misery and chill

there’s a special kind of grief you feel towards yourself when you’ve been mentally ill for as long as you remember. you see ppl saying they long to return to their old self but you don’t have an old self, or if there was, you can’t remember it. ur “old self” was a child. this self is all you’ve ever known. then there’s the fear that comes with trying to find out who you are without your mental illnesses, it’s all new to you and you don’t know if you’ll like who you’ll be

did “reflection” from mulan resonate with you deeply as a kid for reasons you couldn’t quite explain yet or are you cishet

the real question is will playing video games for 12 hours straight fill the empty void that is my soul

internet friends are such a gift. always. but especially now. especially. so glad to have you all.