Emily ♡

On a Wednesday in a cafe ✨ ᴮᵘᵗ ᵒⁿ ᵃ ᵀᵘᵉˢᵈᵃʸ

the set point is range of about 10 lbs where your body is in an energy balanced state, and it will fight to stay in that range. if you’re below it, you’ll gain easily; if you’re above it (in our culture this is rare except in certain weight specific sports) you’ll lose easily. 

so if for example i say that calories in excess of your energy needs would never go “straight to your thighs”, but would be burned off by processes like non-exercise activity thermogenesis, and you think “well i know from experience that if i eat more i gain weight”, you’re very likely under your body’s set point weight, and probably in an energy deficit. 

weight suppression can work in the short term, but in the long term all of your metabolic pathways will coordinate to pull your body back up to its set point range.

The National Weight Control Registry purports to study successful long term weight loss (15kg for over a year) in a large sample size, but its actual success rate is far worse than the standard 5% estimated in most literature… significant weight loss was maintained by their subjects for over a year at a rate of .001%. 

The data also show that even in “successful” one year cases, 2/3 of the lost weight is regained within 2 years, and all of it has been regained within 5 years.

Two years ago today I attempted to take my own life. I was in hospital, incredibly poorly for the next 6 days following this while doctors worked so very hard to ensure i would survive with minimal damage to my body. Today is an incredibly difficult day for me because i know how much i was hurting and how much my family was broken by the choice I had made.

My best friend anya ( @thelluckyonee ) was beyond amazing and stayed with me despite how difficult this must have been for her as-well. While many of my friends no longer wanted anything to do with me, you stayed 💗 and I love you so much for that.

I still struggle with my mental health but I can manage it, I can cope with difficult situations and my life is no longer controlled by mental illness. I am so glad I am alive today to be able to witness this amazing era beginning to unfold, I’m so thankful I’m not in that place I was two years ago. I now have an offer to study child nursing at the top 3rd university for nursing in the UK, I am starting a job in a nursing home within the next few weeks and my 2 years at college are coming to an end and I’m about to take my A levels. I never imagined any of these things would ever happen. But here I am, I made it. My broken bones are mending ✨🦋

Taylor, your strength and resilience really inspired me. I owe you such a big thank you because you’re one of the reasons why I went to the hospital appointments, why I got up in the morning every day, why I persevered through the pain, why I got the help and support I needed and why I am still alive today. Two years later, I’m doing better than I ever was 💗

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Raising awareness about mental illness, suicide, self harm, eating disorders, anxiety, depression, PTSD, addiction and personality disorders is so so important in order to be able to recognise the signs and symptoms of these conditions so that many lives can be saved.

So ask your friends and family how they are, if they show signs of distress or have actually told you how they’re feeling DO NOT IGNORE IT. Speak to them, support them and help them find the help they need.

Meant just for you

Time moved too fast

You played it back

Buttons on a coat

Light hearted joke

No proof not much

But you saw enough

Small talk, he drives

Coffee at midnight, the light reflects

The chain on your neck

He says look up

And your shoulders brush

No proof, one touch

You felt enough

You can hear it in the silence, silence, you

You can feel it on the way home, way home, you

You can see it with the lights out, lights out

You are in love, true love

You are in love

Morning, his place

Burnt toast, Sunday

You keep his shirt

He keeps his word

And for once you let go

Of your fears and your ghosts

One step, not much, but it said enough

You kissed on sidewalks

You fight and you talk

One night he wakes, strange look on his face

Pauses, then says, you’re my best friend

And you knew what it was, he is in love

You can hear it in the silence, silence, you

You can feel it on the way home, way home, you

You can see it with the lights out, lights out

You are in love, true love

So it goes

You two are dancing in a snow globe, go round and round

And he keeps the picture of you in his office downtown

You understand now why they lost their minds and fought the wars

And why I’ve spent my whole life try to put it into words

‘Cause you can hear in the silence

You can feel it on the way home

You can see it with the lights out

You are in love, true love

You’re in love

You can hear it in the silence, silence, you

You can feel it on the way home, way home, you

You can see it with the lights out, lights out

You are in love, true love

You’re in love

You can hear it in the silence, silence, you

You can feel it on the way home, way home, you

You can see it with the lights out, lights out

You are in love, true love

You’re in love