a common showgirl

Anaïs Nin's diaries are her most incredible achievement as an author bc she was obsessed with fictionalizing her own life & romanticizing her sexual affairs with other artists and intellectuals even when those relationships were destroying her. also she went joker mode and tracked down her estranged divorced father to seduce him as an insane power play & fucked him multiple times before ending it. but her grasp on Fascism and Communism is really weak and she often says stupid things about them bc her entire knowledge of these topics is conveyed to her through the aesthetics and intellects of the men she devours sexually (and who in turn consume her) not through reason or understanding. she stopped being a joker mode adulteress in her 40s after finally meeting a therapist she couldn't seduce

everyday I love and appreciate women more and more

they hate me because i live a second life in my dreams and wake up changed from the experience