we're all mad here

i’m very self aware. which unfortunately hasn’t solved anything

It’s hard to accept how easily I became nothing.

I’m not sad, just empty in a way that doesn’t go away.

I wish i could just let go and forget everything and move the fuck on but it’s so hard 

people judging your actions when you’re at rock bottom and using them to define you as a person is unfair to you

These days I just don't feel shit. I don't feel a thing at all, I don't feel like I exist

i have very big feelings and they all boil down to “i need to fucking die right now.” lmao

reassurance kink bc my brain makes me feel unlovable

I’ll always remember that you saw me having a hard time and chose to make it harder.

the years pile on but i have not lived