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whelp, at the start of this year I told myself I’d stop sitting on my hands and draw some doujins like I’ve always wanted to. We all gotta start somewhere, right? ;w; So, here’s a short one!

Sora x Riku / p12.  Riku gets hanahaki. OOCness warning.

Curious but what man are you talking about gearing himself up for a hetero marriage? I watched all of Utena but I can’t recall that situation unless I’m missing something

Dis bitch

Who is super smart and is becoming quite a name in his profession and is starting to turn “of that age” and is remarked as being extremely cold and emotionless.

So when he is introduced to Tokiko

He’s all like “Ah yes. You appear to of the female persuasion. Doing the good female wife-type things and being very feminine.”

(The show quite literally points this out to us as to what his thought pattern here is, even though it’s not what he’s talking about out loud.)

“Yes. You will indeed be a good wife for us to make with the hetero family unit and breed so we can have the childrens. I have deduced as the computer genius that I am that this is the desired direction that I should be taking to further my life on a person level to match my professional one.”

Meanwhile the show is like “bruh… who you kidding? You’re gay as hell”

And then while hovering around Tokiko who he has decided would be a fine mate… he meets her sickly, soft spoken and VERY underage little brother and…

OOPS

“uh oh…. I appear to be experiencing an emotion for the first time in my life.”

Mikage’s entire…. thing is that he’s as gay as a daffodil and sexually attracted to an underage boy and not only knows this is SUPER CRIMINAL AND NOT OK but it also gets in the way of his whole “this is how the equation of my life has been planned out”.

Which contributes greatly to him completely spiraling as he does in the show. And the fact that by the time we’re introduced to him he’s so deluded himself as to his own emotions, desires, his wants for his own future and how both Mamiya and Tokiko feature in his life. With his Wanting to love Tokiko to the point he grows to hate her simply due to him trying to force his own emotions to do what he feels they SHOULD do, and his romantic attraction to Mamiya who he has told himself is the one driving Mikage’s actions and that everything Mikage is doing is “to save Mamiya” and therefore his actions and feelings are conscious acts BY Mamiya inflicted onto Mikage and Mikage is merely following Mamiya’s lead in what they need to do to save Mamiya’s life.

The dude is a fucking creep.

But extremely important for Utena as a character’s story, as he’s a pitch black dark reflection of Utena’s delusions. Utena believes Anthy is a damsel in distress who Utena has to rescue. Mikage believes Mamiya is a damsel in distress who Mikage has to rescue.

The biggest difference between them is that Utena sees herself and acts in ways she believes are heroic and honorable, whereas Mikage takes on the act of “I will burn the fucking world down to save Mamiya”.

Neither of them stop to ASK what the damsel actually wants.

Oh and also just because you got gay feelings from a child doesn’t give you the right to act all “I know what’s best for him” bullshit Mikage!!! You’re such a creep what the actual fuck is wrong with you????

(What’s wrong with him is he’s deluded. And he’s replaced reality with a version he prefers that better fits his own narrative of events)

Also he keeps trying to turn Mamiya into “a Rose Bride” even though Mamiya has to constant assert the fact that he’s a boy just to twist the knife.

All Writers Published on Ao3:

This app, “Fanfic Pocket Archive Library”, is lifting all public content from Ao3 and making it available through a service they profit from.

Your work has been stolen and is being used to make money for a third party.

^above are the ways in which the app makes money off of Ao3 content. The developer is called Simple Soft Alliance. Here’s the app’s Terms and Conditions.

Any fanfiction that can be accessed without a password on Ao3 is already available in this app. Yours, mine, every fan creator’s. Whether this is illegal I do not know, but it is certainly unethical and needs to be fought. Ao3 is a site of unparalleled integrity and shows the utmost respect to creators, so this content grab is an even bigger slap in the face for that reason.

🚨Please flag/report this app in your app store. 🚨

🚩Google Playstore link (go HERE to report directly)

🚩Apple Store link (download app, then go to report it here )

Feel free to contact Ao3 as well to alert them to this issue. Let’s take em down, folks. In the meantime, you can put your Ao3 in private mode to prevent any more data theft.

Why?

Because from what I can tell

 AO3 already knows. They’ve known since 2015. They do not have their own version of an app and have no intention of making one of their own anytime soon. So this person isn’t stepping on their toes by making this ad that means they won’t be doing anything about it.

This is basically an ereader app for AO3. They’re not ~stealing~ your fics and selling them for profit. The app is a fancy interface for AO3. It gives you a fancy way to view the site and download fic, but it’s not actually hosting them. It’s not setting up your fic on a new site. It’s JUST allowing people a different way to view and interact with AO3.

They’re not profiting off of your fic they’re being paid for use of their interface. If people want to view ads instead of accessing AO3 ad-free on a browser, that’s their business. If they want to pay $1/month to see AO3 through a fancy skin without ads instead of using a browser that would do the same thing for free, that’s their prerogative. It makes absolutely no sense to me why anyone would WANT those things, but it’s not my business to interfere with the idiom “a fool and his money are soon parted.”

This is not to say that the app doesn’t have serious problems. The major problem I can see is that the app is completely and totally not affiliated with AO3 but gives users the option to log in- but since they are unaffiliated, this means you’re basically giving your login credentials to a third party.

So, you know. Those of you who just downloaded the app just to bitch them out and logged in to do it- the app creator potentially has your login info now. Maybe go change that on AO3 asap, and don’t use login to AO3 through this app just in case.

And if you’ve left a nasty review of this app in response to this initial post, perhaps consider taking it down or revising it with actual information (like maybe the bit about not logging in). I get being upset over the idea of someone stealing your fic to make a profit, but that’s not what is happening here, and this app creator does not deserve backlash for something they’re not even doing.

This app is just…. it’s a little like rabb.it was. You have an account and you view another account through it (except in this case I think you’re providing login info to the app differently than you did in rabb.it). You’re looking at AO3 through the pocket fanfic window.

Taken from a response from AO3 support:

To the best of our knowledge, the app is not wholesale scraping and storing data - they’re displaying content from the Archive in a very heavily modified format. Because the app’s subscribtion fee can be explained as “to support the app’s code base” and not for the content itself, it is within legal bounds.

*DO NOT REPOST MY ART*

This… came out longer than I expected lol

But nevertheless, yes, they will stalk film (and have been filming) the titans 24/7. They even filmed their most embarrassing moments too haha, they are A L W A Y S  W A T C H I N G… I mean, it IS for research purposes though

The obvious answer is because of the horrible things she did.

But the other diamonds did horrible things too…worse things even.

Pink abandoned Spinel, which is wrong, but Spinel was planning to kill every living thing on Earth to spite the son of a person who was no longer even alive. Yet, no one talks about what a monster Spinel is.

So many Steven Universe characters have hurt people, but we forgive them and are happy to see them redeemed.

So why not Rose?

Then, it hit me: because Rose’s redemption arc is told to us in reverse.

The first time we see Rose is toward the end of her life when she is pregnant with Steven. We see her appreciation for life and how full of love she is for Greg and her future child. She’s willingly sacrificing herself to bring a new life into the world.

But then, we start learning who Rose used to be, all her mistakes, all the people she hurt.

The loving mother in Steven’s video becomes a distant memory.

For those of you who hate Rose, imagine her backstory unfolded a little differently for us.

We’re introduced to Pink Diamond: she’s spoiled, bratty, immature, irresponsible, and inconsiderate.

She throws temper tantrums when she doesn’t get her way.

Not exactly an endearing character, right?

But one day, her tantrum injure Pink Pearl, her best friend. From that day on, she keeps everything to herself. Now we see her dealing with a consequence of her bad behavior.

Then we see how she’s abused by the other diamonds. We start to sympathize with her.

We see her try to save Earth. We see her trying to do the right thing for once.

But it backfires horribly.

She spends the rest of her life trying to fix it, but she can’t.

She meets Greg. Here is where Rose has the most emotional growth as a character. She learns what is truly means to be a “real person.”

Finally, she grows such an appreciation for human life, that she decides to sacrifice her form to bring her son into the world.

The reason Rose is so much more controversial than other characters who have done problematic things is because her story is told in reverse, her redemption comes across as a fall from grace.

But there are plenty of characters who have a fall from grace who are still not as controversial as Rose. The reason why many people are less sympathetic to Rose is because we never see how Rose reacts to her mistakes. We never get much insight into how Rose feels about herself and the things she’s done. We get small hints:

All About Auras

An aura could best be described as the energy given off by someone or something. Supposedly, everything has an aura, even an apple. Many people are able to either see or ‘sense’ auras, which may appear as a haze of light or colour surrounding something.

The colour an aura appears can have many correspondences, which can relate to someone’s mood or spirituality, or can be because of external factors such as light intensity. It’s even said to be possible to tell if someone is pregnant from the way their aura appears.

Common misconceptions about auras:

It is always the same colour.  - This is untrue, as auras tend to change colour when affected by many different factors. However one colour may be dominant.

It is always the same shape and texture.  - Nope, they could appear hazy, smooth, or spiky. Some could have auras spanning an inch from their bodies, but others could have auras reaching out to a metre.

There is scientific evidence for auras.  - Again, untrue. Despite many people being able to see auras, there is no way to measure them or comprehend why it is even there.

Your aura is a shield.  - Whilst it’s possible to utilise your energy to shield yourself from things through visualisation, your aura alone is by no means a barrier against spirits and vampire-like entities looking to ‘feed off’ your energy. Learn how to ward yourself.

There is only one colour at a time.  - Your visible aura can actually be a mix of colours. However, there are also seven different extents of your aura, ranging from physical to spiritual, which could all be a different colour at one time.

It is especially important to note that auras are constantly changing. This could be seen as Anicca, or impermanence, in which the Buddha taught that nothing is permanent and everything is constantly changing. The aura reflects this truth in ourselves and those around us.

Seeing Your Aura

Some people are able to see auras with ease without a whole lot of practice, whereas others might never be able to comprehend the aura. It is common for many witches to practice with seeing their aura.

Here is a simple exercise which will help you to begin seeing your aura. This is what I tend to get people to do often when starting with auras. If inexperienced, it is important to practice often in order to get better!

You may want to begin by meditating or casting a circle in order to have a better focus on your aura. Make sure you are calm and in the mindset to concentrate.

Find a blank area, such as a white wall or a sheet of paper, and hold your hand out to it. It is important that you don’t get distracted by the colour of the wall or anything on it.

Rather than focusing directly onto your hand, shift your gaze to look just past it. For instance just past your fingers, but not the space directly between your fingers.

Focus on this space. To avoid distracting yourself, practice steady breathing as you would in meditation.

Eventually, you should begin to see a haze of light surrounding your hand. At first it may appear small and even colourless, but keep practicing and you will start to see it even better.

Colour Correspondences

The colour of an aura can have many connotations, and can be dictated by thr shape and texture too. But here is a guide to help you with the typical deciption of simple aura colours.

RED -

Centred/grounded, passion, anger, energetic.

ORANGE -

Power, confidence, outgoing, good health.

YELLOW - 

Spiritual awakening/awareness, playful, happiness.

GREEN -

Healing, good communication, jealousy.

BLUE -

Intuition, calm, clairvoyance, honesty, fear of the future.

PURPLE -

Daydreaming, spirituality, artistic, psychic abilities.

WHITE -

Newness, purity, reaching enlightenment, angelic.

BLACK -

Negative feelings, blocked energy, potential illness.

BROWN -

Grounded, tied to the outdoors, afraid to let go.

PINK -

Loving, sensual, psychic gifts, dishonesty.

SILVER -

Physical and spiritual wealth, awakening of higher thought.

GOLD -

Enlightenment, protection from divine entities, guidance.

RAINBOW -

I have some hours before work so I’ll use them to actually detail why I’ve found CSPaint to be so efficient for bastard-aligned painters who like to take shortcuts.

This will seem familiar to most of you guys, but this functions a little bit different from Photoshop. It turns everything you draw on the layer into editable curves, but retains the aliased smoothness of an ordinary raster layer. Practically a cheat to access the whole suite of amazing tools CS offers for lineart. Such as:

The vector eraser is The Best™. You can be as messy as possible and this tool erases the excess. One pen-flick and it’s done. Much faster than cleaning it up by hand. You can also tweak the settings of this brush to encapsulate more/less lines as you erase but that’s getting a little more involved. Anyway, last thing:

Maybe the only thing better than the vector eraser. There are multiple settings, but these three are the most handy. You can smooth wiggly edges, connect broken strokes, and tweak the width/weight to exactly how you want it. This also has a ton of settings you can play around with. It’s great!

Here is my comic contribution to Despite Everything: An Undertale Zine About Feelings, a mini-anthology I coordinated to celebrate Undertale’s 4 year anniversary back in September, featuring nine comics by nine contributors reflecting on the lasting significance of Undertale in their lives four years after the game’s initial release. 

My comic is a little bit vulnerable, and is about how Undertale helped me get through one of the biggest challenges of my life: my top surgery, which I underwent in 2016. 

Despite Everything is a free-to-read digital zine that you can download and enjoy for yourself (for free!) right here on gumroad: https://gumroad.com/products/DliCI

I loved making this comic and editing this zine, and I hope you enjoy reading it.

Be good. ♥︎