. âThose desserts were brilliant. Clean, balanced, but playful. The panna cotta? It tasted magnifique.â
Pierre nods in agreement, sharper in his delivery but no less genuine. âYouâve got a strong hand. That miso tiramisu was clever without trying too hard. You should be proud.â
You mumble a thank you, cheeks hot, and when the tip comes itâs far too generous to brush off as a gesture of politeness. You try to slide it back discreetly, but Isack just waves you off, already standing to bid Yuki good night.Â
Pierre lingers a moment longer. He studies you the way chefs do when theyâve spotted talent they donât want to miss. âListen,â he says, lowering his voice. âMy pastry chef left two weeks ago. I need someone sharp, inventive. Someone like you.â
You gape, caught off guard, but Pierre presses on. âI know youâre loyal to Yuki. But Alpha Tauri pays better, and I can open doors for you. Connections, stages in Paris, maybe more.â He slides a small card across the table, his name embossed, the number beneath it neat and exact. Pierre Gasly, Head Chef of Alpha Tauri. âThink about it.â
With a final nod, he tucks his hands into his coat pockets and heads off to join Isack. The card is still warm in your palm when you head back toward the kitchen, rehearsing excuses youâll never have to use. Except Yukiâs waiting, leaned against the doorframe like heâs been there the whole time, eyes sharper than usual.
âWhat did Pierre want?â he asks casually, which is how you know heâs not being casual at all.
You blink too quickly. âNothing. Just⌠you know. French people talk a lot.â
Yuki raises a brow. âTalk a lot, or flirt a lot?â
Your laugh comes out too high-pitched, too guilty, and you instantly want to sink into the nearest stockpot. âDonât be ridiculous. He was justââ You wave a vague hand, failing to find a word less incriminating than âoffering me a job.â
âSo he did try to ask you out.â
The fact that he says it like a joke makes it worse. Your laugh doubles down, nervous and unconvincing. Yuki narrows his eyes, clearly clocking every octave of panic in your voice. Heâs not a jealous type, not really, but heâs also not great at hiding it when it slips out. Right now, itâs all over him, disguised poorly as humor.
âRelax,â you say hastily, brushing past him with an overdone roll of your eyes. âNo oneâs asking me out, okay? Youâre imagining things.â
Still, the weight of Pierreâs card in your apron pocket is impossible to ignore. Instead of tossing it in the trash like you should, you slide it deeper, tucking it away where Yuki canât see.Â
Youâve known from the start that Pierreâs offer would always be a no.Â
Not because it isnât temptingâbetter pay, prestige, connections most chefs would sell their knives forâbut because you already decided your next step wouldnât be working under someone elseâs name. It would be your own place, your own kitchen. The thought is terrifying, but itâs yours. So Pierreâs generous card burns in your pocket, not with possibility, but with a strange sort of ache. The ache isnât about Alpha Tauri at all. Itâs about Venti Due, and how, no matter how many times you swear youâll eventually move on, you canât seem to imagine leaving it. Leaving Yuki. Thatâs the part you donât say out loud.
You spiral instead, eyes glazed as you plate tiramisu for table six, your thoughts chewing themselves into knots. You barely hear George asking if youâve gone deaf. You barely register Jules dropping an empty wine glass into the sink. Itâs like everythingâs muffled, until Yukiâs voice cuts through the fog. âYouâre distracted.â He says it like an accusation, sharp enough to slice through your reverie. His brow furrows as he studies you, like youâve been caught cheating on a test.
You manage a laugh, which comes off as shaky and thin. âJust tired. Itâs fine.â
âIt doesnât look fine.â Yuki wipes his hands on a towel, stepping closer, his gaze stubbornly locked on you. Heâs trying to read you, as if peeling back layers with his eyes alone.
You shrug, picking up another plate, anything to avoid the weight of his stare. âReally. Nothingâs wrong.â
He doesnât buy it, not for a second. You can tell by the look on his face. The silence stretches, taut and uncomfortable, until he finally exhales and mutters, âIf you say so.â
You keep your eyes on the desserts, but you feel him still there, hovering, unwilling to leave you to whatever storm youâve walked into. Itâs why the sting hits before you even realize what youâve done. Your hand makes contact with the oven door, and the heat bites instantly. You curse loud enough to make the whole kitchen snap their heads toward you. Yuki is back at your side in seconds, rattling off a string of reprimands in Japanese and English like youâve personally offended every kitchen safety rule in existence.
âYouâre unbelievable,â he says, snatching your wrist up before you can cradle it against your chest. âHow many times have I told you toââ
âI know, I know!â you cut him off, wincing as the burn throbs. âI was distracted, okay?â
âDistracted,â he repeats, unimpressed. âYou could have lost your hand.â
âPretty sure I still have it,â you say, trying for humor, though your voice shakes just enough to betray you. The corners of your eyes sting, and you bite down hard on the inside of your cheek.
Yuki catches it immediately. Heâs quiet for a beat, just studying your face, before his shoulders drop in a heavy sigh. The lecture dies on his tongue. Without another word, he tugs you toward the back, past the prep stations, and swings open the heavy metal door of the walk-in freezer. The cold rush of air hits you like a wall, prickling your skin, but heâs already pulling you inside.
âHere,â he says simply, guiding your injured hand toward a shelf stacked with frozen containers. He presses the burn gently against the icy surface, holding it there with his own hand covering yours. The temperature bites, but itâs a welcome relief compared to the searing heat from minutes ago.
For a long moment, itâs just the two of you standing in the blue-white hum of the freezer, his fingers brushing against yours as he steadies your hand. His breath fogs in the chill, and you can feel his warmth even in the cold. âYou scare me when you do stuff like this,â Yuki admits quietly, his usual sharpness dulled to something softer. You look up at him, ready with another joke to lighten the mood, but the way heâs watching you makes the words stick in your throat.
The freezer hums around you, cold air rolling over your skin as you press your burned hand against the icy metal shelf. Yukiâs brow is furrowed, and though heâs still muttering under his breath about how reckless you are, his eyes keep flicking to your face like heâs waiting for you to break again.
âSeriously, whatâs going on with you?â he asks, softer this time. âYouâve been somewhere else all night.â
âLike I said, Iâm just tired,â you say with a shake of your head.
âLiar.â He says it plainly, no bite, just fact. He crosses his arms, resting his weight against the shelf stacked with tubs of gelato. âYou think I donât notice when youâre lying? You think I donât notice anything?â
Your silence only makes him sigh. His shoulders drop, and when he looks at you again, thereâs something raw in his expression.Â
âDonât go,â he says.Â
That catches you off guard. âWhat?â
âDonât go,â he repeats, firmer now, though his voice trembles at the edges. âDonât⌠donât date Pierre. Donât move to Alpha Tauri. Donât leave Venti Due.â
The words stick in your throat. You want to remind him of the truthâthat your dream has never been someone elseâs kitchen, that itâs always been your own patisserie. That Pierreâs offer doesnât matter because your loyalty was never up for sale. You open your mouth to say all of it.
But then Yuki takes a step closer. His hands hover like he doesnât know what to do with them, like touching you will make everything collapse, but his voice breaks when he whispers, âDonât leave me.â
Thatâs what undoes you. Because the way he says it, it isnât about work, or restaurants, or loyalty. Itâs about him. About the late nights and food trucks and the way he always looks for you in a crowded kitchen. About every joke and fight and moment thatâs been stacking up between you like bricks to a house you didnât realize you were building.
Before you can get a word out, his resolve cracks completely. Yuki leans in, quick and desperate, and his mouth finds yours in the cold of the freezer, his kiss tasting like salt and nerves. You donât immediately reciprocate, your brain blanking at the feel of finally getting what youâve always wanted. Â
Yuki pulls back just slightly, his forehead brushing yours. His breath ghosts against your lips, uneven, and his eyes flick down to your mouth like heâs caught himself in some kind of crime. For once, he looks nervousâalmost shy, like heâs already regretting how impulsive he was. The great Yuki Tsunoda, who can breeze through a dinner service without breaking a sweat, suddenly looks like he might crumble under the weight of his own feelings.
Before he can take it back, before he can wrap his walls back up around himself, you lean in, kissing him harder, catching him before he even thinks of retreat.Â
He makes a startled sound in the back of his throat, a half-surprised, half-helpless noise, and then heâs melting into you, his shoulders dropping like heâs been holding tension for years. His hands hover awkwardly before finally finding their way to your waist, fingertips pressing lightly as if afraid you might vanish if he holds on too tightly. The kiss stretches, breaks for a breath, then finds its rhythm again.Â
In between breaths, in between the brush of his lips over yours, he murmurs, voice ragged and unguarded, âIâve wanted to do this for so long.â The honesty in it hits you harder than the kiss itself.
You laugh against his mouth, playful even as your pulse threatens to sprint out of your chest. âThen youâd better make up for lost time.â Your words spark something in him, teasing a spark into flame.
Itâs like lighting a fuse. He kisses you again, firmer this time, urgency curling at the edges, no hesitation left. Thereâs a shiftâsomething determined, something fierceâlike heâs trying to prove he means every word, every unspoken thought heâs ever swallowed around you. His thumb strokes the side of your waist, almost absent, almost reverent, and he leans into you as if heâs finally decided this is real, and heâs not about to waste another second.
The cold air of the freezer doesnât stand a chance against the heat rising between you. The clink of metal shelves and trill of the fan fade into background noise, unimportant, irrelevant. All you can feel is him, close enough that the world seems narrowed to this exact point in space, this kiss, this gravity. For the first time all night, youâre not thinking about burns, or job offers, or all the ways you keep talking yourself into staying at Venti Due.
Right now, thereâs only him, and the terrifying, thrilling realization that everything is about to change.
Itâs Monday morning, and the first thing you register is that this isnât your ceiling. You blink at the unfamiliar cracks, the faint water stain that kind of resembles a turtle, and the sudden realization hits: youâre not at your place. Youâre at Yukiâs.
The second thing you register is the solid weight beside you, the rise and fall of his breathing. Heâs still asleep, hair mussed, lips parted in the kind of slack, unguarded way that makes you grin like an idiot. The third thingâyour feet are freezing, and you know exactly what to do about that. You wiggle closer under the covers and press your icy toes against his shins. Predictably, he jolts, groaning like youâve just personally betrayed him.Â
âWhy are you like this?â His voice is rough with sleep, muffled into the pillow.
âBecause itâs effective,â you reply, unapologetic as you burrow into his warmth. âHuman hot water bottle. Donât complain.â
He cracks one eye open, glaring in the most halfhearted way possible. âYouâre evil.â
âAnd youâre still letting me stay here,â you counter, tracing lazy circles on his chest as if that proves your point. âSo, really, whoâs the idiot?â
For a second, it seems like heâll just roll over and go back to sleep. Instead, Yuki shifts, catching you completely off guard as he flips you onto your back with a speed that makes you squeal and laugh all at once.
âWaitââ you start, but heâs already grinning, playful as ever in the low morning light. âYou asked for this,â he says simply, and then he disappears beneath the covers.
Your laughter pitches higher, mixing with a breathless kind of disbelief as you grab at the sheets, your toes curling now for a very different reason.Â
The smell of coffee fills the kitchen before youâve even pulled yourself together enough to stand. Yukiâs already moving around, grinding beans, flicking the switch, pouring milk. He doesnât ask how you take yours; he just sets the cup down in front of you the way you like it, like heâs been keeping track all along. You try not to look too pleased about it, but he catches the gleam in your eye anyway.
âDonât,â he warns, though itâs half-asleep and half-affectionate, the kind of voice that tells you heâs already lost whatever argument youâre about to start.
You sip the coffee, burn your tongue a little, and grin through it. âI should probably swing by my place, grab clothes, you know,â you say instead of teasing him. âJust to avoid looking like a scandal walking into work.â
His frown is subtle but obvious. âWhy? You can just wear what you have.â
âRight, because showing up in the same outfit as last night isnât suspicious at all.â You tap his cup with yours like youâre toasting him for being so ridiculous. âLet me grab something fresh, then Iâll come back. Itâs a quick pitstop.â
He sighs like youâve just told him youâre moving continents. âYou can only be ten minutes late. No more than that.â
You lean over and kiss his cheek, lingering just long enough to watch the tips of his ears turn red. âIâll take that as girlfriend privilege,â you half-joke.Â
The word hangs in the air, light and heavy all at once. You donât miss the way his eyes dart to yours, startled before settling into something softer. He tries to hide it by taking a very long sip of his coffee, but you see it. The flush that spreads up his neck, the smile he canât quite hide.
It might be your new favorite way to start a Monday.
The moment you step into Venti Due, the weight of the kitchen settles on your shoulders the same way it always has. The gleam of pans, the rush of prep, the scent of yeast and sugar all return you to familiar ground. Professional. Focused. The kind of atmosphere where thereâs no room for slip-ups, especially not the kind that involves stolen kisses and warm glances across stainless steel counters.
You and Yuki made the unspoken agreement clear last night, punctuated with a nod and the brush of his knuckles against yours before he unlocked his front door. Donât tell the others yet. Donât make this into a thing. Keep it quiet.
When you pass him in the kitchen this morning, itâs nothing more than a muttered âMorningâ and an acknowledging tilt of his chin. Heâs every inch the head chef, doling out orders with clipped precision, demanding sauces be reduced faster, knives sharper, plating tighter. Youâre every inch his pastry chef, shoulders squared as you pipe cream with steady hands, pretending your chest isnât buzzing with the memory of his mouth on yours.Â
There are the moments in between. The way he adjusts the oven timer behind you when he doesnât need to, close enough that his hip briefly presses against yours. The way your hand lingers an extra second when you pass him a spoon for tasting. The barely-there smile that flickers across his face before he turns to yell at someone else. No one notices, or maybe they do and theyâre too busy to care.
And then thereâs the freezer.
You both slip in under the guise of checking stock, of making sure the deliveries match the invoices. Inside, itâs a hush of chilly air and dim light, the hum of machinery wrapping around you like a secret. He presses his forehead to yours, hands skimming your waist.Â
âIâve got ĂŠclairs setting,â you whine, âand youâve got steaks searing.âÂ
âDonât care,â he breathes, lips cold from the air as he kisses you deeply.Â
By the time you both step back out, itâs like nothing happened. The thread of something softer pulls under every clipped instruction, every quiet acknowledgment. Professional. Focused. But different now. Different in a way you canât hide from yourself, even if you can from everyone else.
The market looks exactly the same as every Saturday. Stalls lined with crates of tomatoes that still smell of vines, herbs piled high in baskets, the air thick with the mingling scent of bread, flowers, and espresso. But you notice how different it feels with Yukiâs hand looped through yours. Itâs casual, almost lazy, the way his thumb rubs the back of your hand as if heâs not even aware heâs doing it. Spoiler: heâs definitely aware.
You pause at the usual olive oil stand, and the vendor offers up tiny wooden spoons dipped in golden green. You lift yours to your lips, and Yuki leans in behind you, bracing his chin against your shoulder so he can taste off the same spoon. âYouâre just stealing my sample,â you protest, laughing.
âIt tastes better when itâs yours,â he says, lips brushing too close to your skin for you to take it as anything but intentional.
At the cheese stand, he hovers closer than usual, one hand resting at the small of your back as if someoneâs about to bump into you every other second. When you roll your eyes at his overprotectiveness, he murmurs, âCrowded. Donât want to lose you.â
The sourdough stall is the last stop. The vendor, whoâs been watching you two banter for years, smiles knowingly. âFinally together, huh? Took you long enough.â Before you can respond, she pushes two warm loaves toward you. âOn the house. Congratulations.â
Yuki flushes bright red and mumbles something under his breath in Japanese you canât quite catch. You thank her quickly, clutching the loaves to your chest, and turn to him with a grin. âGuess itâs obvious.â
He groans, trying to hide his face behind the bread bag. âWe should have told her ourselves.â
âToo late. Weâve been exposed.â You lean closer, bumping your shoulder against his. âAt least we get free carbs out of it.â
That makes him laugh, finally looking back at you. The sound is delicate, unguarded, and it carries in the crisp morning air. He squeezes your hand, voice quiet but certain. âWorth it.â
Youâre midâbite of a pastry sample when Yuki makes some comment that has you laughing too loud, the kind of sound that makes a few heads turn. He squeezes your hand, and youâre about to shove another piece of croissant in his mouth when you freeze. Because there, weaving between stalls with all the casual energy in the world, are Jules and Oscar.
Panic hits you faster than the sugar rush. You tug Yukiâs sleeve. âHide.â
âWhat?â
âHide!â you hiss, already dragging him behind a stack of crates filled with apples. He nearly trips over your feet but follows, and the two of you crouch down like fugitives in the middle of a farmersâ market.
Yuki whispers, âWe look insane.â
âYouâd rather they see us holding hands?â You peek through the gaps between crates, spying the two servers.Â
Jules is animated, talking with her hands, while Oscar listens, amused. You lean closer to Yuki, lowering your voice. âI thought Jules was with Lando.â
Yuki frowns, squinting at them. âReally? I didnât notice.â
You glance at him, incredulous. âHow do you not notice? We literally work with these people every day.â
He shrugs, like itâs the simplest thing in the world. âI only ever pay attention to your personal life.â
That knocks the air right out of your chest. The worst part? He says it so casually, like itâs not the most devastating thing anyoneâs ever whispered to you while hiding behind apples. Heat crawls up your neck and you smack his back lightly, trying to cover it up with indignation. âYou canât just say stuff like that.â
âWhy not? Itâs true.â Heâs smiling, and youâre doomed.
You straighten up, grabbing his wrist and tugging. Thankfully, Oscar and Jules are already off in some far end of the market. âThatâs it,â you declare. âWeâre going back to your place.â
âNow?â He tries to sound surprised, but the spark in his eyes gives him away.
âYes, now.â You lace your fingers with his again, quickening your pace as you begin to haul him away from the market. âBefore I combust from secondhand sweetness.â
âPretty sure thatâs firsthand sweetness,â Yuki teases, but he doesnât let go.
By the time you get back to Yukiâs apartment, youâre already on him like youâve been starved for weeks instead of just hours. Buttons, zippers, the trail of your jacket. It all blurs. You canât remember who stumbles first against the wall, only that youâre laughing into his mouth while trying not to trip over your own shoes. By the time you reach the couch, youâre both half-breathless and entirely lost to it.
Later, once the world slows down, youâre stretched out on that same couch, cheek pressed into the curve of a pillow. Your body is still buzzing with the kind of lazy satisfaction that makes the ceiling look prettier than usual. Yuki lies below you, close enough that your fingers brush his when you move.
Of course, itâs not newâthe wanting him part. Youâve always wanted him. You remember culinary school, how your heart raced when heâd glance over your shoulder to critique your knife cuts, his voice gruff and teasing like he had a personal grudge against julienning carrots. You remember thinking youâd put up with a thousand more lectures just to feel his breath on your neck again. So maybe it isnât such a mystery why you agreed to Venti Due in the first place. Professional growth, sure, but also the chance to be near him. Maybe youâre only admitting that to yourself now, in the afterglow, when your guardâs too low to bother with excuses.
You tilt your head toward him, breaking the silence with the most important question you can think of. âWhatâs for dinner?â
He hums like he hasnât thought about it, though his lips twitch like heâs already amused by your impatience. âProbably just takeout.â
You glare at him, mock-offended. âAfter all this effort I put in today, thatâs the best you can offer me? Takeout?â
Yuki smiles widely, turning toward you with the kind of look that makes your stomach flip all over again. âIâm trying to save my energy for something else.â
Before you can fire back with another quip, he shifts, rolling smoothly on top of you. The weight of him pins you down, and suddenly itâs hard to remember what youâd even asked in the first place.
Business has been busier than usual, and you know exactly why. Youâve been experimenting more, letting yourself be bolder with flavors, textures, and presentations. The display case looks like a technicolor dream: glossy tarts crowned with jewel-bright slices of candied citrus, delicate choux puffs dusted with pistachio crumble, and a mousse cake layered so neatly it looks like it belongs in a glossy food magazine. Customers linger, phones out, photos taken before the first bite, and you canât deny the thrill that rushes through you every time someone swoons over something you made.
Alex notices too. Of course he does. He watches as another pair of customers leave, practically glowing with satisfaction. âIâll admit it,â he says, his mouth curved into a knowing grin. âYour desserts have been next-level lately. Whatever youâve been doing, itâs working.â
You feign innocence, shrugging as you wipe down the counter. âWhat, am I not allowed to have creative bursts every once in a while?â
Alex narrows his eyes, still smiling. âSure, sure. But usually those bursts donât line up with you glowing all week,â he jabs. âDonât think I havenât noticed.â
You roll your eyes, but Yuki, standing beside you, is visibly stiffer than usual. He clears his throat, a little too quickly. âSheâs just working harder. Nothing weird about that.â
âRight,â Alex drawls, amusement dripping from every syllable. âTotally normal. Just suddenly decided to reinvent the pastry case out of nowhere. No possible explanation besides âworking harder.ââ
You and Yuki exchange a quick glanceâyours amused, his panickedâand you canât help but cover a laugh with your hand. âMaybe inspiration struck,â you say, aiming for breezy.
âUh-huh,â Alex says, clearly unconvinced but entertained. He points between the two of you as he turns to leave. âWhatever it is, keep it up. But donât think for a second Iâm not onto something.â
Yuki mutters under his breath once Alex is gone, âHeâs too nosy.â
You grin, nudging him with your elbow. âRelax. Deny, deny, deny. Itâs practically foolproof.â
Yuki shoots you a look thatâs half irritation, half affection, and you canât resist leaning close enough to add, âBesides, if Alex thinks my pastry game is suspiciously good, wait until he tries what Iâve been practicing at your place.â
A couple of days and a dozen more pastries later, the bell over the door jingles and you glance up, already halfway into your automatic âWelcome to Venti Dueâ when you freeze. Standing in the doorway is Doriane. You know her instantly. The same bright smile, the same blonde hair. Culinary school feels both like yesterday and a lifetime ago, but here she is, bustling toward you as if no time has passed at all.
âAre you kidding me?!â she squeals, throwing her arms around you. You laugh, startled, returning the hug. The sound of her voice alone drags you back to late nights in the pastry kitchen, sharing half-burnt ĂŠclairs and bad coffee while cramming for exams.
You pull back, a little breathless. âDori. What the hell are you doing here?â
She beams. âScouting. My bakery just hit one year. Can you believe it? One year, and weâre still standing.â She launches into chatter, telling you about her staff, her favorite customers, the early mornings that nearly killed her and the croissants that made it all worth it.
You smile, you nod, you laugh where appropriate. You mean itâyou are happy for her. You are. But somewhere under your ribs something twists, sharp and unexpected, like a knife you didnât realize youâd been carrying. You keep your hands busy twirling your kitchen towel, because if you donât, youâll have to look at her and admit to the ache in your chest.
She doesnât notice, or maybe she does and ignores it. Either way, she hugs you again before she leaves, clutching your arm like she used to. âIâm so glad youâre still you,â she says warmly, then tilts her head. âThough, honestly, Iâm surprised youâre still here. I always thought youâd have your own place by now.â
Her words land heavier than they should, sticking to your skin long after sheâs gone. You stand there, smile fading slow in the sterile kitchen youâve overstayed in. For the first time in a long time, you wonder if youâve been hiding behind the safety of Venti Due, behind the steady hum of itâand maybe even behind Yukiâlonger than you realized.
You donât notice the dip in your mood right away, but Yuki does. Heâs running through the dayâs feedback, voice steady and precise as always, while youâre staring off at a smudge on the stainless-steel counter like it holds the secrets of the universe. Normally, youâd be volleying back with sarcastic commentary or reminding him he sounds like an overzealous Hellâs Kitchen knockoff. Today, though, your mind is somewhere else, and Yukiâs sharp enough to take note of it.
He doesnât call you out in front of everyone. Heâs too careful for that, too considerate. But when the night winds down, the last tables cleared, and youâre elbow-deep in soapy water, he finally makes his move. You donât hear him until his arms are wrapping around your waist from behind, his chin settling against your shoulder like itâs been waiting there all day.
âYouâre quiet,â he whispers, not an accusation but an observation. The kind that makes your chest feel tight. âWhatâs wrong?â
You force a small laugh, too brittle to pass as genuine but hopefully enough to slip by. âI think Iâm coming down with something,â you fib, eyes still fixed on the plates in front of you.Â
He hums, the kind of sound that tells you he doesnât believe you, but heâs not going to push. Instead, he presses a kiss to your bare shoulder, warm and unhurried, a promise tucked into the gesture. âIâll make you soup.â
The words melt something in you and shatter something else all at once. You nod, letting him believe it, letting him take care of you in the way he knows how. All the while, your heart sinks under the weight of the lie youâve chosen. The one youâre telling the man you love.
âI want to talk to you about something.â
Thatâs how Yuki starts, right after youâve both trudged up the stairs to his apartment. Dinner dishes from your late shift still linger faintly in your clothes, and you brace yourself, heart thudding like heâs about to confirm every fear youâve been carrying. This is it, you think. Heâs caught on. He knows youâve been off for the past few weeks. Maybe heâs about to call you out for lying, for being distant.
Except then he kicks off his shoes, shrugs out of his jacket, and says it all-too plainly, âIâve been thinking about expanding Venti Due.â
Your brain short-circuits. âExpanding?â
He nods, totally serious, as if he didnât just blindside you with a bomb. âYeah. Iâve been eyeing a property not far from here,â he informs you. âSmaller, more intimate. Different vibe, but still under the name.â
Youâre still standing there with your arms crossed, waiting for the trick, waiting for the moment he circles back to the thing thatâs been gnawing at you all this time. He doesnât. He just moves around the apartment like heâs casually announcing he bought a new blender.
âYuki.â You narrow your eyes. âYou canât just drop the word âexpansionâ like itâs no big deal. Thatâsââ
âA big deal,â he finishes for you, smiling faintly. âI know. Thatâs why I wanted to talk to you first.â
âMe?â
âOf course you.â He says it so easily, so matter-of-fact, it throws you off balance. Then he meets your gaze squarely, no hesitation this time. âBecause I want you to be the head chef of the branch.â
You blink at him. Head chef. At a branch of Venti Due. The words taste surreal. âYuki, I canât,â you say quickly, as though cutting him off before the idea can breathe.
His brows crease. âCanât? What do you mean you canât? You can.â
âNo, reallyââ
âYes, really.â He walks back to you, already in full persuasive mode, like youâve thrown down a gauntlet he refuses to leave on the ground. âYouâre brilliant. Your desserts bring people through the door. Half the reason Venti Due has a line every Saturday is because of you. Donât even start pretending otherwise.â
You laugh, though it comes out sharper than you intend. âFlattery noted, but this isnât about that.â
He gestures with his hands in that animated way he does when heâs mid-rant. âYou think I donât see it? The way youâre always experimenting, always pushing,â he presses. âYouâd make a perfect head chef. Youâve been ready for it for a while now.â
You match his steps across the living room. âYouâre not listening,â you plead. âItâs not that I donât think Iâm good enough.â
âThen what is it?â He stops pacing and turns to you, frustrated but still trying to soften it with that boyish insistence, with that love for you that you donât quite feel deserving of at this very moment. âBecause from where I stand, the only thing holding you back is you.â
The words sting more than they should, and you feel the knot thatâs been lodged in your chest all day finally snap. âWhatâs holding me back is that this isnât my dream!â The volume surprises both of you. Youâre breathing harder, anger and something raw bleeding through your voice as you go on, âI didnât bust my ass in culinary school so I could run someone elseâs restaurant. I always meant to open my own bakery. Mine, Yuki. Not yours. Not Venti Due. Mine. Youâve known this from the very start.â
You donât even mean to blurt it out. The words just slip out: âIâve had the money for over a year.â
Yuki freezes. His head snaps toward you, disbelief flickering across his face. âOver a year?â
âSavings. Investors. The whole thingâs been ready. I couldâve signed a lease last spring if I wanted.â
The air shifts. Yukiâs quiet, too quiet, and when he finally speaks his voice is low, careful, like heâs afraid of stepping on glass. âThen why havenât you?â
You swallow, throat tight. The truth pulses at the edge of your tongue, desperate and obvious: because of you. Because youâre here, because every morning at Venti Due means seeing him, because the thought of leaving feels like ripping out a piece of yourself. But you donât say any of that. You canât. So instead you shrug, trying to pass it off like itâs nothing. âTiming wasnât right. Thatâs all.â
Yuki studies you, eyes narrowing, and you can tell he doesnât buy it. He knows you too well. His lips press into a thin line, and then, almost hesitantly, he admits, âI thought⌠maybe youâd changed your mind.â
Your chin lifts at that. âChanged my mind?â
His gaze flicks away, somewhere toward the window where the city hums indifferent outside. âAbout the bakery. About leaving Venti Due. Especially now.â His voice dips softer, a strange mix of vulnerable and tentative, as if heâs not sure heâs allowed to want what heâs hinting at. âNow that weâre⌠us.â
Because youâre dating. Because youâre together. Heâd thought his dreams were suddenlyâwhat? Weightier than yours? Worth bucking for? You reach for your bag without really thinking about it, the weight of Yukiâs words still pressing against your chest. It feels like white-hot humiliation, threading itself with frustration that refuses to dissolve. His apartment, usually warm and safe, suddenly feels stifling, every wall closing in on you.
âWhere are you going?â Yukiâs voice is quick, alarmed. You hear the shift of his footsteps, him crossing the room toward you, and you donât even have to look up to know the crease between his brows has deepened.
âHome,â you say, short, clipped. The bag strap slides over your shoulder, a shield you cling to. Youâre not even sure if you mean your apartment or just somewhere that isnât here.
His hand reaches for your wrist, the way it always does when he wants to tether you to him, but this time you twist free. Your heart stutters at the shock on his face. He wasnât expecting that. Neither were you.
âWait,â he tries again, gentler now. âDonât do this. Donât just walk out.â
You shake your head. âIâm not doing anything dramatic, Yuki. I just need air.â
âAir here,â he insists, stepping closer, his tone walking that line between pleading and commanding. âStay. We canââ
But you take a step back, clutching your bag strap tighter, almost like itâs the only thing keeping you upright. âNot right now.â Your voice comes out almost a whisper, but it cuts anyway. His mouth closes on whatever he was about to say.
The silence that follows is thick, the kind that tastes of all the words unsaid. You manage to leave without looking back, even though every part of you wants to.
Venti Due sings with its usual rhythm: pans clinking, knives against boards, the soft hiss of burners catching. Youâre in sync with Yuki the way you always are. Plates move from your station to his without a word, garnishes land with exact precision, sauces are poured with timing that borders on instinct. From the outside, it looks flawless.
Inside, though, itâs different. Thereâs a tightness under your ribs every time his hand brushes too close, a silence that stretches too long when your eyes meet. It isnât explosive or obvious, but it lingers like smoke, curling in the corners of the kitchen. The others pick up on it.Â
Jules keeps glancing between the two of you, eyebrows furrowing like sheâs trying to do the math. Alex lingers longer at the pass, waiting for a joke or some playful jab that never comes. Even Oscar, who usually minds his own business, looks like heâs about to ask something and then thinks better of it.
Itâs Lando who finally cracks. He drapes himself across the counter during a lull, smirking like heâs caught you in something. âWhat, did you two have a loversâ quarrel? Or is this just some weird chef telepathy thing Iâm not getting?â
Normally, youâd quip back. Yuki would roll his eyes and toss a towel at him. Something light, something that breaks the tension and lets everyone laugh. But not today. You keep plating, hand steady as you drizzle a sauce. Yuki doesnât even look up from his pan. The silence that follows Landoâs joke is louder than the busiest dinner rush.
Landoâs grin falters. âRight. Cool. Totally normal vibes here.â He clears his throat and slips away, leaving the kitchen to its strange quiet again.
You and Yuki move on, the machine still running, but the heart of it misfiring. Perfect tandem, imperfect everything else. The end of shift debrief runs like clockwork, but without the usual noise of teasing interruptions or side comments. Everyone stands gathered near the pass, waiting through Yukiâs rundown. His tone is even and preciseâtoo precise, the kind of politeness that feels like itâs been scrubbed down with bleach.
âAlex, your timing on the mains was sharp today,â Yuki says. âKeep that consistency.â Alex nods, offering a faint grin that doesnât quite last before glancing at you, as if to gauge whether youâll soften the mood with a sarcastic remark. You donât.
âLando,â Yuki continues, âgood initiative with plating, but watch your portioning. Two grams might not sound like much, but it matters.â Normally, this would be where Lando fires back with a smart remark. Instead, he just mutters, âGot it,â subdued, like the tension is pressing down on him too.
âGeorge, solid work on prep. You were efficient and organized. Keep that up.â George straightens like heâs back in school receiving a gold star, though his eyes flick curiously between you and Yuki, clocking the distance in your voices.
âOscar,â Yuki says next, âgood rhythm with service. Quicker reaction times today.â Oscar nods once, his usual grin absent, like he knows better than to test the air tonight.
Then Yuki looks at Jules. âJules, strong on salads and support. I noticed you handled the backup on sauces without being asked. Good work.â
Jules, normally bright and easy with her thanks, only gives a polite nod, her smile faltering at the edges when she glances between the two of you. Everyone is too aware of the cracks in the kitchenâs unspoken choreography.
Finally, Yuki closes the clipboard, his voice steady as he says, âThatâs all. Good shift, everyone. See you tomorrow.â
No jokes, no lingering chatter. The crew disperses quickly, leaving the silence behind like a dirty pan nobody wants to scrub. The kitchen feels too clean, too quiet. Youâre drying your hands on a towel when Yuki clears his throat like heâs announcing himself.
âSo,â he says, leaning against the counter like nothingâs wrong, like the air between you isnât thin enough to snap. âGood service tonight. Your chocolate tart sold out. Again.â
You nod, polite as a stranger. âYeah. People like chocolate.â
Thereâs supposed to be a grin, a nudge, a quick-fire joke to bounce back. Instead, his smile dies before it even arrives. He shifts his weight, trying again. âGeorge didnât burn the sauce today. Thatâs progress.â
âMiracles happen,â you answer, and it comes out flat.
It feels like watching someone dance with two left feet. Yuki doesnât give up, but every line he throws lands awkwardly, catching in the silence. The rhythm you always hadâthe banter, the shared eye rollsâhas abandoned you both. Finally, he exhales through his nose, tired. âDo you want to get dinner? Thereâs that new ramen place down the street. Or anywhere, really. My treat.â
The offer dangles in the air, heavy with hope you canât touch. You tuck the towel over the sink and shake your head. âNot tonight,â you say simply.Â
Something flickers in his eyes, but he swallows it down. âRight,â he says, pushing away from the counter. He doesnât press, doesnât try to argue. âGet home safe.â
You nod, grab your bag, and head for the door. For the first time in a long time, you leave the restaurant before him. When you glance back once, heâs still standing there, hands braced on the counter, like if he stays behind long enough, the kitchen might tell him where he went wrong.
The awkwardness stretches on for a week. Seven whole days of polite hell, where you and Yuki still move around each other in the kitchen, but the heat is gone. Itâs all surface-level courtesy, no lingering glances, no teasing brushes of hands at the prep table. You can feel the staff notice it too. Every sidelong glance, every muted conversation that dies when you enter the room. The silence between you and him is louder than the sizzle of pans.
So when Yuki asks to see you after a shift, your stomach twists into knots. He calls it a âmeeting,â the word dropping like a blade between the two of you. You scrub your hands clean at the sink, buying time, bracing yourself for what feels inevitable.
The dining area is empty by the time you join him. The low hum of the refrigerators and the soft clink of cutlery being reset by Jules are the only sounds filling the room. Yuki is sitting at one of the tables, posture perfect, face unreadable. Itâs the kind of stillness that makes you want to squirm.
You take the seat across from him, pretending you donât notice how your pulse has picked up speed. âSo,â you say. âIs this where you break up with me in a public setting? Very professional.â
He doesnât smile. Not even a little moment with a corner of his mouth. His hands are folded on the table, knuckles white from how tightly heâs holding them together. The silence stretches, the air so heavy it feels like itâs pressing down on your chest. You swallow hard, waiting for him to just spit it out already, to confirm the thing youâve been dreading all week.
Finally, he exhales, slow and deliberate. His eyes lift to meet yours, dark and serious.
âYouâre being terminated.â
A beat. He doesnât laugh. Heâs not joking.Â
âIâm sorry,â you breathe, âbut have you lost your fucking mind?âÂ
Thatâs the first thing out of your mouth, sharp and incredulous, the words ricocheting off the walls like youâve just lobbed a pan across the kitchen. Your hands are moving as if they have a life of their own, slicing the air, pointing at him, at the table between you, at anything that isnât his maddeningly calm face. âCompletely gone. Checked out. Cooked through. Youâve officially lost it.â
Yuki doesnât flinch. He doesnât even try to interrupt at first, letting you get halfway through your tirade about betrayal, about how youâve slaved in this restaurant, about how youâve been nothing but loyal. How heâs being unfair, bringing your relationship problems into your employment. His silence only fuels you further, until your voice is tripping over itself, sarcasm and hurt bleeding into every syllable.
Finally, he cuts in. âItâs not your skills,â he says firmly, voice slicing clean through your spiral. âThis is about retrenchment. The business is cutting costs.â
You freeze, mid-sputter, blinking at him like heâs just spoken in another language. âCutting costs,â you repeat, pained. âSo, Iâm⌠what, garnish? Disposable parsley?â
He exhales slowly, not rising to your barbs, which only makes them sting sharper when they bounce uselessly off him. âThereâs separation pay. Iâve already worked out the numbers. Youâll have enough toââ
Thatâs when it clicks. The cool tone, the carefully chosen words, the way heâs framing it not as a failure but as some kind of opportunity. You hear the subtext so loudly it drowns out everything else. He isnât firing you because the restaurant is sinking. Heâs firing you because he wants you gone.
âYouâre trying to get me to leave.â Your voice is almost stunned, but it settles heavier than any of your earlier shouting. âThis isnât retrenchment. This is you pushing me out.â
Yuki meets your gaze, steady, unreadable. You feel the bottom of your chest drop, because you canât tell if heâs doing this out of loveâor out of fear. In the softest voice, he says, âYou know that stupid saying⌠if you love someone, you have to let them go?â
âWow,â you say slowly, âquoting fridge magnets now? Should I be worried?â
Yukiâs cheeks go pink and his hands start to fidget with each other, unraveling the neat knot heâd tied them into. âIâI didnât mean⌠I mean, we havenât⌠I know we havenât said that. Love. I just thoughtâGod, I didnât mean to assume. Iâm not assuming. Forget I said it. Pretend I didnât say it.â His words spill in a frantic rush now, each one tripping over the next. âIâm not trying to pressure you. I justââ
âYuki.â
âI just realized I was so stupid, asking you to head the new Venti Due branch when Iâve always knownââ
âYuki.â
ââand I donât want you to think I hate you or anything, because I donât, andââ
Youâre already climbing across the narrow space of the table before he can finish, balancing on one hand as you reach him. His eyes widen, panic stopping mid-sentence as your mouth presses against his. The table rattles under your knee, a fork clattering to the floor, but you donât care. He tastes like the peppermint tea heâd been nursing, warm and grounding, and the way his breath catches against you nearly undoes you.
The moment you break for air, his arms are around you, hauling you into his lap. He mumbles against your mouth between kisses, his voice shaky but sure: âMissed you. Missed you so much.â
You donât feel the pit in your chest, just the weight of him holding you close, as if letting you go had never been an option. You donât know how long you two are making outâjust that youâre still in his lap, his mouth still pressed against yoursâwhen you finally manage to crack a joke against his lips. âWhat are the ethics here?â you tease. âMaking out with my boss. At my place of work. Pretty sure this is an HR violation.â
Yukiâs laugh rumbles low in his chest, and he bites at your lower lip like heâs trying to underline his point. âI wonât be your boss much longer,â he says before kissing you again. His hand has inched up, hovering just above the hem of your shirt, his fingers spreading over the strip of skin there.
Youâre caught between wanting to tease him for how cocky that sounded and wanting to let him prove it when the door swings open. âOh my God!â Georgeâs shriek bounces off the walls, higher than any sopranoâs note could dream of reaching.
You both freeze. Yukiâs hand is suspended mid-climb, your lips still parted against his. Slowly, painfully slowly, you and Yuki turn toward the doorway. George is standing there, wide-eyed, like heâs just stumbled into some cursed ancient ruin. âI did not need to see that,â he screeches, his voice pitching higher as he slaps his hands over his eyes. âEver. Ever!â
You stifle a laugh that bubbles up, half mortification and half delight at how utterly horrified he looks. Yuki, though, is the picture of calm. His arm still securely around your waist, his voice maddeningly casual. âGeorge,â he says, like youâve been caught discussing inventory instead of each otherâs tonsils. âKnock next time.â
George lets out another noiseâsomething between a whine and a yellâbefore stumbling backward, muttering curses under his breath about bleach for his eyes. The second the door clicks shut again, you collapse against Yukiâs shoulder, laughter spilling out of you in gasps. He grins into your hair, hand finally resting warm against your side.Â
âWell,â you giggle, still catching your breath. âGuess weâre really terrible at keeping secrets.â
âMm,â Yuki hums, âI couldnât keep you a secret if I tried.â
Monday morning pulls you out of bed with more force than your alarm ever could. Thereâs something about knowing the day wonât end with fluorescent lights and order tickets that makes you stand a little straighter as you dress. By the time you step onto the street, coffee in hand, you already feel the hum of something new, something yours, coursing under your skin.
The storefront waits for you downtown, sunlight spilling across its big windows like a spotlight. The glass gleams, showing off the polished counters and the corner youâve already claimed. The one perfect for cakes designed to stop people in their tracks. You picture passersby pausing, drawn in by sugar and butter made art, their feet carrying them in almost against their will.
When you push the door open, the smell of yeast and vanilla has already settled in, warm and rich. Chloe is at one counter, already elbow-deep in dough. She glances up at you, grinning with that edge she always has. âTook you long enough,â she sings. âWe were about to start without you.â
âYou wouldnât dare,â you shoot back, slipping into your apron with practiced ease.
Across the room, Rafaela raises a brow, steady hands piping buttercream rosettes onto cupcakes lined up in perfect rows. Sheâs the picture of efficiency, her voice dry but not cold. âDonât tempt me. Chloe was one second away from eating the leftover pastry cream straight from the bowl.â
âThat was quality control,â Chloe protests.Â
You laugh, and just like that, the morning begins. Easy, familiar, and bright. It feels like the world has rearranged itself around you, and for once, youâre exactly where youâre supposed to be.
Mere minutes after youâve flipped your sign to Open, the bell above the bakery door rings, crisp and cheerful. You donât even have to look up to know who it is. Jules always comes in firstâlike clockwork, like the sun, like the personification of caffeine itself in her oversized sunglasses and slightly chaotic hair. Youâre already bagging a pastry before she even says hello.
âMorning,â she yawns. âTell me youâve got a raspberry croissant today.â
You glance at her over the pastry bags, lips twitching. âRaspberry croissant? So it was Oscar last night.â
Her sunglasses tip down just enough for you to see her eyes narrow, but she doesnât deny it. Instead, she puts a hand to her chest with mock dramatics. âI feel so seen. Next youâll be reading my aura.â
You shrug, sliding the croissant into her bag. âI donât need your aura. You give yourself away with your pastry order,â you point out. âChocolate twist? Lando. Raspberry? Oscar. Plain croissant? Alone, tragically.â
âTragically,â she repeats, sniffing like a Victorian widow, then peeks into the bag like she wasnât sure youâd actually give her what she asked for. âGod, I miss you at Venti Due. That kitchenâs a disaster without you. Yuki pretends heâs fine, but we all know the truth. You abandoned us.â
âFunny, I donât remember you fake-crying when Iâm sliding you free pastries.â
Jules lifts her hand and mimes dabbing away tears, complete with a hiccup of false sobbing. âYou donât understand. The pain of losing my favorite chef and the joy of gaining free carbsâitâs tearing me apart.â
You snort. âYouâre so full of it.â
She beams, unbothered. âAbsolutely. And you love me for it.â In one swift move, she leans over the counter, kisses you on the cheek, and straightens up. âSee you tomorrow, babe.â
The bell rings again as she leaves, and youâre still half-smiling at the empty doorway, the echo of her theatrics setting the tone of your day.Â
The bell above the door jingles around lunch, and you glance up just in time to see George slipping in with his sunglasses still on, as though the bakery is paparazzi territory. You donât call him out on it; youâve learned that George thrives on delivering his own punchline. Sure enough, he drifts to the center of the room, turns a slow circle, and hums.Â
âDarling, itâs cute,â he says, drawing out the word like itâs a compliment and an insult at once. âBut these chairs? Bold choice. Retro or tragic? The lineâs very thin.â
You quirk your lip to one side, flour dusted across your cheek like war paint. âRetro, obviously. Are you going to order something, or did you want me to get your input on the wallpaper too?â
âPlease. Iâd only charge you a small consulting fee,â he huffs. âFriends and family discount.â
By the time youâre sliding him a plateâcroissant sandwich, because you know himâheâs already snapping a picture of the pastry case like heâs secretly going to Yelp-review you. When he leaves, you catch Chloe grinning at the jar. A crisp bill, folded neatly, tucked among the coins.
Not long after, Alex wanders in, hands buried in his hoodie pockets, cap pulled low. He pauses just inside the door as though unfamiliar with the place, then meanders toward the counter with the casual air of someone trying not to look like a regular.
âCan I help you, sir?â you ask, playing into the role. âFirst time here?â
He deadpans back. âYeah, just passing by. Figured Iâd try the⌠what do you call them⌠muffins?â
âWow,â you say. âBold to insult me to my face before Iâve even taken your money.â
Alex doesnât crack, though his eyes crinkle with laughter he canât quite conceal. He takes his muffin to go, but not before dropping a note in the jar on Chloe and Rafaelaâs side of the counter. He doesnât look at you when he does it. They both leave in their own waysâGeorge flamboyant, Alex pretending heâs a strangerâbut the jar fills steadily, and your bakers exchange conspiratorial glances every time you turn away. Proof of love, wrapped in regulars and tips and remembered orders.Â
Your bakery winds down, quiet as it opened. No clattering trays, no chorus of orders being shouted across counters, none of the frenetic heartbeat that defined Venti Due. Just the soft shuffle of parchment, the occasional metallic clink of a tray being stacked away, the murmur of Chloe and Rafaela wiping down surfaces as the golden hour light washes through the front windows. It isnât adrenaline here. Itâs yours.
You lean against the counter, notes in hand, giving them feedback. One of the things youâve picked up from your time at Veni Due. Chloe listens intently, nodding in all the right places, while Rafaela balances the spray bottle on her palm as she listens to your feedback. Both of them grin at each other whenever you say something particularly earnest, but they still take it to heart. Itâs a rhythm, and you like it.
âHonestly, youâre cramping my style,â a voice cuts in from the doorway.
Chloe and Rafaela both swivel toward the sound and then immediately turn back to you with the kind of grins that spell trouble. âOoooh,â Chloe sing-songs under her breath, and Rafaela raises her brows in mock warning.Â
âDonât stay up too late,â Rafaela adds, grabbing her bag and tugging Chloe along toward the back.
You roll your eyes, but theyâre already giggling their way out, their laughter lingering long after the bell on the back door jingles shut. Which leaves you with the doorway. And him.
Yuki is standing there like he hasnât thought this through. Still in his chefâs outfit, hair mussed like he sprinted here. A bouquet of flowers gripped awkwardly in one hand. The sight of himârumpled, breathless, yet somehow still beamingâis ridiculous enough to make your chest tighten.Â
You donât even think about it. Youâre already moving, barreling forward like gravityâs got you tethered to him. Yuki steadies you on impact, arms locking around your waist as though heâd been bracing for exactly this, and the sound he makesâhalf laugh, half groanâis ridiculously fond.
âAre you always going to tease me like this?â he teases, mock suffering painted across his face even as his hands linger at your back. âOne day, youâre going to break my ribs. Then what? No more cooking, no more flowers, just hospital food for the both of us.â
âYouâd survive,â you say, voice muffled against the warm press of his shoulder, though your grin is sharp enough to betray you.Â
You lean back just far enough to swipe the bouquet from his hand with practiced ease, turning it in your grip like evidence. The blooms are impossibly fresh, bursting with color, every stem perfectly chosen. âOkay, seriously. Do you have some sixth sense for when your last arrangement dies?â you jab. âBecause thatâs suspicious. Like, stalker-level suspicious.â
Yuki only shrugs, his eyes lit with something playful. âI take one flower for my office at Venti Due. When it starts to wilt, I know itâs time to bring you new ones.âÂ
He says it like itâs nothing, like it isnât the most absurdly meticulous, heartbreakingly thoughtful thing anyone has ever admitted. You freeze, bouquet balanced loosely between your palms, suddenly aware that thisâthis stupid, simple habitâis him in a nutshell. Not grand speeches or flashy declarations. Just steady, impossible attentiveness. The kind of detail only a chef could pull off, as if heâs spent his whole life honing his craft to turn it on you. He notices the smallest things, the almost invisible shifts, the way your world tilts when the petals begin to fall. And he answers it, every single time, with something that says: I see you. I wonât stop seeing you.
It floods you, a strange alchemy of fire and sugar that catches you low in the chest and spreads until youâre nearly dizzy. Youâve tried to outpace this, duck away from it, pretend it wonât undo you. But Yukiâs love, quiet and relentless, doesnât burn out. It roots itself deeper, until even running feels useless.
The thought barely finishes before youâre kissing him. Not coy, not testing. Itâs hungry, reckless, yours. He tastes like the exact thing youâve been starved for: laughter caught between breaths, a relief so sharp it almost hurts. Your hands fist into his jacket and tug, impatient, demanding.
âTake this off,â you whisper against his mouth, half command, half plea.
His smile slides into the kiss. He doesnât flinch, doesnât hesitate, only tilts closer until his words ghost against your lips, warm and teasing: âYes, chef.â â
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