layn verona

don’t look up at me like so

your eyes, your hair

I melt like snow

I see my hand

moving slow

to touch your hair

my heart in tow

I watch you as you walk on by

your laugh, your smile

I’ve gone awry

that rainy day

when you were drenched

I saw it then

my thirst was quenched

I dream of all we have in common

but when we speak

my self has fallen

I wish that you could read my soul

for mine and yours

share with me the warmth you hide

the shameful and embarrassing kind

I want to see it all

all the times you bite your tongue,

bite mine instead

and reveal your blood-ridden secrets

use my pupils as your mirror

pour your soul out

and watch it dribble over my protruding ribs

let me hold your head close

and warm you with my body

let the numbness drift me into nothing

allow the dark to consume me

feel my heart slow itself

my body detach itself from me

never again inhale into my anxiety ridden lungs

feel my eyelashes freeze my eyes over

I scrub and scrub against my skin

red it turns

disgust, it wins

I callous and bleed

arms wrapped at my knees

I beg and I plead

to my mind to be free

I scratch and a pull

my eyes sullen and dull

I cut and I burn

I just want to be heard

my heart, it quickens

as soon as im strippin’

my body

my cage

there is something so seductive about the Tiger Lily

she stands present, vibrant, welcoming

but she has rich alluring color that tempts

she’s your mother’s favorite

warm and bright

but her smell

hints at obscurity

I want to show her off

tuck her behind my ear

flaunt her with pride

unravel her secrets when its just her and I

unfortunately you caught my eye

the warmness i felt as you came close

the chill i felt as you drifted away

am i not bright enough

for you to see me

as i ponder of you

as you occupy my mind

with swirls of lust

do you even think of me

did my anger mean anything at all

when i felt your sadness

was i really closer to you then

or just an idiot

I shift and come to

my jacket gathering splinters

my mind feels blank

my body warm

I wonder if I was even asleep

If much time had passed at all

I run my fingers along the currents

how soft and delicate it feels

my palm now submerged

I tilt my head

an old fishing boat

rusted and roughly repaired

the motor small for the size of the vessel

I watch for awhile

no fish

he carries on

the sun and sea blurred in median

my eyes return to my dangling hand

a single tear bridges my nose

rosettes of oak lay delicately over her shoulder

the wind shaping them into whirlpools as she turns to me

my cheek brushes gently against hers in embrace

how close i feel to her then

i think about the way her shoulders feel against mine for awhile

i close my eyes

i could breathe her shampoo forever

i sigh a bit close to her ear

she pulls away and laughs

her laugh is so subtle

so natural

she faces the sun

a crescent of amber in her eyes

i stare too long

my heart begins to ache

remember when I couldn’t sleep

to you i went

to you i’d weep

you’d awaken

wipe my tears

dreaded end

approaching near

i fell to pieces

pled for a mother

was i only a burden