Last day / hours before i’m saying goodbye to thirty-three. TBH I love the number. Well :(
Tomorrow; i’m going to 34. And next year it going to be 35. It’s scary shit out of me to looked back at how fast time flies. Every birthdays came, it always a good time to reflect your life isn’t it? How’s my life been for 33 years? Have I done good enough to people surrounds me or do I treated my self better in every each year? What kind of achievement i’d already achieved? Did I made myself proud? Did i still do the same mistakes? Did i ever change to a better?
Hmm.. Although I put up those question to myself, i also feel hard to answer most of it. By means, nothing change much i guess. so it would a proper resolution to be made hahaha by tonight i really should plan my life well so called The Plan and The Back up Plan ver 1 LOL.
I need to analyse my financial thoroughly. So next year going another pain-year to finished all the debts (debts cari sendiri heh) n to keep the TRAVEL plan to a temporary silence I guess. And need to find other financial resources as a back up to current life. Online business?? I don't think anywhere soon, so many attempts i did but unless i really learn to manage my time properly, def big NO to jump in the online business yet.
Learn new skills probably new languages. Currently learning german still in the early stage learning the words etc. so far so good. and planning to re learn french too.
Next set of skills i need to learn is to make full use my MacBook. Rather use it to watch my korean drama (insert eyes rolling emoji here) i should use it to learn creative things like design? before i decided to bought this mac i already have aim like to have my own youtube challenge and do the vlogs but apparently i don't have any other equipment such as a good camera (current dslr cannot record more that 5 mins video heh) so the idea just hang there haha. Love arts though i don't have any creative hands whatsoever but no harm to try. so probably explore adobe more.
to improve my photography skills. to take more photo. to edit more. whats more?
To give my self priority above anythings else (family is exempt in this reso of course) give priority to health condition. lose some more weight. grooming more ahahaha (i don't know if i can)
decorate the house - saving up to buy sofa (Cik Normah already nagging bout this quite a lot hoho)
read more self development books. To start listen to a podcast. motivational one. tech podcast? since my preference in books already had major changes since last year (a big thanks to AW) from lovey-dovey novel to more productive books hahaha. (always bring one book in my bag pack now) again struggle to finished one book but it just I'm not focusing not about the book not interesting or what. such meleceh. dats me :P but let’s try to finish one book for one month. i’ve bought a lot last year so now officially became book hoarders. so yeah before next big bad wolf expo, i shall finished it all.
HMMMMMM.... to keep it as secret. this one def no need to disclose in here. spiritual thingy you know. that one def to improve. we don't know when we are going. the bekalan still low. the more added years the more you near to death. so yeah. this going to be way better than ever.
to appreciate mak more. appreciate your time with family more than ever. to take care anak -anak better too.
to ignore the ignorant people in the office. whatever they have in their mind, let them be. not going affected at all. whatever conspiracy between boss and the advisor hahaha let them be. if they not being professional then let them be. focus to complete my work. do the fucking best and I'm going to home sharp 5.45pm ahahaha. no more working late. sesekali okay. but never let people taking advantage on me, coz i’m not married yet so i can work at anytime, the fuck. i can't take my annual leave the fuck again. but no more after this. I'm sorry boss. I'm not going to let you distress myself anymore after this. i just hate office politics but what to do that is life but NO MORE THANK YOU. limited contact with negative people. limited to meaningless talking with others. no more gossiping I'm tired with all the nonsense. I'm just want to have a happy working life :)
This is a major thing. idk, but we do have plans to settled down. it just a matter of time. but like i said before. I'm not going to waste another more years waited for nothing. let’s make it happen by next year. INSHAALLAH. Since he going to be super busy the two months i hope by December we both can have a proper planning and execute it accordingly. i need to drag him for sure. or else he going to immerse with the works so much and never bother do the planning with me.
last checking, we do still in same direction until now, still love each other. Alhamdulillah. He did change throughout these years, one step at a time. from ignorant to more caring and concern me a lot. Alhamdulillah. we both change so much in fact. we still learn and going to learn more in the future. May Allah SWT ease our matters baby. hashtag tilljannah. ich liebe dich so sehr meine Hase. ich vermisse dich :(
Although he not remember my birthday haha been giving hints but well knowing him, i learned not to put higher hope huhuhu. So I'm going to prepare to cry if he did forget. of course kecil hati meh. but I'm totally in prepare that he not going to remember hihi.
Last year he did sang a birthday song to me (indonesia ultah song), buy me a slice of my fav cake :) he did want to buy me a present but he change his mind last minute, gak mahu spoilt me much (ala i know u r such a cheapskate la hahahaha) but I'm okay with it. as long as you remember it’s already enough for me :)
HAPPY 34TH BIRTHDAY SHERRY.
LEARN TO LOVE YOURSELF MORE. APPRECIATE LIFE. BE HAPPY. BE HEALTHY. MOGA SENTIASA DALAM RAHMAT ALLAH SWT. BE THANKFUL FOR EVERY SINGLE THINGS HAPPEN. FOR THE GOOD AND THE BAD.
The 33 years old Sherryyanafazren
