Rediscovering Poetry

Because its invisible to the naked eye…

You can’t see its symptoms

And when you do

Its already too late…

Depression is not only a sickness of the mind

It affects our soul the most…

And more than just a psychiatrist

There’s only one I know of who can heal our soul

He’s God. Our Creator. The One who made me & you.

We all go through some darkest time in our lives

At one point or the other, we all do. We all will.

And the important thing is how to get out of it.

When surrounded by darkness, the only way out

Is finding the Light. And there’s only One True Light.

So seek God. Seek Him with all your heart.

He is there, always been from the very start of starts.

We need to know His Love. It should start from within. Recognize that gentle inner voice whispering how much He loves you.

Seek Him.

Reach out to Him.

Hold onto His hand.

Let Him love you.

I see traces of you

In the peculiar way

The sun bends its light

Or how the breeze

Blows lazily by

Or how that red car

Flew annoyingly past

If we are so ill-fated

As you claim

Then why do I see

My entire future

In your very eyes?

In those eyes I see

The tears that’d be shed

This fickle heart swayed

And then broken

Only to be restored

Whole again by you

You who are both

My malady and cure

My addiction and sanity

You who’s mutually

Ice and fire

Perpetually colliding

Yet in harmony

Eternally clashing

Yet in perfect sync

Like an abstract art

Beautiful and

Unique

I am crazy for

Falling into you

And you’re stupid

For taking too long

To notice

All the same, eventually

Our strings are

Carefully being woven

Slowly but surely

Made stronger by both

Love and complications

There is just no escape

No matter how many

Times we try

We can only be made

1.       Nam ji hyun

2.       The fact that this is jcw first romcom

3.       Eun bong hee’s girl power

4.       Nam ji hyun’s taekwando skills

5.       Nam ji hyun’s radiant megawatt smile

6.       Nam ji hyun’s dancing queen skills

7.       How eun bong hee is NEVER your damsel in distress

8.       Eun bong hee’s chic blazer and shorts lawyer fashion

9.       Eun bong hee’s cute and trendy bags

10.   Eun bong hee’s diary

11.   Eun bong hee’s bright yellow luggage

12.   Eun bong hee’s perseverance and unmatched dedication

13.   Eun bong hee’s inspiring road to being a lawyer

14.   How bong hee seamlessly reflects and express my own reaction to every situation she’s in

15.   No ji wook’s smexy Mr. Prosecutor hair style

16.   Jcw irresistible kissable lips

17.   How jcw turn every walking scene into an instant fashion runway

18.   No ji wook the real-life/living anime character

19.   No ji wook’s back view

20.   No ji wook’s side view

21.   No ji wook with his oversized spectacles

22.   No ji wook’s toy collection

23.   No ji wook’s aegyo

24.   No ji wook’s puppy dog eyes

25.   Sweaty no ji wook and eun hyuk

26.   Jibong Uh Jjoo rabbit couple dolls

27.   No ji wook’s house

28.   No ji wook’s house’s interior design

29.   No ji wook the neat freak

30.   No ji wook the master chef

31.   Eun bong hee’s sincerest and purest crush turned love for no ji wook

32.   No ji wook’s sweetest devotion to bong hee

33.   How completely smitten jcw towards njh

34.   How jibong couple can perfectly read each other despite their wanting communication skills

35.   That scene when bong hee was dazed watching njw sleep

36.   That tear-jerker scene when bh said ‘what’s with this breakup emotions’

37.   That scene when bong hee was upgraded from humanity to hostage XD

38.   That scene when njw checked if bong hee was alright after being throat gripped by evil da

39.   When no ji wook said bong hee was messy but pretty

40.   Jcw’s galawang james reid in every single bts with nam ji hyun #jadine #jibong

41.   How Jcw and nam ji hyun are destined to be together in sp

42.   Jcw and njh jiji couple astounding chemistry

43.   Feel good easy breezy atmosphere at the set

44.   Did-they-or-did-they-not scene part 1

45.   Did-they-or-did-they-not scene part 2 on reverse

46.   Jiji couple’s touchy-feely every single bts

47.   Sp director-nim’s laugh

48.   Sp director-nim himself

49.   Sp writer-nim except for the last two weeks X)

50.   Jibong heart-wrenching first kiss #thebestestbestfirstkissever

51.   Jibong’s first kiss’ bts #almost2Mviewsonyt

52.   Jibong kiligity millisecond kiss

53.   Jibong passionate full-circle kiss

54.   Jibong first night together

55.   Jibong hospital kiss

56.   Jibong hospital kiss’ bts

57.   Jibong hugs unlimited

58.   Jcw fluffy lip habit X)

59.   Njw/jcw electric shock gaze towards ebh/njh

60.   How no ji wook is wired to care for bong hee unconditionally

61.   Bong hee is the first to fall in love but ji wook is the one who finds it more difficult to live without bong hee

62.   Eun hyuk and bong hee’s regular consultation

63.   Eun hyuk and bong hee’s bff goals

64.   Eun hyuk’s undaunted devotion towards ji wook

65.   Eun hyuk and ji hae chemistry

66.   Ji hae’s cute and tear-jerker crush towards eun hyuk

67.   Eun hyuk’s double edged laugh

68.   Ceo byun’s fool-proof antics

69.   Ceo byun’s uncanny ability to turn every serious moment into a lighthearted one

70.   Ceo byun being so adorably cute doing household chores

71.   No ji wook’s petty jealousy

72.   Jibong couple cute and hilarious cat fights

73.   Chief bang as the president of jibong otp fandom

74.   Chief bang’s exceptional  investigation skills

75.   Chief bang reflecting jibong otp fans’ reaction for every jibong fluff

76.   Dream team’s pointless meetings

77.   Bong hee successfully proving the wrongfully accused mother/son

78.   Ji hae’s transition from evil/rel’p breaker to real friend

79.   Bong hee and ji hae bonding over their cry fest

80.   Chan ho’s doe eyes

81.   Chan ho’s uncanny resemblance with keannu reeves

82.   Chan ho’s honey voice

83.   Ra.d the same way ost

84.   Cheeze how about you ost

85.   Kim EZ eye contact ost

86.   Bumkey breathing all day ost

87.   Dong ha’s brilliant multiple personality acting

88.   Hyun soo the meticulous and genius villain

89.   Hyun soo the villain we love to hate and love to root for

90.   How bong hee announced the start of their first day as jibong couple

91.   How cute jibong were on their first official day

92.   Ji wook’s tolerance and devotion towards drinking bong hee’s bitter tea

93.   The beautiful balance between fluff and suspense in every episode

94.   Bong hee’s mom

95.   Ji wook’s mom

96.   Jibong’s first date

97.   Ji wook confessing about their rel’p to their moms

98.   Chief bang and eun hyuk’s ‘act surprised’ silliness

99.   Jibong being old school. No sns.

100. Bong hee loves to write in her diary

101. Ji wook loves to listen to classical music

102. Ji wook’s ring necklace gift to bong hee

103. Ji wook winning the rabbit doll at the claw machine #possiblytheonlytimehewon

104. Jibong bicycle date at the park

105. Jibong holding hands

106. Uber cute jae hong the harry potter kid

107. Silly initial reaction of ji wook towards jae hong

108. Ji wook / jae hong father-son moment

109. Ji wook’s long over-due confession to bong hee

110. Explosive first meeting at the subway

111. Hoping for a wedding scene

You are a cloud of blank canvass in my cerulean sky

Dazzling in your speckled calypso hues

Sometimes a shocking fiery nymph or moody grey

Other times a playful rainbow unicorn

Alas here lies the paradox of us

You would only remain hovering in my periphery

And I, your distant indifferent spectator

To gaze at you up-close and be a part of my tapestry

Is a growing effervescent futile possibility

However I shall continue on being blest

For there are no unbearable pain nor tears

No unnecessary foolishness and fears

This freedom, this core intact and unbroken

My virtue ceaselessly uncharted and foreign

Now the sun has set 

Its time to bid adieu

I’ll see you again 

HOMAGE TO MOON LOVERS SCARLET HEART: RYEO

Wandering through this netherland

Anywhere I’m surrounded

By our shattered memories

I saw a child just awhile back

As she bumped into me and our eyes locked

She resembled you so strikingly

The encounter made my heart both

Overjoyed and in pure agony

So much that I want to explode

Sifting through the blinding light

Is the bright sun mocking me?

How cruel, what hypocrisy

And how is everything so fiery?

When all that’s inside me are nothing but

Decay. Anguish . Gloom.

Because you, you have finally left me

Ha! With so much haste and utter viciousness

You dealt me with a single blow

Ah… the rain has finally come

To console me as it gently cleanses

My matted and murky soul

But why ever should I complain?

I have not a single right

Because I, I was the reason you left

Knowing it could never be

I still forced my way into your life

Into your light, into your heart

Because in you and with you

Is a world of feelings and passion

That can never be explained 

An exquisite realm filled with

The purest smile and sweet confessions

Unbridled by any indecisions

But how can a love be so true

Yet so impossible to hold

So pure yet so excruciating to fight for

We met in an unfortunate time

So in order to save you, I had to break us

Thoroughly sans regret, sans remorse

And so I lay here in this darkness

Adrift. Alone. Afraid.

Forever wanting to hold you

Though inside I still fight

With much determination

To keep our hope alive no matter how futile

To hold on to the genuineness

And purity of our love, that ultimately

In another time and space, we will be

A world where society is not as cruel

The challenges are more surmountable

And the repercussions less brutal

A place where our love can be free

Free to roam and explore the extent

Of its strength and beauty

A time when we can be uninhibited

In our splendored expressions

Of our love and passion

Without judgment

Without malice

Only richness. Only love.

And so in this abyss that separate us

I will wait in trust and in silence

As I prepare and heal myself anew

Stay resilient for whence we’ll be together

Until then my love,

FIRESTORM NJW

Our story is nothing short of destiny

Two divergent axes colliding

To share one revolution

A spark of argument

To ignite a brewing ember

From then on you conscientiously

Feed me with manifold nuances

From simple touches such as

A special smile, a cup of water

A pat in the head, a gentle reminder

To monumental heroic gestures:

Saving me from absolute despair

Chasing away my fears and

Serving me like your Queen

With devotion. Reverence. Tenderness.

Towards the punishing world around me

I exude a tough and hardened shell

Yet with you I have exposed my

Complex and stained vulnerabilities

Like a foolish child and excited puppy

So what choice have I indeed

But to be entirely consumed

By this encompassing madness

I am caught dead center in the eye

Of your emerging Firestorm

And one stroke of apprehension

Was all it took for me to confess what

My mind and heart has been screaming

Unbidden. Unplanned. Uncontrolled.

Juwahe-yo……

In the aftermath of your

Bitter cold denial and rejection

I tried my hardest to douse you

With tears that has occupied my body

Yet the firestorm of you kept raging on… 

Cruelty level # 1

You shamelessly display

Your fondness of me

Like a natural reflex

A part of your grown habit

Cruelty level # 2

After rendering me defenseless

With your smoldering gaze

You dare to request of me to be

Your human sleeping pill

Cruelty level # 3

Regretting how distant I have become

You then try to joke around

Forcing me to smile for you

Something I no longer easily give away

Cruelty level # 4

Only hours b/w level 3

You then overturn me with another blow

Fighting my war against the dragon

Conflicting my already muddled emotions

Now here I am trapped again

In your strong embrace

While my heart and body waste away

My mind and soul are screaming in agony

Where exactly do you want me to stand? 

And with one swift move

You reverse everything and seal

The war inside with a passionate kiss

That’d either lift me straight up to Nirvana

Or obliterate me to nothingness.