Insert that one specific image of guy choking himself

I have drawn soushin so many times in the span of two days that I could remember each singular part of their hair

Getting four piercings done at the same time, unsure as to how I will manage to sleep

" myself " is not " i ", at times I do not feel humans at all

My aspd acts in extremely curious ways in regards of my personal beliefs and people; I am not above toying with others nor using them for my own gain but I only target questionable individuals for the former purpose. The latter is highly dependent on the situation but I view interpersonal relationships as a give or take situation, I must offer them something in order to use them afterwards

Okay

Well .

Tired

Melting

Joints. Pains.

Went down an entire rabbit hole of medical instruments for four hours, sighs.

I have come in terms with the fact that I will never be understood by another a long time ago, yet sometimes I wonder.

I despise being so aware at times

I desire to protect as much as I desire to crush, to cradle and to control, to love and to violent — I am assertive to my core and despise submitting to others, let alone allow myself to be vulnerable in front of them