DUMB & POETIC ! °

even  with  her  touch  ,  he  doesn't  soften  up  ;  which  causes  an  uneasy  feeling  to  emerge  at  the  pits  of  her  stomach  .  brow  furrows  at  his  words  ,  "  so  .  .  .  you're  not  happy  that  i'm  getting  along  with  them  ?  "  it  was  all  so  confusing  ,  she  couldn't  keep  up  .  her  head  spun  in  circles  ,  laying  next  to  carver  ,  but  falling  asleep  to  the  thoughts  of  conrad  .  .  .  it  was  shameful  ,  so  much  to  the  point  where  so  promises  to  bury  those  thoughts  deep  down  .  digits  drew  little  patterns  against  his  thigh  ,  small  distractions  --  trying  to  come  up  with  any  excuse  not  to  answer  .  "  what  are  you  talking  about  ,  carver  ?  i'm  with  you  ,  i  only  have  eyes  for  you  .  "

the soft touch against his thigh is meant to pacify him a part of him knows that . it does little to quell the concoction of anger and sadness brewing inside of him . doesn't detect the burn in his eyes or the way his vision begins to blur around the edges . can't really remember the last time he's cried . not that he's against it , but he merely doesn't do it often . it dawns on him the moment he blinks , a tear trailing down the planes of his mirror . finally turns to face the femme now , as if she possesses the answers to any inquiry he could ever have . “ do you love me ? ” it comes out on a shaky inhale , now prepared to hold his breath for eternity .

ferris frowned, not appreciating her appearing to pretend she wasn't aware of it. "no." he replied simply. god, he hated when people expected him to talk though his feelings, as if they were something that typically ever made much sense anyway. "i didn't like it. why do i need to elaborate on that?"

tried not to deflate in the face of his swift deflection. more often than not it felt like a battle to try and get the male to open up she wished it came with more ease. “it's good to talk about your feelings.” she pointed out. “i need more information so i know how to handle this if it happens again. should i have brushed him off entirely? slapped him in the face?” can't help the lingering humor. “i just want to understand you more . . . that's all.”

"civil feels better than what it was before." letha offered, hopeful but not quite so confident in the fact that they were going to be able to remain that way. especially considering his perspective on it which left her a little defeated. "okay. so you still hate my guts. i don't think i hate your guts. i don't... hate anyone's guts. does that help us?"

it was a harsh statement but one that elias was prepared to stick to. letha was perfectly nice kind, even. the type of person that he much preferred to keep at arms length. made it easier than actually having to grow attached to them and god forbid he ever formed such an attachment to someone. “so i guess i'm alone in that phase.” gaze suddenly darts from her own. doesn't want to see that kicked puppy look that's written across it any longer. “y'know we don't even have to keep talking, really. we could just work on this project in silence or something.”

"oh, god, if i've gotta think about every stupid thing i've done in the last twenty-four hours we're gonna be here a while." devon replied, brows furrowing as she inspected sierra. "can't you just talk to me? ever heard of communication?"

it comes out as a slight whether it's meant that way or not because it's the way sierra receives it. the words play in her head over and over like a broken stereo, making her feel small. like she's ten years old again. “fine.” one word filled with the bitterness of twenty. suddenly stands to her feet, snatching her phone off the coffee table. “maybe i'll just go stay with robin.” thumbs begin to tap wildly against her phone screen, nails tapping with each typed letter. “it's clear there's nothing for me here right now.”

had always been a lover girl , heart occupied her sleeve more than her own chest . there was an intensity in the way lavender loved & desired to be loved by others . being with leonardo fulfilled that need but also created the considerable anxiety she'd experienced tonight . hated the image of him slipping through her fingers & into the arms of another that had played so relentlessly through her mind this evening . she's inclined to believe him though , his fast dismissal was reassuring . hadn't looked at another since she'd met him either . eyes shut for a brief moment as head leans against his hands , seeking comfort in his touch . had spent the last few hours craving him , she couldn't bare to resist any longer . felt more at home in his arms than she ever did between the four walls they stood within . ' i can't handle being an after thought in your life . i want to be your priority . ' voice is softer now , quieter . tears slowing down as he caught them . her hands reach for his forearms , manicured fingers lacing around them . gaze locks intently on his , ' no more drugs , no more alcohol . use me as your vice . make me the thing you can't say no to . '

it’s  a  tall  order    for  him  ,  that  is  .  all  he’s  ever  known  is  the  weight  of  a  bottle  in  his  palm  ,  a  joint  between  two  digits  .  anything  to  make  him  forget  how  shitty  it  felt  to  actually  exist  .  that  feeling  dulled  around  lavender  .  the  femme  had  made  him  feel  more  alive  than  ever  .  the  thought  was  cheesy  but  entirely  true  .  she  had  managed  to  flip  his  world  upside  down  .  made  him  realize  maybe  he  does  have  a  heart  after  all    no  matter  how  much  he  hates  to  admit  it  .  suddenly  he  leans  forward  to  press  a  chaste  kiss  against  her  cheek    he  can  taste  the  salt  of  her  tears  .  it  makes  his  stomach  twist  into  knots  as  it  reminded  him  that  he  was  the  reason  behind  her  pain  .  “  an  after  thought  ?  ”  when  he  echoes  her  he  tries  to  come  off  as  if  he  can’t  believe  what  she’s  saying  .  tries  to  force  a  modicum  of  humor  but  the  words  come  out  raggedly  .  “  baby  ,  c’mon  ,  ”  pleads  to  her  in  a  whisper  .  wants  to  have  his  cake  and  eat  it  too  . “ this was a one time thing , alright ? 'm not gonna let that shit happen again . gonna be better . . . for you . ”

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ❝    i    need    this    job,    so    can    we    just    leave    everything    in    the    past    and    start    again    ?    i’m    not    here    to    make    your    life    more    difficult.    ❞

“ that was already the plan , ” stated matter of factly declan loathed having to point out what he saw was already blatantly obvious . “ no reason we can't be professional . right ? ”

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ❝    why    didn’t    you    tell    me    ?    —    you    could    have    at    least    contacted    my    agent    if    you    didn’t    want    to    talk    to    me.    ❞

“ you really can't come to that realization yourself ? ” ogles at him in disbelief . “ i didn't want you to find out . ”

oh   ,   she   had   made   it   clear   –––  she'd   made   it   very   clear   ,   however   asher   had   been   stalling   ,   giving   fem   time   to   back   out   before   he   got   too   obsessed   .   because   he   didn't   want   her   to   end   up   thinking   their   flirtation   was   a   mistake   and   that   they   shouldn't   go   any   further   due   to   his   friendship   with   her   brother   .   asher   needed   niamh   to   be   just   as   sure   as   he   was   ,   and   as   her   palm   touches   his   thigh   he   soon   realised   it   .   their   desire   for   one   another   was   completely   equal   .   as   he   looks   at   her   hand   placement   back   to   her   eyes   ,   he   shakes   his   head   slowly   ,   soft   laugh   falling   from   his   lips   .   '   you   can't   be   talking   like   that   if   you're   not   serious   ,   baby   .   '   but   asher   stands   up   anyway   ,   they   were   much   closer   now   ,   gap   between   pair   almost   non   existent   and   his   eyes   move   from   hers   ,   to   her   lips   before   he   places   large   hands   on   her   waist   ,   keeping   her   close   .   but   before   he   knew   it   ,   male   was   leaning   closer   and   lips   were   suddenly   on   hers   .   niamh's   lips   were   just   the   perfect   amount   of   soft   and   as   the   kiss   grew   more   intense   ,   his   pulse   quickened   ,   he   was   losing   track   of   all   time   ,   space   or   where   his   hands   were   wandering   .   palm   of   his   hand   moves   over   the   curve   of   her   ass   before   gripping   her   thighs   to   lift   fem   into   the   air   ,   placing   her   on   the   bar   top   ,   lips   still   locked   in   an   intense   passion   .

as he stands to his full height a sharp exhale emits from her lungs . cheeks flush a shade of roseate as she feels the weight of his gaze upon her lips . the wait feels like an eternity till they finally kiss . arms cord tightly around his neck to pull him closer if that was even a possibility . he tasted better than any wine she had ever sampled , slowly leading her to the realization that she might already be addicted . another gasp is earned when lifted so easily into the air . the cool of the surface contrasts against the warmth of her skin but she doesn't mind . not when currently preoccupied with the male before her . arms unfurl from around him one palm shifting to cup his cheek while the other sweeps through the strands on the back of his head . breaks the kiss only when her lungs begin to burn . greedily gulps down air as she murmurs against his brims , “ didn't you just clean this counter ? ” corners of her mouth tick up in amusement before diving back in for another taste .

          “ you drive me CRAZY. ” adeline states in a low murmur, breathless from their mere proximity and all the completely inappropriate urges running through her mind. “ we can't keep doing this to your brother — we shouldn't. ” already wavering.

conrad couldn't spare a single fuck about his brother's feelings . not when adeline was so willing and pliant before him . “ what he doesn't know won't hurt him , ” he murmurs , pressing a soft kiss to the corner of her mouth . then another to her cheek , littering them along her jaw , and then the column of her throat . “ tell me you don't want this that you don't want me . ”

          “ you're such a BRAT sometimes ” colton offers, although the exasperation in his speech is dissipating with each passing moment. “ and i don't mean that in a 'charlie xcx hot girl summer' way ... you're spoiled rotten. ” a smirk threatens to bretray him.

“ and you're such an ass sometimes . ” her annoyance doesn't relent due to her feeling particularly petty that day . “ who is too c o o l to be on time apparently . ” points out , tight grin tugging at her lips . “ did you even shower this morning ? ”

"i think that guy was hitting on you... and i think i'm having very normal, reasonable feelings about that."

“was he?” looks over her shoulder as if she's intrigued by the notion. secretly knows it's clearly bothering him but it's hard not to tease when she finds it so amusing. “would you like to further elaborate on these feelings?” asks while shifting her attention back to him.