Lilith Noah

loving you is all-consuming

my heart still flutters when

i see your name on my phone

or your face.

loving you is as easy as breathing

the most natural thing to me.

loving you fills me up

from my toes to my brain

with wonder.

our lips have known each other for a while now

i know every crease

on your skin

it's seconds of heaven on earth

because

i don't know when to stop giving.

do you have a piece of me already?

no?

today's the day, buy one,

get one for free.

i've donated a pice of me to charity

and my soul to you.

take it please

is it my fault that there's a

river running through me?

sometimes there's a flood after heavy rain

and the water washes through with

the force of a thousand men

and sometimes it drys out

brown dusty drought

there's nothing i can do

about these forces of nature.

am i a snake with my intestines

trailing behind me?

am i a bird with my wings cut off

feathers raining down like snow

stomp on me all you want

cut tear rip

me apart

i do it all the time, anyways

i've become soft as a cloud

churchbells ringing and they echo

in the valley, between mountains covered

in snow.

it smells like grass and cows and

forests and summer

and calm, fresh water.

here the floor cracks with every step you make

and the wind is whispering poems

in the old wooden attic

and as i'm whispering along i feel like

i tried to show you how much i

love you

by giving you roses with the thorns cut off

so you would never ever

get hurt.

i hugged you and wrapped you in

bubble wrap

and accidentally suffocated you inside.

now i've got nothing but an unhurt, unscarred

the curtains please?

i don't feel so

comfortable

with everyone peaking inside.

can you shut the blinds please

because i'm turning

into a pillar of salt

underneath every gaze.

can you close the door please

because i can't let a single crack

constantly

on my mind

it's sometimes bad but

mostly good

the way my brain loves you

clings to you

yes i am clingy.

it's sometimes bad but

out to you

i need to be filled up again

with secrets, forbidden words

but this radio silence

keeps me asking for more

because this hole in my chest

emptied of my feelings

you love me

like one loves sundays

or a cool beer

you love me like

one loves a good nights sleep.

but i, oh i

love you like a golden sunset

like the warmth of a fire

i love you like i love coming home.

but maybe i was the reason

you started to heal yourself

just like an earthquake can start a tsunami

(you're the tsunami in this one

tall, fascinating and terrifying)

i hope that we never stop

i want to call you mine again

while we hold each other tight

but not so tight that

i might crush your delicate bones

i want to call you mine again

like i did before

but i don't want to cage you

bird set free

i hope you'll call me yours again someday

and that's when

i am white. i am privileged. i will never understand the struggle. but i stand with you

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