Life Talisman

I miss you daddy

He’ll never hold my hand again.

He’ll never hold me in his arms again.

I’ll never hear his voice over the phone again.

I’ll never see his worried face when I came home late again.

I know that after a while I‘ll feel better than now.

Not because I accepted his absence, as he’s always there with me.

But I’ll get used to the pain.

Rest in peace daddy.

DADDY…

They think that when I say “I’m all right”, that I am

They think that when I stop crying, that I forget

Well, nothing is all right. Nothing will never stop the pain inside.

Nothing will be the same again.

He died and nothing will change that.

He left our world, left me alone.

But I can remember his sweet smile.

I can see his comforting eyes.

I can still feel his arms…

Did you know this?!!

A beautiful theory stopped me a lot.

If the order of the alphabet is as follows: A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z

THEN Their numerical order is as follows: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26

If every letter in the language is given weight according to its alphabetical order, for example, the first letter A is a weight equal to 1, and the…

I love you

I love the way you stand,

when everything is collapsing around you.

I love your optimistic view of life,

no matter what you are going through .

I love the way you hold me tight,

when I am crying hard.

I love it when you say it’s going to be ok,

even if I know you are just saying that to comfort me.

I Love you, when you give me advices,

even when you know…

Words help you express your love

Words help you to ease the pain

A million of them can be replaced by a single touch…yes

Words can be powerful if they came out at the wrong time

or the right one?

Words can change your mood completely

Words can make your heart skip a beat

Your name has this power on me

I hear it or see it and my mood changes for better or for worth

It…

I Fell in Love with a Star

Once I fell in love with a star

It was near to me, but still too far

It was shining brightly in the sky

Anyone can recognize it, it’s not very hard

I used to talk to it all night long

But it did not talk back to me or respond

I spent years longing to reach it

But one day, I looked around and  it was gone

I told myself maybe it’s life, no more

It  takes away what…

Will I LIVE before I DIE??

Meeting new people

Seeing new places

Changing your world

Sharing secrets with your best friend

Falling down

Rising up from the ground

Having a chance to start all over again

Falling in love

Breaking up

Loving without hope

Feeling the first touch from the one you love

Enjoying your first kiss, even if it was not that good

Dressing for your wedding day

Take my Breath Away (2013)

Inhale…Exhale…Inhale…Exhale…

Have you ever thought about the gift of breathing?

I never thought how hard it could be to take our breath and live.

Never appreciate how precious that is, I always thought it was easy.

Until I started to keep track of my breaths when I am with you.

I realized that when we are together, you take my breath away.

Discovering that I was busy…

Do not Stop Your Life!!!

Is marriage a choice? A serious dilemma that most of the people suffer from.

Young girls had grown up on the fact that after they finish their studies, majors or whatever path of education they chose, eventually, the next step would be finding the right man – if they did not think about that during their educational phase. Why? did anyone ask herself before?

Well, since ancient times,…

Entrapped inside of myself, can’t find the way out

Darkness surrounds me and pulls me to the ground

Is there an exit or I am just fouling myself around

Loneliness chains around me are unbreakable

I am trying here but they are unshakable

Darkness all over me even when my eyes are open

Turning me to a silent statue that is cold and frozen

Creeping around to find a salvation

Have you ever thought about your senses and how they are important to you?

All that you can say is that they are very important to our life and body... blah blah blah but I were not talking about their significance to your life or your body, on the contrary, my question was targeting your souls.  Let me assure you that our souls need every sense we have and let me prove it to you.

Our sight captures every beautiful picture that crosses our eyes. It saves the beauty in our mind to recall it when we need a memory for what we felt in that place. The memory does not rely on the place and its beauty, it relies on how it touched our souls, what we felt while we were there.

Hearing a great song that touches the heart, sharing it with your beloved ones, singing it very often that it became carved inside your mind and when you accidentally hear it after a long time all the memories come back alive. The song we heard is not the memory but how it made us feel. I had a special song for each of my boyfriends - those I had all my life, each one reminds me of the one I heard the song with him. :)

Tasting a delicious ice-cream that you shared with your best friend after school. Its taste lasts on your tongue like forever. When you eat it one more time you can remember everything like it was yesterday. It’s not the ice-cream taste that holds the memory, it’s who you eat it with and how was your soul then.

The first touch from the one you love. How you felt back then and how your mind and soul captures the feeling like it would slip away any minute and you cherish it for a lifetime. Remembering it makes you feel like you were touched this exact moment and you feel your soul freshened as if your back again with him.

Smelling is my favorite sense... yes smelling. You can’t explain this sense at all. You smell something and it can put you in a bad mood or a good mood. My boyfriend used to wear one of ARMANI perfumes- I don't remember the name - but whenever I smell it, I remember all the old good days, the bad times and the breakup.... it all comes back to me as if I was reliving all the story all over again. It can change my mood from bad to good and vice versa. When I smell it my brain stops working as if to tell me to stop, to think over, you had lived with that smell the good and the bad times but now it no longer exists in your life – he is gone. His smell is still carved in my mind but I guess he used it to cover his decayed soul.

"Perfume is a disguise. Since the middle ages, we have worn masks of fruit and flowers in order to conceal from ourselves the meaty essence of our humanity." - TomRobbins, Wild Ducks Flying Backward.

Every girl has a sparkling star in her life, someone that she loves so much but still, she is a competition no matter what she does or how deep is their love. She is that one to me. My eldest sister, my idol, my soul mate, my adviser, nearly my everything but yet she is my sparkling star.

She is an adorable person, the one you see her and fall in love with her right away. She helps everyone and does not hesitate to sacrifice all her time and resources for you if you need her. Moreover, she can dedicate people for your help, if she can. The kind of person who is smart, intelligent and gives you the best and righteous advice. She is a talkative person who mesmerizes you with her words. She is always the center of attention in everything or everywhere and that bothers me like hell.

On the contrary, I am a quiet peaceful person who likes to stay alone most of the time. Do not like talking a lot, but at the same time sociable and sweet. I love everyone and do not hate anyone no matter what they do. I give the people who hurt me a million reasons for their behavior. My friends love me and believe that I am the best friend and sister they can get. And when I say that, the theory is applied to both girls and boys.

During our teen-aging time, she was the beautiful girl who had a great body and a beautiful face, while I was the sweet girl who was a little bit chubby - no perfect body if you know what I mean- and wearing glasses which I used to hate them so much. As a result of this, she had like a million admirer who was charmed by her and I was the one who falls in love with million guys but in imagination only. She had a boyfriend and I had guys who I love secretly and have no guts to admit it to them. Yes... I envied her and felt that I was not enough to those around me. No matter how I felt or what I do; I will always be the best friend and nothing more.

Accordingly, like many teenage girls who feel that they are never enough as they are, I tried to search inside of me for anything that makes me special, something differentiate me. In other words, I started to focus on me and going to college helps with that. I started to know different people - who does not know my sparkling sister, and I started to sparkle in my own environment. Eventually, when my friends knew her she was only the sister of a sociable sparkling character - which is me, so it was natural phenomena. 

Finally, we grew up, and I ignored the envious feeling, as I saw what really inside of me, focused on developing myself without comparing with anyone and believed in who I am even if I do not sparkle that much. I did not try to sparkle in any way but sooner or later I found myself sparkling in my own way.