Stop It

“just communicate” becomes a lot harder when your brain keeps treating uncertainty like a physical threat

being self-aware but still unable to change your own reactions is such a uniquely miserable experience

getting turned on by being understood

getting hot and bothered by not having to explain myself

you think so much. You could think about a door for a hundred years and it would stay closed.

No exaggeration but theeeee most critical lesson I learned in my 20s was letting go when it was time. It’s so cliche but it’s so true. I used to hold on so venomously to people, put on a tap dance for their approval, force relationships to last past their expiration date, carry the heavy lifting for reaching out because I didn’t want to feel “passive.” But when someone doesn’t want your effort it’s not about passivity. It’s literally about self respect, not wasting your time, and gravitating only to people who have your best interest in mind and celebrate you. I’ve met so many older people who don’t know how to let go and it truly scares me that this could easily be me. It’s better to develop this skill early than it is to spend an entire lifetime begging for love and belonging.

i need to marry a man weirder than me or else ill never feel fully comfortable

"for my own sanity, i'm going to stop thinking about this!" ← person who's going to think about it all the time forever