Faded

“Isn’t it fucking terrifying that no matter how many promises they made, no matter how long you’ve been together, someone can get up and walk out of your life without a second thought and you have to carry on living because the world doesn’t stop for any of us”

““I just laugh now when I think about you and me, because it’s funny how I even let you get that close to me.””

A healthy relationship is one where two independent people just make a deal that they will help make the other person be the best version of themselves.

I used to love you but I wish I never did.

Yeah, it hurts to know that he doesn’t want to be with me anymore. It feels like the world is collapsing underneath my feet and I’m forgetting the way his lips feel pressed against mine. I don’t want him to be just a memory.

Nothing lasts,” she says, and there’s a little crack in her voice. “You think it’s going to. You think, ‘Here’s something I can hold on to,’ but it always slips away.

It’s pathetic really, how much I still hope it’s you and me in the end.

Sometimes I wonder if you think about me the way I think about you. When you see a certain road sign, do you think about the way to get to my house? When you see a certain shirt you think of me because it would be something I liked? When you see the things I loved, do you feel a twinge of love for them too, because they were a part of me? Do you wonder what class I’m in? What I’m doing? Where I’m at? What I’m thinking? Do you look forward to seeing me in the halls, if it’s just for a few seconds? Do you wonder if we’ve been in the same places? When you’re out somewhere, do you play the scenario in your head of “what if she walked in?” Do you still see my face when we had our first kiss when you close your eyes at night? Can you hear my voice telling you I loved you? Am I somehow in everything you do, everyday? Do you think about me the way I think about you? Or do you just never think of me at all?

I’m a very strong believer that whoever is meant to be in your life will always gravitate back towards you, regardless how far they wander.