R P F steгmα nd st1nny brainrot with some nonsense yapping. // minors and non r p f DNI !!!! and pleasee don't reblog from here if you interact with non sicko side // In love with Str, j and v1nny. // Str is my beautiful wife
Oh man, this is actually a big question that is kinda tough to answer if you think about it... Like it depends on what you already know! But I can try to share some of the things that we know about my boy for sure :3
So let's see. Str is half a decade younger than J. They met in person for the first time when Str was a lanky 19? 20? year old twig, had messy hair, acne and awkward shaky voice. He's 6'2. He has very beautiful green eyes. He doesn't have a driver's license. He has a sweet tooth, and doesn't like the taste of coffee.
He's bipolar, and got diagnosed kinda recently; in summer of 2023, soon after his Vegas visit. He started taking meds at the start of 2024. He used to be a fragile waifish twink, him having his thicc thighs has been a thing in more recent years. He used to be quite shy. He's from NJ, lived in Boston and now has been living in Texas for around 7 years. He doesn't drink alcohol (not really abstinent, he drank on someones birthday once or twice but said "he didn't drink in forever" he just sees no point since it makes him sleepy I believe) He doesn't smoke, he doesn't do drugs (and he whines about being purposely drug-free). Despite trying to look like he doesn't mind, he lowkey doesn't like being 'chunky' that much and wants to loose some weight. Like I said he was a skinny twink mostly, but he was a bit "chunky" for a bit somewhere between 2013-2016. He goes to the gym once a week. He snores. He has crooked bottom teeth. He likes breakfast foods. He can be very sassy and spicy. He LOVES being a brat. He's an actual real life tsundere. Under the sass he is a way sweeter boy than people give him credit for, he has a big loving heart that shines through :). He watches drag queen videos (and tries to pretend that he doesn't). He unironically likes color pink. He sleeps in a separate room than his wife. He's a nerd. He's allergic to cats and some type of common grass. He often experiences insomnia. Sometimes he hugs a pillow in his sleep. He still remembers J's Boston house like the back of his hand.
He's very self deprecating. He can be very moody and abrasive. He's often very opinionated. He's certainly depressed. He likes ping pong, used to play it a lot (didn't lately cause the ping pong place is kinda far for him now I think) it's the only sport he follows afaik. He drew, had OC's. In school he was an emo teen and a DA kid. At that time he had a boyfriend that also drew and posted art there, and Str wanted to take his last name. Soon after they broke up he met AshI3 on DA. They've been in a relationship since and got married in 2016. He's a high school dropout. His parents are divorced. He's a DnD rp nerd. He likes tarot. He loves to tease and bully people he likes. (look: him hitting J with a pillow and a paper tube and giggling about it, calling him an idiot with a big grin, constant sass) He tries to be somewhat private but shows much more of himself and his feelings than he means to. He's just a sad lil puppy. He takes very long breaks from it, but he still draws.
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True true true🥰... I've been thinking about that when watching that stream, and when both J and Str were talking about it happening beforehand. Str being the only one to indulge him because he just loves him so much (and doing so over and over again, with him playing demon souls and the casino game for him he really is #jrmaspartner..) tracks... that's his spouse! And he took it seriously.. all those important impactful picks and among them his memories of having fun with J in them...ouough;; they really are bonded into each others lives, forever
And I thought about how J insisted that Str in particular does the list, each time saying how it is a kind of "recipe for you"... thinking about how even after all these years he is still fascinated by his boy and trying to understand what is going on in his head :3 Str is still a mystery to him in a way, even tho at the same time he knows so much of him so well, on almost subconscious level and can exactly predict what he's going to say or what joke he's going to make often... and he watched the whole thing, paced around the room all serious about it! Called his boy when he cried for help! Str indulges him cause he loves him so much J bothers him for those things cause he loves him so much THEY ARE IN LOVE!!!
I have! it's becoming more and more SUS....... first the sus song some days ago, and now this, with the f slur pass moment recently it really does kinda feel like... he's sloowly inching to coming out I FEEL IT TOO...
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i already posted this separately bc it's a bombshell, but here it is again
she knows for real... like i am not surprised at all but i never expected to get this much confirmation. and i haven't even looked much into the ni1chts account yet... afraid to see what else i'll find between them. and excited :3
here's some of ashley being a freak :D
hehe :)... she loves blood :3333 thinking thinking thinking.. im really excited to go through her account more too..
fag.... ashley is also in this comment section so like. she definitely knew.. never mind her drawing his male ocs in speedos for him.. (also thinking of this in the context of her drawing strma art.......... ugh) if only we had any of these :')
"kill everything with hugs and tounge kissing" :))
boob action >:)
cocky :)
im curious about this :) does anyone know how long he's had gout?
not much context is given for this (post just says i miss my bf) so.. 👀👀
cute :(
other stuff:
continuing from last post, more stuff from ni1chts on wayback machine
more of him flirting with friends.. hehe
interests include LOVE :) cute
this was one of his old pfps too, which his friend made :3 cute.. also of his oc ghost, which will come up more later :3
this has def already been posted here before but i don't think on my posts... his gender was set to female for a while :3
i think by the time we went discovered choob, this post was deleted, but this was archived in 2015.. which means he had a direct link to choob on his public account well into his yt career.. wild. like it is very far back in his profile comments but still 😭
also still on his account in 2015, boyfriend mention :( i wish we could see the handmade shirts too.. cute :(
:3 and :0!!!
:((... wondering if this was a hs friend, but i couldn't find any info on their account
:mewhen:.....
someone is projecting :)) handcuffed and taken to a mental hospital... i wonder if he landed himself in there thru a wellness check :))
more stepdad stuff :).. hmm.... :) really makes u think
this can be slightly explained by this being her message signature (on an unrelated post)
regardless. nuts. ashley's gotta be pegging him. if they even have sex LOL
ily for ashley :3
hm..........
another ashley mention + old ni1chts pfp :3 (also i think the animation in this was broken unfortunately)
he was streaming in 2009 :0 likely the account that he did his first streams on that only his friends watched :3 which he brought up recently hehe. it was https://www.livestream.com/niichts, which doesn't exist anymore + nothing was archived :(
something about this is very sad to me :( "the rejected one that doesn't know he's supposed to be changing colors" ... just like my ch00belette :( frown
this was a major one i already posted previously, but ashley does know about this previous account.. which makes it likely that she also knows about the ch00b account. which means... :))).. rubs hands evilly
i like ketchup murder :) "this is a gay long responce" cute :P also wanted to note that str is not out on this account at all, or maybe didn't realize he was gay yet.. frown. no interactions with jin either
steva saaarg'es :P more proof that this is him ig lol
another previous old username.. i couldn't find anything with this username but also i didn't look too hard, so this is another thing i'll look into more in the future..
and this is a conversation with fangfingers. which happens very frequently on this account! gee, i wonder if this will come up in the future. stares at you with my big traumatized eyes. "i could attempt to help you out or something because you're you." blinks my humongous bloodshot traumatized eyes at you.
. actually. let me go back and check for some other comments from him on this account. we'll return to this later
this is NUTS 😭 so presumably this was before he was miserable and suicidal and (in my wildest dreams) sh-ing. but i love him. such a bitch :D!!!! "stop cutting yourself unless you plan on being a blood donor" is going into my personal dictionary
old journal entry + abouts on this account via wayback machine :( still into rammstein and einsturzende neubauten back then, hehe :3. also his art is his favorite, hehe. and d2 being his fav game at this point in time.. like jemmy :((( cute
this was his signature also :3 as you can tell, his xD random food was pudding LOL
cute :( he is so cute on the lorddeme account especially :(
other stuff:
at this point i decided to also look through the ni1chts account through wayback machine using the old url format.. i think this is not new to some of u but it was new to me. and. ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️
this is the most tragic thing ever ever ever. he is so fucking dissociated and numb that he isn't even fully aware of how depressed he is :( and referring to michelle as his sister again.. ugh :( soso sad
i also wanted to direct your attention to these clubs at the bottom of the message too:
yea. yea :( yeah....
yeah :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((. i am so sad. i am so so so sosososo sad forever. sad sad sad for the rest of my life.
also this!
gore galore :3
heheheheheheheh........ inchresting :3. no emo-riffic wrist cutting </3 fucked up..
this are his abouts also :3 cute. another nichts curry :( UGHHHHH. + he is eight :)
this literally made me start crying when i saw it. he makes me so sad. i love you choob :( i wish your future was colorful. i wish..... :(((( frowns forever
i think we already saw this although it's gone now with his account.. :( also jin's message signature!
and in a later post, here's another club he's a part of :((((((((((((((((((( sigh......
rolls around bleeding :))))))))))))))) cute!!
this is maybe my favorite art i found.. urghhhhhhh
URKKKKKKKK. :JGUNPOINT:. OURHHHHHHHHHG.....
another rword + :3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im not sure if hidden by owner means that the commenter hid it or that str hid it.. either way :( jin........
...and i've hit the image limit again, lol. more to come! (maybe today!)
ooh I didn't know dream bbq was also there, yes I know V1n voices one character! It was fun but hmm Str rarely likes so called walking simulators... but maybe aesthetic alone could make him do it potentially 🤔 I would love for him to play DR, he considered playing chap 5 as a joke since he never touched any UT/DR but didn't go with it...
🤔I'm not 100% sure but judging from snippets we hear on stream sometimes, Str doesn't really oversee the videos that much... once Chimm said he sent him a draft for one of the OW videos to ask if its okay to continue working on it cause he put his own voice message jokes in and wanted to know if it's too self indulgent. idk if he does that for all of them. So it looks like he sort of does his thing, with sparse checking in from Str if it's the direction he wants and likes for the video. Str does almost all the thumbnails tho :3
As for the other thing, I do hear Str mention what streams he wants to become a video sometimes, so I assume it's Str saying what streams he wants edited into a video, and also some Chimm suggestions maybe, like 'mixtape' random moments video maybe was his suggestion or something idk. So yeah it looks like Str does check in here and there but chimm has quite a bit of freedom, and they probably think up some stuff together w/ Str giving green light to most? of Chimm's suggestions. I'm so sorry Chimm for writing your name like it's a cute nickname it's just a force of habit to censor names
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LMAO YUPPP pretty much :3ccc We were kind of already discussing this sometimes and took it as true, but ofc we have our biases.... so to have ALLLL those logs that really support this claim is such a treat :3 :3 :3
Str really do be the type of bisexual that is 99% into men and 1% into women🥰
i'm not gonna re-explain everything, so check out the first part here if you haven't already :)
new accounts:
okay so. this was such a jumpscare for me. imagine you spend like four hours straight skimming through comments on an account choob interacted with a handful of times looking for other comments. and you see this
HUH!!!!
first thought i had was, oh, that's a weird coincidence! surely there's no way that our etal is the same person. i don't know much about him but he didn't really seem like a cringe mid 00s deviantart user to me. surely not.
and he doesn't really seem like the photographer type either?? right??
and, the account was deactivated + wasn't archived, so i couldn't find more on it.....
jk. thanks @sterjin for lending a helping hand :) i was formatting the urls in the wrong way to get older results on wayback machine (username.da.com (old) vs. da.com/username (new)), so we found:
Art - community of artists and those devoted to art. Digital art, skin art, themes, wallpaper art, traditional art, photography, poetry / pr
this! okay, cool. but still, surely this is not OUR alan eta1yx. surely
never mind LOL. i mean, this is (afaik) the only instance we have of his full name. so it could just be... a very weird coincidence that there are two independently existing eta1yx's named alan who are in the same age group... but i really doubt it lol
so we do have proof of str and etal following the same accounts (i found two instances), but im still cautious to say they actually knew each other bc there are no direct interactions between the two. the accounts they were interacting with were somewhat big, but not very big, so it's not like everyone on da was interacting there.. ultimately, i just think it is a weird coincidence (for now. unless i find more evidence lol)
unlike str, all of his posts/comments that i could find were pretty normal, like this one ^
i'll include another new account i found on this post!
as i was going through all the accounts that favorited choob's art (which took just as long as you think it would lol), i came across lorddeme (posted previously)
LordDeme is an artist on DeviantArt. · Artworks: 42 · Followers: 6 · Likes: 32
(cute icon :3)
which had these comments attached:
which i thought was a little strange, but i figured it was a friend's account.. but i was noticing that the art style was very similar to choobs. and then this!
which confirmed that this def was a previous account of choob's. and also this
which i don't know how i ignored in the first place LOL. i was going through these accounts pretty quickly tbf asdfgh
i'll put other things from this account in the comments section because i feel like i'll run out of room on this post to post everything. but i love this account.. so much of his early art (potentially his first da account :( ) and lots of him talking about early high school life and being cringe and silly.. aww :((
still have to do a deep dive into this account as well.. as well as etal's account too.. mamma mia. much to come!
miscellaneous comments:
okay so. here's a really fun thread from one of his forum posts:
choob directly saying he's gay (again). also i am still thinking about "i'm sorry some guy in africa got lonely" re: hiv/aids 😭😭. just really a gold set of posts
:))) thinking of boston-era strma.... my poor jealous clinging boy </3 (and neglectful evil boyfriend)
his attitudes around sh and suicide always crack my up. there's another instance of this later lol
even more proof that this is his account, not that we needed more lol
choob flirting with another friend :)
another rword
just him being cute :)!
other stuff:
okay. so the discovery with etal's deviantart url made me realize that i could also check strs accounts using the old url formatting.. some of this stuff i think was previously posted elsewhere, but for whatever reason i didn't try to do find it myself previously.. so some of this is probably not new to you, but i'm putting it here if u haven't seen it before :)
old email :) cute. reminiscent of lorddeme lol
interestingly, choob went back to update his account moving post at some point to the one it is now (his n11chts icon used to be a black heart for a while :) cute)
also, i love his old message signatures :) choob will DESTROY you with FACTS and KNOWLEDGE
okay so. this is going to be a series of long posts that probably won't be organized in a very reader friendly matter, but i'm doing my best. this is the end result of over a month of attempting to make a full (as possible) archive of posts from strs deviantart accounts following him deactivating n11chts. (spoiler, i did not even get close to finishing this task LOL. more will come in a few months likely) there was WAY more that i missed in previous discoveries.. which is unsurprising, because following up on *every* lead took me, again, all of my free time for a month+.
i'm just going to include notable discoveries in these posts (there are many), but whenever i complete organizing my archive, i'll post that on my blog as well.. that will probably not be for a while though. considering that i've only done a deep dive on the ch00belette account (as well as some tangential leads).. and there are six or so(?) more to go. and potentially even more. :")
you likely will not understand what i am saying if you haven't read my previous posts on the matter!! part 1, part 2, part 3, miscellany. it is a lot to go through, but if you are a true mentally ill person, it is worth it, prommy.
tl;dr: what i'll be covering in these posts are:
several previously undiscovered accounts of strs (and eta1yx???)
a lot of fun lore! and him being a cutie pie :P
str being even gayer than previously known
the fact that ashley KNOWS.
a concerning relationship he had with a really creepy fifty year old man. that is maybe grooming. allegedly. (alleged by me)
and much much more!
anyway. enjoy part one below
okay. im going in chronological order of my discoveries for the most part + adding headers for some organization, so sorry if this jumps around a lot. i wish tumblr let u add more pics to a post so this wouldn't be so all over the place...
new accounts:
one of the main strategies i used to find new content was going through the list of people following or followed by str. the first discovery i made was strs myspace account, which i found through looking through jin's myspace account...
https://myspace.com/999q (it won't let me make a pretty link for this)
(also im sorry i won't be censoring jin's last name anymore because i won't in my archive since it is everywhere and y'all probably know it anyway. obv don't do anything with it)
there is nothing interesting on this account (myspace was barely preserved, unfortunately. if anyone knows how to recover stuff, i would really appreciate it!). but i did find something interesting linked on his profile:
MySpace Profile - HURRA!! comic, 26 years old, Male, SOUTH AMBOY, NEW JERSEY, US, HURRA, HURRA!!
there was a page for hurra!! and thankfully it was archived!
don't know why he was lying about his age but he was LOL. (also i don't think south amboy is really a doxx.. he has said this (at least indirectly) on stream)
another instance of str using his last name :(.. + remember the kissing boys incident? even more proof that it was (somewhat) a freudian slip. because his aim would be a direct way for us to find out he was kissing boys lol
this made me sad :( a lot of his friends didn't even care about his gay little comic... :( thinking again about him saying that jin was his only friend..... :((((((
miscellaneous comments:
i found some new stuff looking through forum posts choob made, including this one. which is just silly to me. it's a bummer that he deleted all his journal posts on previous accounts bc he loved to yap ;(
boyfriend :(
more miscellany from choob's forum posts:
:( cute.. choob going on his religious society rants and jin being like :3 liar liar u love me so much!! :( cute
sigh... :( there will be more of this in my next posts but.. makes me so sad. it's so fucked up going thru these old posts knowing he's still in the closet literally twenty years after this... :(
im wondering how much german choob actually knew, or if this was just a bluff :P
choob username lore :).... female form.. ughhhhhh
now, here's a big one. i posted this previously (i think) but it's still........ arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
there's just. so so much. like, from jins bl reading + watching, i always assumed choob would be into it too, but we didn't have direct proof of it.. and then here's str being like yea i love yaoi but there needs to be more graphic porn! "being very gay" .... AUGHHHHH
much in this post!! so he has his friend keep his bl for him.. likely so mommy wouldn't find out :P but also she probably knew about jin, so... but it seems like the stuff he owned was pretty smutty lolol. also i love the implication that he's dropping out of school to pursue a career in table tennis LOL. i guess his real life career of playing video games on the internet sounds just as unattainable though lol
i wonder how much time he spent at hot topic :)
dad lore.. (the journal post is from freakresponse, which, as u can see, is one of his closest da friends + irl).. i love how genuine he's being here :(
i don't think i included this in previous posts since it wasn't relevant, but jin's sister died :( and it's really sweet and sad seeing choob call her his sister too... really emphasizes how close they were :( makes me so sad that his parents weren't supporting him then... ugh (more of this to come later as well!)
"go draw some sexually confused teens" is a great line
"i'm jealous of people, very" + using that jealousy as motivation to win.. :))))) im thinking about kim.. :)) and how weird he can get about monica lately. thinking thinking thinking...
:( he's the baby...
so depressed :(... :))))))) "i dont really want to be alive" ohghhh my beloved little emo boy :( cute. he gets so personal in this person's comments (same person as freakresponse + black-maple-path iirc) so they must have been really close.. :))
there are many instances of this that im leaving out, but he's such a bitch :D hehe. he's barely changed :P
another rword
just him being cute :3
other stuff:
i don't know why i never looked at this closely when i was first going through choob's account, but... this is in his favorites.
the most horrible thing about this is that it literally looks like. j and choob :( when they first met..... ughhhhhhhhhhh....... as if we needed more proof that he was strs type :agony: ....
anddd i'm already out of space for pics lol. to be continued in my next post! hope u enjoy this for now :)
LMAO we were joking about Str coming out by saying faggot live on stream for a good while now, it's so fucking crazy it got somewhat close😭
I like the idea of him flashing the word BISEXUAL on the screen for half a second, I would imagine him doing that right after saying something very gay and then doing that to ironically driver the point home lmao
I rewatched that fragment x times already... evening strma call, J pacing in front of his tv talking his philosophies about Str's tier list. Bickering and flirting and teasing each other... we diiid we got fed SO good.🥹I love moments like this so, so much. There is something so domestic about it, makes you think about them..living together..
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It's rpf brained but that's also TRUTH brained 🙂↕️Finally continuing watching the VOD and this is what I keep thinking about too... so many hours they spent together in so many of those games, Str - and J too, since he was watching intently - remembering all the times they had, playing late at night laughing so hard it hurt. J fucking calling him to help and pacing around his living room. Saying again how this list making is sort of a recipe for you. and being so invested. How could it NOT be strma rpf brained...
NOOOO NONO DON'T BE SORRY!!! Pls I really love getting all emo and excited and rambling about strma in each others asks!!! It makes me think of us all freaking out over all the strma streams of 2023... It just makes me glad we still have this energy;; was about to make a post saying i love them, but i want to answer them when i get to watch the whole stream, i only saw first 3 hours so far so u just need to give me like. 2 days to get to them sdfghh
