Troubled Little Mind

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「 ✦ 𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝓬𝓪𝓷 𝓬𝓪𝓵𝓵 𝓶𝓮 𝓓𝓲𝔁𝓲𝓮 𝓸𝓻 𝓥𝓪𝓶𝓹 ✦ 」

Hello! This Blog is a space for me to express my age regression and coming to terms with it. I've been a regressor for years now to help me cope with different things in my life, but I was always ashamed of it and threw out a lot of my stuff that was helping me.

So now this is a fresh start for me, I'm hoping to find peace and comfort again without having breakdowns.

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♡˗ˏ✎*ೃ˚ Some facts about me

☾ I regress Involuntarily and Voluntarily

☾ My Little age is around 1-2, never really any bigger than that. My real age is 23 and I'd prefer if only blogs who are above the age of 18 would interact with me

☾ I don't have a caregiver or anything. I'm pretty closed off and shy and have trouble connecting with other people

☾ I go nonverbal when I regress

☾ I'm diagnosed with agoraphobia, major depressive disorder and anxiety, so age regression helps me. Sometimes the regression is involuntarily though. I also think I have autism, but it wasn't taken seriously when I was in the hospital, just focusing on the other things. I also have some memory issues.

☾ I'm from germany! My brain is wired funky though so I pretty much think and write in english only

☾ I'm Bi-romantic and Asexual

☾ I'm a Therian! 𐂯 I'm a wolf and a snow leopard

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♡˗ˏ✎*ೃ˚ Some Interests of mine

☾ Art//Drawing

☾ Creepypasta

☾ Welcome Home ARG

☾ Horror Content in general [ARG's, Analog Horror, Internet mysteries...]

☾ The Furry Fandom

☾ Cookie Run Kingdom

☾ Sonic

☾ Spirit, Stallion of the cimmaron [Horses in general, as well as Centaurs]

☾ My little Pony

「 ✦ LITTLE WITH DEPRESSION WITH JEFF THE KILLER/HOMICIDAL LIU ✦ 」

Thank you for the ask <3 I don't think I'm knowledgeable enough with BDP so I'll focus on depression instead, I hope that is okay for you.

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♡˗ˏ✎*ೃ˚ Little!Reader with Depression with Jeff the Killer/Homicidal Liu

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♡˗ˏ✎*ೃ˚ Jeff the Killer

☾ You lay in bed, feeling heavy and not being able to get up.

☾ Jeff notices and crawls in bed with you - he knows you when you're in an episode.

☾ He hugs and nuzzles you, peppering kisses all over your head.

☾ "I know baby, I know..."

☾ He's just silently there for you, making sure you know that you're not alone.

☾ Eventually he'll wrap you up in a blanket burrito and take you out of bed. If you don't wanna move then he'll move you himself!

☾ Jeff puts you down on the couch, putting on your favorite show in littlespace and gets you your favorite stuffy.

☾ "I know you're feeling down, but me and your stuffy are here for you when you need us, always..."

☾ Does not pressure you to talk about what's been bothering you BUT he will make sure you know that he loves you.

☾ He doesn't talk much if you don't wanna talk with him, but he shows his love in actions - like filling up your sippy and encouraging you to drink, bringing you your medication, letting you play on a tablet or a console...

☾ Worries a lot but he's there for the whole ride, even when bumpy and many pitstops.

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♡˗ˏ✎*ೃ˚ Homicidal Liu

☾ You lay in bed, feeling heavy and not being able to get up.

☾ Liu notices how you've been feeling off lately, so he makes sure to prepare your favorite meal and get your favorite fun drink.

☾ "You know I don't want you eating too much sugar, but how can I say no when you're not feeling sweet anymore? Gotta fuel up that tank!"

☾ He'll even slip you some nice sweet treat after you finished up your meal... Or not. He doesn't force you to eat everything up - any bite you'll take at the moment is worth a treat.

☾ Makes sure to encourage you to get up and coax you out of that blanket cave to get you moving in any way possible.

☾ "A routine is important! Let's get up and pick out a cute outfit for you, okay?"

☾ Liu picks out your favorite comfy clothes for you - even if it's just cozier pyjamas, anything is better than those other stinky clothes.

☾ "Well, don't you look precious now! How about we get out some of your toys?"

☾ He'll encourage anything to get you out of bed and will compliment it all to lift those spirits up high!

☾ Loves you, no matter what <3

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Hope it's okay that I did some shorter ones for the fact that I did two characters <3

「 ✦ LITTLE!ZANKA WITH JABBER ✦ 」

Thanks for the ask <3 I'll do my best giving some headcanons!

Probably a CW like last time cause Zankas regression isn't exactly pure.

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♡˗ˏ✎*ೃ˚ Little!Zanka with Jabber Headcanons

☾ First time Jabber saw Zanka acting "different" like this would probably be after a encounter between the cleaners and the raiders where everyone got separated.

☾ Lovely assistaff might even be lost for a moment where Zanka starts to panic.

☾ Zanka starts heaving and hyperventilating, desperately looking through trash upon trash to find her.

☾ Jabber of course cockily starts asking him if "Mr. Bad-Attitude" lost something - but once he realizes that lovely assistaff is missing he quickly shouts up.

☾ Jabber would react similarly if any of mankiras rings got lost somewhere.

☾ Without another word he starts helping Zanka look. Can't have a good fight if his favorite opponent has lost his jinki, right?

☾ "We'll find her, don't ya worry about it. After all, if you don't have her you can't give me that rematch Í've been itching for."

☾ Once lovely assistaff is back on the surface Zanka just... hugs her. eyes wide, crying, having to crouch down.

☾ Jabber just sits with him for a bit, listening to Zanka cry and watching him hug her.

☾ Doesn't say much. He gets it.

☾ "You never truly appreciate something until it seems gone, huh?"

☾ Zanka doesn't really listen - or rather every word sounds like gibberish to him.

☾ Almost loosing lovely assistaff really had given him the push over the edge after an already not so great day.

☾ After he's done crying he just hiccups next to Jabber for a little while, trembling and gripping lovely assistaff.

☾ He's biting his lip so hard it starts bleeding.

☾ "Ay, don't do that - If you wanna hurt someone hurt me."

☾ Yeah, Jabber prefers to be the one receiving the pain. Watching Zanka hurt like that? Less entertaining for him.

☾ "... You should probably alert those cleaner buddies of yours of your position."

☾ Zanka grabs the hem of Jabbers pants as he gets up to leave. Looking down at the trembling mess, Zanka just seems so... different from his usual self. His eyes looked hollow and yet so innocent.

☾ He sits back down with him. If Mr. Bad-Attitude wants some of Jabber of course he'll get it!

☾ "Could have just said you wanted me all to yourself! You know I'd never complain~"

☾ They just sit together, Zanka holding onto Jabber and lovely assistaff, trying to calm himself.

☾ He never wanted to feel anything like comfort around Jabber - but when he just needed him he stayed and didn't change his personality around him.

☾ He felt safe.

☾ After a while, Jabber used Zankas choker for him to alert the other cleaners - as much as he would LOVE to take the guy to the raiders, he'd rather have him calm down in his own home and freshen up for a new fight... <3

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I hope this was okay :o M' a busy busy bee at the moment

「 ✦ REALISTIC LITTLE ZANKA NIJIKU ✦ 」

Mmmm, I started hyperfixating on Gachiakuta and there's barely any agere content so I thought I'd drop some realistic Little!Zanka Nijiku headcanons <3 I'm constantly worried about this mf I swear-

CW(?) for vent-ish thoughts from Zanka from being under so much pressure and involuntary age-regression. I worry about my pookie a lot.

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♡˗ˏ✎*ೃ˚ Little!Zanka Nijiku Headcanons

☾ He hates "being like this".

☾ Would prefer dropping dead on the spot than let anyone else see this side of himself.

☾ Never really got to "just be a kid" and is under constant pressure to perform well and not fail.

☾ Zanka stresses himself out so much, most of the time when he gets to bed he has a mini breakdown and/or a cry.

☾ With all these mini episodes his brain just tries anything to give him any sort of relief from all the pressure he's got on himself.

☾ First time was probably after losing to Jabber the second time whilst he was resting up from all the poisons in his system.

☾ Eishia didn't mind when Zanka went non-verbal for certain periods of time, though she did make sure to let him know that he wasn't alone and no one thought less of him.

☾ Even when his brain gets all fuzzy, Zanka tries to snap out of it and not give in. In his mind, he cannot show any kind of "weakness" like this.

☾ What does his brain do? Slip further. He's in survival mode most of the time and needs any kind of break he can get. If it means that he has to regress deeper than so be it.

☾ And what does Zanka do in this situation? Cry in bed. Just let all the frustrations flow out of his system.

☾ Eishia does not come in if she hears any sobs from outside the room and will wait until Zanka seems to have calmed down. She's more worried about his mental state than anything else.

☾ She decides to do soft small talk with him after this, just telling him about the shenanigans Enjin and the others are up to.

☾ "Rudo bit Enjins hand today after he tried grabbing some sweets from him. Don't worry, he's okay! But I did chuckle when he came to me to get it checked out..."

☾ The small talk at least makes Zanka smile a little bit here and there. She can see the subtle change in his eyes as he quietly looks outside.

☾ Eishia knows that he needs a different kind of help which she doesn't think she can provide, but she also doesn't want to trigger an outburst from Zanka by talking to him about it.

☾ She truly worries a lot about him...

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Honestly, I have so many thoughts on Zankas dynamic combined with age regression that I cannot put everything down here. I might turn it into a fanfic?? At least a oneshot maybe.

「 ✦ CAREGIVER JEFF THE KILLER ✦ 」

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Since I did Laughing Jack before I'll do Jeff instead, I hope that's okay <3

The version of Jeff is based of my own rewrite [work in progress] where his name is Jeffrey redwood. Also happy new years eve/new years everyone! <33

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♡˗ˏ✎*ೃ˚ Caregiver!Jeff the Killer Headcanons

☾ Jeff is unsure at first, but after you explain stuff to him he's alright with it and tries to adjust. Human emotions are something from the past for him so it'll take a while.

☾ Loves throwing you over his shoulder and generally carrying you around.

☾ Loves having you close in general. Will take any chance to grab you, get something for you... or just hold something out of your reach so you have to get closer.

☾ Physical contact is his love language so I hope you love being trapped under him.

☾ Yeah, he's a big teaser.

☾ He adores you just talking to him since he's not much of a yapper himself. He'll listen to you for hours if he could! But it's past your bedtime...

☾ Will sometimes tease you about bedtime or about needing help even when not regressed. Ignore the fact he'll pout when you do it yourself instead of asking him.

☾ Yeah, he said it's past your bedtime - Wanna go for a midnight walk anyways?

☾ Taking you anywhere during the middle of the night is how he shows he cares about you. He's much more vulnerable during that time with you.

☾ Grows very fond of your regression and that you need him during that time, it makes him feel useful.

☾ Someone gives you trouble? He will take care of it. Don't worry about it.

☾ Works best with your regression around the age of 4-6 where you're a bit more independent.

☾ Lowkey scared he's doing stuff wrong when you're younger even if he'd never admit that to you or anyone else.

☾ If you get a gift from him it means that he put every thought into it and didn't just pick something up. He thought of you and thought about if you'd like it or not. Does not just dish out gifts.

☾ Playing with you is more him watching over you while you can yap about whatever you are doing. "Oh really?", "That's interesting.", "Bet your stuffy would loose in a strength test compared to me."

☾ Egging you on is his favorite past time hobby. Going to far where you cry? Best belief you're getting cuddled and given snacks for the rest of the day to apologize without hearing a "sorry".

☾ Yeah, not good with saying sorry.

☾ Will make it up to you still though, you're his Princess/Prince/His highness.

☾ If you play your cards right he will fold under anything you want but if you do it to obviously he'll put you in timeout for thinking you got his manipulation skills.

☾ Less about trying to be cheeky, more about he caught you while doing it.

☾ If you're being a brat do it right.

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I hope these are okay <33 Hope everyone get's a great start into the new year!

I would like to order a fanfic about cg!Eyeless Jack and little!user, where did the user find out that Jack was hunting, something like that..

Thanks for reading! I'll be waiting for your answer)

Sorry, I don't just write fanfics for people <3 At least not without pay or anything.

TW Vent(?), Sad feeling ☾

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Having fictional caregivers is nice and all, they are everything I want them to be and are huge comfort characters for me anyways... but sometimes I want someone real to look at me like I'm the most important person to them. Like I'm the light of their life...

I'm a very lonely person IRL, I have a hard time maintaining relationships/friendships and school is kicking my butt so I'm left with zero energy. It's just a lot and I want someone to take care of me sometimes. I think being a bit 'selfish' in this sense is okay sometimes- I want someone to love me and care for me. Someone who doesn't judge me, who helps me and sees me as their most important Person.

I think my cravings are valid but not being able to change all this in an instant is frustrating.

I take meds to not spiral deeply into dark thoughts and past bad habits so I'd say I'm fine in that department even if I'm moody about it.

It also sucks getting attached to people who show me the smallest amount of affection so fast- It really just hurts over and over again because I know them showing me kindness is just basic human decency, but my body and mind crave affection and attention after such a long amount of time of being lonely.

Hope me rambling about my feelings is fine, just wanna shout it into a void somewhere.

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Hi, sorry for seemingly being so absent ☾ I've been lurking but barley had any time! I'm on autumn break right now and will have the house to myself for a bit so I'm hoping to regress this weekend!

Things have been busy, I've started school back up again and I got my drivers license! I even lost some weight! I'm happy with how life if going at the moment even though I admit I still am a nervous wreck.

Just so everyone knows, my asks are still open [Pretty much always] and I'll answer whenever I find the time, like those Caregiver!Creepypasta asks ☾ I'd also do Little!Creepypasta if anyone is interested.

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I went shopping today since I've been a bit nervous about going outside again and I got myself some little gear again! Since I had thrown out a lot when I was going through my aggression phase it's nice to have a bit more stuff again. I might do a cozy evening today.

I even decorated my pacifier! I wanted to do it for a long time and finally got the stuff I needed for it.

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Btw, anyone know of any agere servers on Discord they can recommend? The last one had closed down after some private stuff with the owner and their family I think and I'd love to connect to people again ☾