EGO: Zequiviya Minor

THERE IS AN ANISHINAABEMOWIN KEYBOARD ON MY GOOGLE PHONE 🫨🫨🫨🫨

also since my mood has been hella low on this new birth control i want to complain about how almost all my (white) friends have never experienced real grief and their closest connection to death is an ailing grandparent. like i'm happy for them that they haven't experienced it but at the same time i'm so bitter like i don't know if it's because my dad is ojibwe and my mom comes from poor white trash but i've been so close to death too many times and have felt real grief (which is veryyyyy different than sadness) multiple times before the age of 30 and attending a funeral for someone in their 20s, 30s, 40s never gets easier and taking care of someone you love in the hospital who you KNOW is going to die and they know it too and are so so scared leaves you with this hollow feeling and the thing is a lot of it is just in my family so you just have generations and generations of this grief which it feels like you can never escape and like it's almost a curse or something and we don't talk about it but at least we all get it you know? but most of my friends don't have this and don't get it. and i just avoid talking about it now because it can be so disappointing and alienating and heart-wrenching to try to talk it out with someone who doesn't get it.