Gaze at the horizon...

Hey, thank you for your kind words. I've been doing okay.

I was debating my answer to this quite a bit and then unfortunately forgot about it before I could sort out my thoughts. Apologies for the wait.

I'm one of those people whose perception of the story changed quite a bit after the basement reveal. I thought I was reading a story about the last of mankind fighting off titans and hoping to reclaim the world outside of their (more or less) safe walls. The basement reveal recontextualised things in a way that left me with an icky feeling.

I tried to stick with the manga after that to see how things would end, but it was harder and harder to stay motivated, so eventually I dropped it. I was planning to look into it again once the manga ended, but man, I just couldn't be bothered by the time it happened. I looked at some out of context spoilers which hardly makes me qualified to judge the whole thing. I didn't like what I saw of it though.

In the end, I could only wonder what the point of telling the story that way was. I don't have an answer, I can't be bothered to try and find one. I guess I'm over it. Whatever I thought SnK was, it turned out to not be that. The part that stung most was finding that the early arcs that I did like all took on a bitter taste after the basement reveal. Once that realisation settled in (still before the manga ended, but quite some time after the basement reveal) I didn't even feel like taking the characters and putting them into AUs as I had done from time to time before then.

I don't see myself coming back to making content for the fandom. So far I haven't even managed to fix my biggest issues with An Unbearable Sight and re-uploading it for the people who enjoyed it. That would be the only thing I could even consider doing and it wouldn't be due to whatever I once liked about SnK, but for the people who liked my fanfic. (Me not getting that done is mostly for reasons unrelated to how I feel about SnK btw, though my lack of interest in the source material doesn't help.)

I think that's all I'm able to say on the matter. I'm sorry if you were hoping for something more.

Hello, thank you for your message! I’m not sure if you sent more, given that you numbered the ask, but this is the only one I got. So either I’m misinterpreting the meaning of that (1) in the beginning or you changed your mind about sending more or Tumblr ate your other message(s). 

I'm doing okay and I’m staying safe. Hope you are as well.

Hearing from people like you who enjoyed An Unbearable Sight does make me want to get back to it. Helps with the motivation as well. Could be nice to get it going again whenever I make it past my general writer’s block.

Thank you!

Hey there, few people have asked me about it so far. I took it down without a word and given that the last update was...2 years ago (?) I don’t think it has been on people’s radar as much.

As for reasons...

I haven’t been very vocal about it, but I’ve been unhappy with having put smut in the story and I reached a point where I concluded that unless I edit those parts out I wouldn’t be able to continue. However, looking at the early chapters makes me want to either rewrite everything or trash everything and that just killed my motivation. On top of that, I’ve been dealing with personal stuff that has been draining my creativity, so it just wasn’t happening. (I don’t want to even get into how I don’t like the direction the manga has been taking for however long it’s been since that basement reveal.)

I kept the story posted regardless because I know there are people out there who like it and it does feel bad to take that away. And maybe I have been holding on to a tiny bit of hope that I would actually be able to revise the story and continue it one day. But last month I hit a point where I just didn’t want it to stay posted in its current state, so I took it down. And unless a miracle happens and I actually manage to implement the bare minimum of changes I need to be comfortable to share it again that’s how it’s going to stay.

So there won’t be a re-upload until further notice and I won’t be sharing it privately either (which is a request I got from someone, but it doesn’t resolve my issues with the story and why I took it down).

I’m sorry it had to come to this, but I couldn’t in good conscience keep the story uploaded in the state it was. I don’t expect people to understand necessarily, but it’s not something I’m going to change my mind about.

Thank you for your message.