Worry ends where faith begins.

Sam looking forward to seeing Cait in the kilt, and not being very subtle about it. And Cait giving Sam the “you would like that wouldn’t ya” flirty smirk.

A total no-no for two people who are in relationships with other people. But completely normal for two people who are in a relationship with each other. 😁❤🚢🚢🚢🚢🚢🚢🚢🚢🚢🚢

she is a fucking liar who lie and doesn't remember what she said in the past. it's hard to keep track when you lie you know. that interview is such bullshit again. first I had to laugh at this.

Why we never have fanpic or stories then? lool smh you wished cait.

Then this

she never created or launched Model alliance with Sara. she was a support but that's it. way to steal your friend work...

and then the best part. Now she knew maestro before OL lool sureee jaaannnn. we have multiple proof it's a lie.

she said multiple times at the beginning of OL she was single that it would have been difficult to have a bf at that time. Before OL her last bf was Jamie. also she said in Margaret gardiner podcast in November 2018 that the trip was supposed to be with her brother, his wife and Donal. finally she said she met love because of OL so how could you met him if you knew the guy before the show? lol such liars.

FFS, does she ever listen to herself? Does she think this is funny?

1)  Who watches their platonic coworker’s cat to the point they sleep in THEIR bed, with the cat following and tracking their buddy’s marathon stats?  (This is a CAT; NOT EVEN A DOG). 

2)  This is still the cat who bit Ollie when he tried to care for her.   The only person who has had this cat in bed and petted it was one of Caitriona’s best friends and a roommate.

3) Really.  Who DOES disturb their cat’s life to the point they bring it to a hotel for location filming rather than leaving it with their “spouse?”

4)  Why did Sam answer the question for Caitriona when the journalist asked them during S2 promo where was Eddie and who was watching her?  (Did he forget just who actually Eddie belonged to?)  I’m being serious here……..

5)  As a friend just reminded me, why did Sam say they should just film the outdoor scenes of OL in Caitriona’s backyard so Eddie wouldn’t be a concern (why would that work out for Sam)?

This was Sam‘s answer to a worried fan, early 2015. Cait wasn‘t mentioned in the question. So he specifically stated that Cait was the one who was „keeping me right“ at the time. (*whispers* this happened around Paley, where Sam said „I love you“ to Cait and kept hugging and kissing her on the cheek and forehead, on fucking stage, remember?)

Two years later - February 2017:

Both of them stated that Cait is the one who keeps Sam healthy (or trying to, lol!). Nothing has changed.

I allowed myself some time to think. To let it sink in. And then I wrote a long post, laying out my feelings about what has happened over the weekend. It was ugly. I meant every word. But then I realised I’ll achieve nothing by posting it. 

So this is all that I’ll say about it.

I’m done. I can’t do this anymore. I always refused to play their games but this is a whole new level of fucked up and I just can’t. Real wedding, fake wedding, not a wedding, someone else’s wedding, I don’t care. Because whichever version is real, they are playing with us. It’s all a game to them. You are either private or you are not. What we’ve seen was neither. One post. Coming from her. Maybe just a pic of the rings. “I’m married, I love him, please respect our privacy”. Others do it. It’s so easy. It’s so real. It’s still private. That’s all it would took. She owns the people who supported her all these years at least that. Especially after she hijacked promo for the show with her engagment. And you know what, I would respect her for that. Too late now. They missed the window of genuineness. Instead everyone else is doing the dirty work for her. Again. After this performance she can’t claim privacy anymore. They want us to think she got married. They were leading us here for months. It doesn’t matter whether it’s true or not because it’s fucked up in either case.

All of this bullshit could be over after IFH. Hell, even before that. But they had to play games, didn’t they?

It’s so easy to blame shippers for not believing them. Because there has never been a rumoured couple that denied it, only to turn up to be real. Oh wait, there were. One lied to his own mother about it. One just recently got married and announced it with a simple IG post. Wow, what a concept. Sharing without giving up privacy. What we’ve got? The biggest campaign in the history to convince people 2 minor celebrities are not together. It’s ironic. It was the denials that made people even more sure they are lying. Because it wasn’t normal. The constant attacks on shippers by people who have no business of doing that, the staged sightings, leaving breadcrumbs on sm so obvious you could see them from Neptun, stories in tabloids that read like checking off the list of shipper complains, the pushback everytime something that didn’t fit in the narrative happened. How can anyone look back at that and think “That’s normal.”? Only people who have something to hide use so much energy on denying it. And that’s the problem, isn’t it. She was so busy with convincing us she isn’t with Sam that she forgot to convince us she is with this man. I know, she didn’t have to. But if you don’t try, don’t be surprised when people don’t believe you.

So for me what it comes down to is this. I don’t buy it. That relationship. I don’t know what it is but I don’t believe it’s what they want us to think. I haven’t seen anything that would make me believe that it is. Sorry. I tried. I want to believe it, it would be so much easier, but I don’t. Yes, looks like she really married him. Yet I still don’t buy it. No, I’m not in denial. I am more than capable of admitting being wrong. And to be honest, there is a huge part of me that hopes it is real. I could still change my mind. But right now I just don’t think it is real and that belief has nothing to do with Sam and everything to do with that creepy man. They had over 4 years to convince me. They failed every time. The engagement was shady as fuck, the wedding was even worse. It wasn’t private. It was a game. Real life doesn’t need games. 

And if it is real… I cannot even begin to wrap my brains around just how fucked up it is for everyone involved. 

Does this make me crazy and delusional? Probably. Doesn’t matter. I’m done. Some pieces are from one box, some from the other. None give the full picture. After 5 years, I’m simply sick and tired of puzzles. Real, fake, distraction, whatever. I just don’t care anymore because the result is the same. They are playing with us. Always have. And they are all fucking sick cowards. 

They could be a power couple. Together or not. Instead they took the magic away because they couldn’t handle that some people believed they were more. I hope it was worth it.

I’m not leaving. I’m done with this whole bullshit but I still love the story and the book is coming, hopefully very soon. I need a dose of a good, real JC stuff. And fanfiction is too good to miss out on. I don’t know about the show. I can’t look at them right now and I don’t have any hopes for s5. Not with that stick so far up someone’s arse. For now my only hope is that I could one day watch first 3 seasons without feeling rage over everything that happened in this hell hole, not just SC saga. 

Sam… Sigh. I remain his fan, like a fool that I am. Let’s just say I have a good reason for that. I’ve put that on hold for now, but I’ll be back at one point. Or maybe not. I never thought I would get to this point. So who knows.

Balfe…I never was a big fan of hers to begin with. Most of it was tied to the ship, the rest was lost along the way. So now there is nothing left. I mourn that. I really do.

I truly envy those of you who can just shrug and move on. I can’t forget. I never ever forgive.

Just 2 little things to add.

- Sam’s fist in her bed. There is absolutely nothing that can convince me that wasn’t him. Nothing. Explain that.

- “Caitriona Balfe and her Sam“. Some of you from pre IFH time will remember this story. I never took it as a proof of relationship but it showed me the state of Balfe’s mind. And the creep was already in the picture by then, so…

Ok, this is it. That’s all I have to say. And now I’m done.

This post isn’t meant for discussion of any kind, on any point. I simply shared my thoughts and believes. Do not try to engage with me about it. I’m not interested. And I know how to use the block button.

“I feel very lucky to have you as a partner. Every day.” - Caitriona Balfe

“One of the fun things, even though I absolutely dreaded it, was Turtle Soup. Just because it’s kind of ridiculous and fun to do something drunk. And Sam was sort of telling me it was a little too close to home. He’s seen me after a few drinks. Um, but…not the rest of the stuff, just the drunk Caitriona!”

Oh, really? The funny thing is that a quick rewatch of the scene shows that all the drunk parts are sex related. The drunk Claire, who was apperantly behaving so astonishingly like the drunk Caitriona that Sam felt inclined to make a remark about her performance being too close to home, is basically a horny puddle of lust. She starts slurring her words a bit during the short part before she starts coming on to her hubby, but the drunk acting begins after Claire gives herself the shot. If anyone needs a reminder:

[The scene starts with a brief exchange between Jamie and Claire about typhoid and antibiotics, Jamie being being unable to “stab ye in the arse wi’ this” and Claire giving herself the shot. She’s getting increasingly tipsy towards the end of this part, then the drunk acting begins.]

Jamie [while Claire is giving him butterfly kisses]: You…should…keep…your strength…up!

Claire [takes another spoonful of soup]: Hmm. What kind of soup is this?

Jamie: Oh, turtle. Manzetti took a large hawkbill last night. Willoughby wasted no time putting it in the pot.

Claire: I’ve never had turtle before. You know…turtle is supposed to be an aphrodisiac. 

Jamie: That is very bawdy for a respectable married woman…

Claire: What do you mean? I’m respectable!

Jamie: Are ye now? Sitting there wi’ yer hair loose, and yer nipples starin’ me in the eye, the size of cherries.

Claire: Well…it’s nothing you haven’t seen before. [Clumsily climbs on top of the table] Bolt. The Door.

Jamie: Bolt the door? Why would I do that? Do I look like the sort of man who would take advantage of a woman that’s not only wounded and boilin’ with fever but drunk as well? [laughs, amused; Eskimo kisses]

Claire [swaying]: I’m not drunk! [chuckles] You can’t get drunk on turtle soup.

Jamie: Oh, ye can if it’s Willoughby’s turtle soup. By the smell of it, there’s a whole bottle of sherry in it! [more kisses]

Claire: Besides, you once told me that you can’t be drunk if you’re standing up. [falls into Jamie’s arms, giggling]

Jamie: Aye…but you are hardly standing up!

Claire: [kisses, and more kisses] Stop trying to change the subject.

Jamie: [more kisses] And ye will stop talking about it. Because I wouldna use force on a woman. [Claire grabs his crown jewels] But ye do have a very healthy grip for someone wi’ a fever. [more kissing] No…it would hurt yer arm… [more kisses]

Claire: Let me worry about my arm. [kisses]

Jamie: This must be what it’s like making love in hell - mmhh!! Wi’ a burnin’ she-devil! [kissing, door bolting, undressing, humping, the rest is history]

So…I don’t know about you guys, but I’ve always loved this scene, not only for its entertainment potential but especially because it seems authentic and lovely. The drunk acting isn’t over the top, she really looks like a tipsy and then full on drunk person - and a verra horny one at that, hehe. And even though I’ve never been one to see Sam, the actor, in Jamie, the character, I have to admit that I’ve always thought Sam was shining through in this scene, especially his highly amused face right before and after the Eskimo kiss with Claire on the table.