Slaughtered Lamb

I'm somehow not enough and too much at the same time

I wish the reason I'm shaking was that I'm happy

You know you hurt me, right?

I guess I must have always been a jealous person somewhere underneath all these hard layers. Seeing how some people who love so obsessively and possessive try giving the world to the one they love. I hate seeing how they're faces turn sad and try to act like their heart isn't shattering. Envious of how the other said yes to dating such a person who was ready to leave everything behind for them. Just to be in the one sided relationship which they didn't really care about. Hated seeing how they mocked or laughed at them. Maybe giving someone hope was a fatal blow too.

It’s incredible how badly you made me feel. So bad that I always feel inferior and annoying, like I shouldn’t even exist. So bad that my days are just black and white right now. You took the colors from my eyes and stole my happiness.

Why don’t you love me ? Haven’t I been enough ?

Why don’t you love me , why am I not enough . Why am I never enough . Haven’t I been perfect , perfect for you ? Why can’t you just love me ?

I am doing everything I can and it won't ever be enough for you... Huh? -🕶

No one was ever as soft, as kind, as wonderful, to me as you. You are the only thing, everything, I need. To be without you would kill me, like a flower wilts without sun.

even if you spent your life with someone else, i could never take another lover. i could never love someone else. that’s the price i’ll pay for loving you.

I wish I could stop being conscious every second you’re not interacting with me .

Sometimes I wish I wasn't that difficult to handle. I wanted to be someone easier to love.