àč BND! Peter Parker x reader
â After two years dating Peter you finally find, by accident, the note he once wrote for MJ four years ago, and that's your last straw.
!!: angst no comfort . spoilers free . no use of y/n . messy breakup . +1.2k words . not proofread
A/N: I wanted to join the Peter fics tsunami too :3 and an angsty movie needs an angsty fic so i'm here to report duty.
New York is a cold place in winter. Snow falls like stars from the sky. Perfectly small, delicate and beautiful. It covers every street in a thick white layer, and during the day kids can be seen playing and making snow-manâs with it.Â
Regardless of the freezing temperatures, Spider-man has to step up and save the day, every day, like he has done for the past four years.Â
It hasnât been easy; not because of the cold, but because of everything Peter has been going through these past years that was slowly mending thanks to you.Â
You were helping him rebuild the Peter from the pastâthe joyful, nerdy Peter. You came like an angel into his life, shining bright, ready to save him. You gave him time, gave him space, waited for him to open up to you whenever he wanted to, and listened attentively once he gave in.Â
Then you started dating, and suddenly Peterâs life had a real reason to go onânot just the vain hope of a better future. He had a real person waiting for him, who loved himânot just the memory of what once was his life and the people from his past.Â
Now it wasnât MJâs memory pushing him forward, it was the reality of you waiting for him at home. And you were worth it. For you he tried to arrive home after patrol as clean as possible. This meant less blood, so you would worry less. However, he very well knows you would be waiting for him with everything prepared to cure his wounds. And he loves that.
Luckyly for both of you, today wasn't that bad. He took a few punches, but thereâs no blood in sight, and no wounds for you to worry about.
After confirming by himself that the criminals had been successfully arrested, and the victims taken care off, Peter swoons away from the crime scene to his house.
The cold air filters through the fabric of his suit. Snowflakes settle on his body, making him wet. He may arrive uninjured, but the second he enters his house he will need some warmth and a big hug from you.Â
Sadly, anything but warmth was waiting for him at home.Â
You had been ugly crying for the past hours, alone in the nightly darkness of your room.Â
When Peter enters through the window the first thing he hears are your cries. He is quickly taking off his mask and throwing it to the floor when he hears your sobs. Afraid of seeing the worst scenario his mind has made up, he turns on the light of the room.Â
He isnât met with you beaten up to death and covered in your blood, no. You are simply laid down in his bed, still wearing your outside clothes, and with your hands tightly gathered against your chest.
âHey, hey! Babe, what happened?â He asks, stepping closer to the bed.
He is worried, he truly cares for you, but he also notices the crumbled paper you are holding. That makes him stop. He doesnât even question if the note you have is the one Peter is thinking of, he doesnât need to. The cup from Peter Pan Donut & Pastries is on top of your nightstand, empty, because the note is in your hands.Â
âIâm sorryâ he apologies. You stop crying and clean up your cheeks from the tears, then you look at him dead in the eye.
Your entire mood has shifted. Just a few seconds ago you were pouring your entire heart out to your solitude, and now you were looking at your boyfriend like you wanted to kill him.Â
âI didnât even remember I still had it,â he tries to excuse himself.
âDonât lie to me, Peter.â Your voice is harsh, distant, and painfully straightforward. His eyes keep switching between you and the note in your hands. âDonât lie to me like you did four months ago.â
Four months ago you had discovered he was Spider-man. He hadnât been able to tell you, never brought it up, and even with his suit in your hands he tried to deny it. It felt like a betrayal, and still you forgave him.Â
âLook Peter, this wasnât even the reason I was planning on breaking up with youââ
âYou want to break up with me?â He cuts you off. His face falls, his eyebrows knit together and his lips press into a thin line.Â
You feel bad. Peter is an amazing person, but heâs not ready for a relationship, not in this state. Heâs also not the kind of person you are looking for.Â
âLook I think itâll be best for both of us,â you try to explain.
âI swear, I donât care about MJ anymore,â Peter says with a hand on his chest. His eyes shift again to the note in your hand.Â
âBut you still keep the note,â you remark calmly.
Peter stays quiet for a few seconds. Youâre right, and he doesnât even know why he has kept that note. He doesnât want to get back with MJ but she was a significant part of his past life, before making everyone forget about him. Maybe he just wanted to have her back in his life, but not in the same way it was.Â
âIâll throw it away,â Peter says with fake confidence.
âYou donât have to. Again, this is not the problem,â You insist.
âThen what is?â Peter asks, desperate to understand.Â
âThat you are never here!â You shout. âYouâre never here. Since I found out about you being Spider-man you had started spending less and less time with me. Youâre always taking care of something.â
âBut that's my job,â he defends.
âI know. But youâre letting Spiderman consume you, you arenât Peter anymore. Iâm dating Peter Parker not Spiderman,â you state, eyes firm on his bruised face, but your soul is breaking into pieces.Â
âBut, Iâm both. I am Peter and I am Spiderman!â
âBut Spiderman leaves in the middle of our dates every time, and Peter canât seem to forget his ex,â Peter can see the pain in your eyes, even if there hasnât been a single tear falling from your eye since he entered the apartment. âI donât deserve this.â
You were right, with everything. Somehow MJ couldnât leave his mind, even after four years her memory still haunted him, and you donât deserve that. You deserve someone who loves you and, at the same time, who can give you their attention and full devotion.Â
He has fucked this up, and there was no going back.Â
Peter tears away his gaze from your face to the floor, and thatâs when he sees it: your bag, full of your things, waiting to be taken away from this place.
âSo youâre leaving.â Not a question, a realization. Your silence after that is enough of an answer to Peter. âFine. Iâm sorry.â
The silence filling the tiny room is uncomfortable and none of you knows what to do next, so you take the first step. You fold the note delicately before leaving it back inside the cup, for then to pick up your bag and put it on your shoulder.Â
âIâm sorry too, Peter.â Those are your last words before leaving the apartment.Â
The argument was surprisingly quick, but painful nonetheless. Inside the apartment, Peter stays still with his heart broken into pieces, and his body wet and cold. And you, now walking to your old apartment through the streets of New York, cleaning your tears as they begin to fall from your eyes again.Â
Two broken souls that have untied from each other, that were never meant to be.Â