a baby

Oopsie 🫣 I had a few accidents 🥺🌧️

trying to verbalize how being into diaper messing doesn’t inherently mean you have a scat kink. the same way there’s a huge variety in piss kinks where some people find the eroticism in the actual pee while others are fixated on the sensations of desperation and humiliation. when a role play element like age play combines with a bodily fluid based kink the entire context is rewritten. do i love diaper pooping and find it ridiculously hot? yes. but it’s not about the poop. i would actually prefer to interact with the poop as little as possible. it’s about the complete surrender to a bodily function, relinquishing control over something most people master very early in life, and allowing yourself to do something so incredibly taboo and liking it. it’s about admitting to yourself you want to mess yourself and you like how it makes you feel. it’s about letting another person see you vulnerable and gross and they still love you and want to care for you. it’s about the feelings of weight and warmth in your erogenous zone making it impossible to ignore what you’ve done. getting to a point where you do it unabashedly and without a second thought, despite decades of hardwiring telling you that it’s the most embarrassing and disgusting thing you could possibly do. i don’t want to interact with the poop outside of my diaper, i like it in there. im desensitized to the cleanup but that doesn’t mean i like it or look forward to the moment i have to do it. it’s so much less about the poop itself and more about the physical sensations and feelings that come with it. do my biggest sexual fantasies involve messing in one way or another? yes. would i say i have a scat kink? no.