Lotus

Life is the biggest gamble of all

Everyone is given a unique set of traits

Options bombard us from every direction

Growing up we have the option to create our own fates

Even so most of us seem to choose the safe path

We leave our dreams in the realm of fantasy

Instead of wanting to chase the sun

We settle with meaningless simplicity

This is greatest disrespect you can give the art of living

One lifetime is all we get , so let us strive to be anything we want to be

Take risk, make sacrifices, yank your dream from the clouds

Love life like a mother loving her newborn baby, with reckless glee

Do this so when someone says if you have any regrets

Your response can be a soft smile

The gleam in your eyes giving them the answer they seek

The Final Chapter has finally arrived

Our story has come to an end

Everything shared, our souls on the table

Our words etched into our memory

After the three-hundredth read, I think I’m finally ready

To put it’s already faded cover back on the shelf

Though it will always remain one of my favorite books

Dwelling on it means I remove my ability to move forward

However, even in the future it won’t disappear

If lonely I can always reopen it one more time

Go through each tear stained-page

And relive a part of my magnificent history

But with every closed book a new one can be begun

And now it’s time to create a beautiful tale, starring myself

Maybe when I’m writing the future of my story

Silently I lay on the floor

Not just walked over, but dragged on

Quick to forgive, my presence non-existent

My once unique attributes have been withdrawn

My desire for reliability has overtaken me

Though realization has hit me too late

Taken for granted, heavy footsteps causing pain

Trying my best, but might not be able to take the weight

Been told it’s a strength, but why do I feel so weak

Selling my own worth to the hands of another

When there done with me like a mat, I’ll be replaced

Tired, I pick myself up to only be passed to some other

Bickering over what game to play

Playground insults thrown like we’re children again

Roaring laughter as loud as a waterfall

The feeling of serene bliss

Throughout everything you're still here

All my strain cleared just being in your presence

Your my greatest treasure, one I never desire to lose

Regardless of the circumstances, I’ll stand with you

So let’s forge on ahead

Side by side

And create a beautiful future

Each moment with you

Etched into my mind

Always full of happiness and glee

Every morning always by my side

Your comfort was my safety

Together we were able to fight off our demons

At your side was the only place I felt at peace

With every obstacle your presence sought me through

Can it be like this forever?

Just you and me

Leaving the whole world in our wake

A bond like an unbreakable chain

That smile of yours will be with me eternally

Though your physical appearance has been lost

I promise our souls will always be together

We will prevail even against death

The mirror is my worst enemy

Every time I glance at it a shadow looks back

A person I used love and admire

Now gives me a piercing gaze, we’re both about to crack

Instantly I can pick out all its flaws

To everyone else it’s fine, but to me it’s revolting

I long for it to disappear

But each day all I see the same tired face, always disappointing

It’s all alone, but I can’t bring myself to comfort it

Together we may be able to change, but where do I even start

My desire has already been dulled

Breathe in

Let the air tickle your nose

Fill up your lungs with it’s warmth

Take in all the stresses that weigh you down

Hold it in

Absorb all the pain

Accept it with open arms

Embrace the feeling of how time stops all around you

Let it out

Allow the wind to take your pent up frustrations

Let go of all that restrains you

Our skin is seen as weapon

Anguish and screams mixing in with the color

Ancestors history of pain and sorrow

Their battle never forgotten

We are why they fought so hard

Though never known their our biggest support

The hope that they gave their lives for

Give us the strength and pride to stand tall

Discriminations still plagues our brothers and sisters

But just like our history we will not let it cage us

Take admiration of our past to fuel the world where we can stand equal

Mornings start with the struggle to even get out of bed

A satisfying reason to get up can’t even pop up in my head

Regrets creep all over my skin, pinning me down

As the ruler of misery, I must continuing wearing my crown

My mind once full of contentment now houses a war

But both sides can’t even grasp what their fighting for

The pointless squabbles can be compared to ones life

A tragic fairytale that leaves people wondering if it’s worth all the strife

These painful thoughts won’t ever truly go away

They’ll always float around, always on display

Even so, an unknown part of me refuses to lose

Through the barricade of these voices, in the end I get to choose

Each small step is a personal victory

Loving yourself is your right, regardless of your history

It’s realizing your worth it even if you don’t think you are

Sins of the past latch onto me, holding me in place

Weighing me down as I struggle to live

I know their the mistakes I must face

One of these days my throbbing heart is going to give

These scars are attached to me forever

They scream to be forgiven by everyone I wronged

Even so, I don’t view these scars as disgraceful whatsoever

For without them I couldn’t change from the horrible person to which I belonged

So, if I hurt you in anyway know I’m trying to atone

From the bottom of my soul, I hope your life is as beautiful as can be

But I still just have to let it be known

To my future self, I’m sorry

I’m sorry that I couldn’t keep the promises I made

I’m sorry that you have to sleep in the bed of poison that I laid

I’m sorry that I never thought of you when I made rash decisions

I’m sorry that I ran into the suffocating forest without putting you in my vision

However I can’t say I’m sorry without first saying thank you

Thank you for being someone I can strive to be

Thank you for being the person I can trust in life’s thrashing sea

Thank you for always smiling and motivating me to always aim high

Thank you for always giving me a reason to try

Silently gazing at the window

What could you possibly be staring at

You seem like your in another world, completely in limbo

Why do I even care, I don’t have the answer for that

Your eyes shine, but there’s still a speck of sadness

That bubbly personality you show was hastily created

How can someone be so full of life but still lifeless

I wonder, what made you feel like your life deserves to be wasted

Will I be able to reach out to you

Your across the room, but a million miles away

You probably don’t even know me, not even a clue

If I would walk over, would you give me the time of day

The window takes up all your attention

Like your stuck in a strange, eerie dance

I want to be the one to relieve all your pent up tension

The world is drenched in darkness.

I was stuck on a lonely path in it’s never-ending blackness. 

Without knowing, you shined a light in my dark world, revealing a glimmering new hope.

Though fear gripped me at first, I’m glad I traveled with you into the unknown.

I made a promise to you to be the last lover you have.

Through thick and thin I promise to never leave your side.

Dream as big as you can, I’ll be your biggest supporter. 

Even if your feet get tired, I’ll be your legs.

Even if you start feeling fear, I’ll shoulder the pain with you

Like a rainy day, you can reveal all your pain to me and I’ll wash them away.

I’ll be the pillar that will always lift you up.

You're my shining sun, so I’ll be your moon.

Two things who can’t live without each other.

Two partners intertwined with the whole universe at their fingertips. 

You are the sun.

I am the moon.

Our love is written in the stars.