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currently explaining "chap hop" to a coworker. they weren't there. it feels like a hallucination

this godforsaken website is so white that i really should have foreseen real human bloggers shooting for chap hop in the big 2026

you may have noticed that my story is disorganized and thematically incoherent and my plot structure is weaker by the verse. this is commentary on the chaos of mortal existence under the yoke of the immortal gods

it is impossible to watch a movie. every night i think i want to watch a movie. no movie gets watched. because it's not possible

and yet they keep making movies with the hopes that one day humanity will discover a way to watch them. it's so inspiring

remembering this one time my father, a devout catholic who thinks of himself as progressive and believes in evolution etc, where we were arguing about "souls" and he was saying obviously animals don't have souls but humans do. and i said well you believe evolution happened. and he said yes. and i said so at some point as hominids were evolving did they just develop souls when they got 'human-like' enough? and without skipping a beat he said, yeah, at some point god said "okay you seem enough like humans" and a non-ensouled primate gave birth to an ensouled human child. and that's why humans have souls.

the circus is empty, all of the monkeys are here

really losing my patience for any 'feminist' statement to the tune of 'we need feminism because women fill a fundamentally different and necessary role than men and will be better at doing x y or z'. like actually i think we need feminism because it is an unbearable death of the spirit by inches to exist in a world where you are not seen as a fully realized human being because of a single cultural determination, and because a world that enshrines such things creates systems that are fundamentally sick to the core