ahahah tried to apply for repayment assistance but osap is like i need to prove my disability expenses first and give them receipts for all my rxs first

I’m just looking at the form trying to figure out where the section is where i tell them I can’t afford my meds and rent so currently i have no disability expenses 

I also told my partner that i’ve been off my meds for a while now because of money and they didnt seem to take it that well. like at least they aren’t really expecting me to go back on them, but idk

god its such a pain though, like im on trillium, but i have to spend like $500 deductible on meds before the government will start covering me and like once that kicks in i’ll be fine, but in the meantime one month of meds is about $240 and like how do i pay that???? thats like my entire paycheque (so like 2 weeks worth of work) and i still have rent and utilities to pay on top of that and just ????????

i mean i guess i just have to put up with the mood swings and feeling really shitty all the time and constant anxiety and suicidal thoughts in exchange for having a roof over my head????

I mean i do have about a month and a half worth of meds in my room right now, but i want to save those for once my hallucinations come back since once those come back i wont be able to function well at all. like right now i can still function like a normal person, but once i start hearing things and seeing bugs everywhere it’s a lot tougher to pass as neurotypical.