what's your damage?

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Hey, so I thought I’d give you guys a little update on my life. I’ve finished 6 months of therapy and I’m good. I’ve never been so great in my entire life, except for hypomanic episodes (which shouldn’t occur). I’m stable and happy and I’m going to university to study Swedish or French (results aren’t up yet). I’m kind of scared, but I know I can do it this time. I wanted to thank you for all your kind messages and if I don’t reply, it’s because I’m weird and socially awkward, but I cherish all of them. So thank you again for your support.

I do realize I've been gone for a long time . I do realize you probably don't even remember me. But I need to write this somewhere. I need to tell someone how I feel. Life is unbearable. I was raised knowing I had to be the best, but I never felt like it. I was always afraid of falling. I still am. And it makes me so miserable. This fear paralyzes me. It got to the point where I don't do anything, because I'm too scared. Last year I quit university after first semester. because I couldn't handle the stress and was admitted to hospital. I started again and made it through the first semester, but now I feel like it's too much. I can't do this. I sit in classes, looking calm and composed, but I am freaking out constantly. I can't get myself to do do anything. I know I'm going to fail my exams. I'm tired of being afraid. I wish I could make it all stop, but suicide is yet another thing I'm afraid of. I'm sorry.