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when it came to scions the narrative the of truth they beheld me and did innumerable privations to my thoughts and vision...

I come out with an open eye... And the worlds blind me...

They bequeath their monstrosity their horror their excrescence of confinement on me and so far I've been kept as a hostage bereaved of thoughts and parched of vision

Thus, I sayest, my cittern is lavender

history keeps pulling me down

I am just a meteoroid willing to burn into a glowing meteor to adorn your night sky.

I am just a meteoroid hoping to become a shooting star on which you can wish upon.

// falling for you like the shooting star because my love for you is too cosmically significant for the galaxy to contain. //

•10/3/22•

Can we be real about something? What I'm about to say isn't targeted towards anybody but rather is a reminder towards both myself and anyone who may relate to this.

Studyblr isn't always about pretty study spaces and notes. It's not always about productive study sessions and neat bullet journals. Sometimes it's about the empty pop cans and cups sitting around, papers with notes flying around, and layers upon layers of whiteout. Sometimes it's about sitting in your pajamas all day staring at your computer screen and wondering when your brain will decide to concentrate. It's about sitting in lecture and feeling like you're the only person in the room that has no idea what the professor is talking about. It's about feeling alone. But also about not giving up.

If watching YouTube videos and rewriting your notes 5 times with all sorts of colors helps you learn the material, then so be it. If you can't study at home and need to be at a cafe or a library to focus, then so be it. If you take a thousand breaks and get distracted easily, then so be it. And if you takes you twice or thrice the amount of time to do homework, then so be it. All that matters is that you're trying. You're trying and you're learning what your brain likes and dislikes.