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“Why did I try to put up a fight for your love?”

You say you need me, say you want me, but you do nothing to make that statement true.

I’m so worried about being too much for everyone that I’m holding onto things that are going to kill me.

Here I am again, I like it here, I love it. This place contains so much joy, excitement, new beginnings are amazing; or they should be. Like I said, I’ve been here before, I was scared to come back here. I can see the cracks in the walls that show the pain that nearly brought me to my knees. It feels unwelcoming. I can sense the walls closing in, tighter, tighter. I try to run but my feet won’t let me, they want me here. I close my eyes, tighter, tighter. I open them, the cracks are gone the walls are intact. This is not the same room, this is not the same place, this is new, this is different.